January 2, 2016

Dear Diary,

It's 2016! New Year of my life. Another chapter will be about to be turned.

It's been a while since I last wrote my entry, it's vacation so might as well having fun for a while.

Well I spend my Christmas with Maria. Well it's really good to be alive because after our family outing I didn't expect that she rented and prepared a hotel suite for us.

And it's a five star hotel. I guess its no surprising that she can rent this much for us just because she's my fiancée. But still its too much and I can tell that my family are enjoying it.

Well, looks like I'm gonna help myself here since they all enjoy it.

One of my embarrassing moments during that time is that when I lastly opened the door is that a lady is running towards the door and we accidentally bumped each other.

And t-that lady a-almost took my first kiss! Good thing I'm good at this kind of moment. But suddenly I feel something negative near me at my right side.

And when I just took a glance, it was Maria, staring at us as if like she's going kill us with stare.

Oh my, immediately I stepped out and explained it that it was a misunderstanding and apologized to her, good thing she's not a "Yandere" type.

Because if she was one, I bet girls around me even my friends who are girls will be surely killed. But even she's a Yandere, she's still cute though.

But despite of it, I'm gonna marry her eventually and one day I'm gonna have my own family and kids of mine will be by my side one day.

I've been thinking lately, ever since I met her, what kind of points she saw in me. For sure the reason why I can't manage to have a girlfriend is because I don't have any attributes that I girl likes.

All I have is that I have my skills in drawing and I can play guitar but only a little. Still I'm not sure if that only can impress her.

The difference between us, so much difference that I don't know if I can still catch up to her.
But despite all of it, out of ten thousand — no, a million boys around the world she chose me of all the people.

I'm so happy about it, she chose me as her fiancée, as her future partner but I don't know how to respond because it's too sudden, that's why we still have 3 years before we can be married officially.

So while there's still time, I'm gonna use it to spend it with my fiancée, with Maria.

Anyways let's change the topic diary, as I said, Maria did rent up a hotel suite for us and she said that she also wants to spend the New Year with me in this hotel and we will be sharing room until New Year's Eve.

All of a sudden I got flustered that time, not thinking straight. Damn! My mind is really playing and stimulating when it comes to this.

It can't be helped, I'm a boy after all. But still thinking indecent things is way out of the line but if she really insisted.

No, no, no! What the hell am I thinking!? I shouldn't thinking about those kind of things! Darn! I can't get it out of my mind!

I admit that she's sexy and has a wonderful figure but that will ruin if something happened between us, right?

I want to save that till the time comes.

"Oh dear temptations, thou leave me alone for I want to spend thy time with Maria happily without indecent moments."

And there it goes my spell for casting away temptations.

Too bad, it's still tempting me though, but that time it's Maria who's motivating me and giving in to me so easily.

It's really hard to fight off temptations when that tempting moment comes to a hand where the most beautiful girl is the one who is tempting you.

And of course thanks to that spell, I manage to fend it off though it's really hard and end up with regrets that I should've gave in.

But I realize that s*x is only after marriage, there's still time to know about us each other.

Let us not skip the steps of getting to know each other Maria, for little by little I'm becoming more sincere to you.

Not so long, and I will be inlove with you.

~ Charles