August 14
Dear Whatever,
Today was supposed to be the first day of school for me. But I kinda missed it because I'm still on my way to Idaho. To be honest I don't know when we're getting there anymore. And honestly I don't care. I don't want to go to this school and start a new life. I just want to lay in bed and forget life and responsibilities. But obviously I can't do that because I'm a teenager and school is my life right now.
I didn't cry today....wait...no that's a lie I did cry today. I was in a late call with Allen when I wasn't supposed to be(savage) and I was crying when I said I missed him. I don't think he heard me tho so that's good. I'm trying to be strong but I'm failing miserably. At least he doesn't know that.
During the day Allen told me that he got invited to go to the fair by some friends. And I thought that was cool then I heard the reason. They wanted him out of the house to make sure he was ok after my move. And that sounds so sweet and they sound like really caring friends but....and yes there is a but! Where the hell is my text checking if I'm ok. WHERE IS IT BECAUSE IT SURE AS HELL IS NOT ON MY PHONE!!
Allen tells me they probably sent it through iMessage which I don't have rn because I don't have data. Which is understandable. But then I get internet. ZERO MESSAGES. I give my phone a minute then I get a text from Ash(girl) and all she sent me was a video of one of our friends at a decathlon or something. No "Hey how are you" or " how's the move" or even "are you okay" none of the shit. So I'm pissed. I texted her back and no answer. And that is one reason I'm happy I don't have to deal with those people anymore. There is more reasoning behind that. So to some it up...I get left out a lot and I mean A LOT. I even got left out at my birthday party AND(I shouldn't have an and) my going away party. My fucking going away party! Like wtf!
But whatever I'm already moving so I shouldn't care but it's still gets to me.
Until next time...
~Marie