6/26/18

I got rejected again.

It hurt so badly that I wanted to cry. Well, I almost did but I chose not to.

I'm not trying to look brave or anything but why would I cry for the same thing? Because I'm hurt but I'm used to it.

I already cried before, many times for the same reason.

I guess, I never learned my lesson.

I should've put up my wall strong enough to guard myself.

But I always fall in the trap. I'm weak.

They will make me believe that they like me, that they care but in the end, it's me who receives the wrong message. It's just their friendly act, nothing more.

Questions are running in my head.

Am I easy? What's wrong with me? Am I just giving myself false hope every time I like someone?

Duh. The answers for those are already swarming in my head.

I have my answers for that but I don't know if those answers are right or wrong. All I know is those are against me.

Should I be mad at them?

Or should I be mad at myself because it's just me who's hurting myself?

Damn.

I know the answer.

X

Pessimistic. 💔