August 13
Dear Whatever,
I don't do diaries but here I am writing anyways. Today I left Maryland to move to Idaho. Yea I know what you're thinking Diary who moves to Idaho, well apparently my family. My moms boyfriend has a house there and my mom hates it here so we're moving with him. Also it has to do with her being in love with him but whatever.
Yesterday was hard. I had to say goodbye to my darling Allen. He is my everything. I love him with a my heart. Saying goodbye killed me. When he said good bye I could hear his voice breaking. He tried to hide it but that definitely failed. I told him to keep smiling that adorable smile of his for me. My darling can't really handle a lot of sadness. He's gone through a lot and I don't want to leave. Bad thing happened when I'm not around. I don't want him to change because I'm gone. I want him to be his happy, sarcastic, dark self. I want him to be happy.
He really scared me yesterday. He's done some things that I really hate before we met. He said that he could possibly go that way again. I personally don't understand completely how his mind works and why he would turn to that with me leaving but I can't understand everyone.
I've only cried once since we last said goodbye. It would have been more but I'm trying to stay strong for him. If I can be strong then maybe he can do it too.
Well I'm done writing for today Diary.
Until tomorrow
~Marie