INSOMNIA😑
Sleep has been a stranger lately
Countless night of staring at the wall
People judging me for sleeping so late
They don't know I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling
Tossing, turning
Counting to 100 and back, many many times.
They don't know the struggles of feeling like I won't ever go to sleep
This struggles of feeling like I'm in a time loop
A forever loop of staring, waiting for my lids to fall closed.
My mind won't stop wandering
It's like I'm in too deep
Tonight my insomnia - my constant companion, kept me awake.
We talk about life, love and my dreams
It wasn't nice to me.
Screams and scolds,
My thoughts race, my heart beats fast
It told me my fuck ups and made it clear to me things I should have done
Including things I should have said and have avoided
My insomnia wasn't friendly
I tried to make peace,
But every night, it comes with a different pattern
A
never
ending
pattern 💔