A/N- Guys, I know this wasn't a request. And honestly I'm trying really hard to get them done but I have my Gcse English Lit exam in about 4 weeks. And I need to revise every night. Im still trying though. I decided to write about Subaru, because I feel that most like him right now. I just... need to let some of my feelings out right now. If you're sensitive to suicidal thoughts, or cutting then I really wouldn't read this chapter. I hope you enjoy anyway.

The young albino sat at his mother's grave, his head was turned down. The white roses he had picked from the garden lay on top of the freshly dug soil.
"Mama... Please come back. I can't do this alone. I'm too weak to be alone. Too weak.. Please Mama. Come back to me." The little boy wept that night, all alone by the gravestone.

"Mother... I brought you flowers again. I hope you like them.. I grew them specially for you, Mother. Please be proud." Subaru's voice cracked as he knelt in front of the gravestone again.
"I'm sorry... I can't do this anymore. It's like I'm underwater and I can't breathe, but when I look around I can see everyone else breathing fine. My life just wasnt meant to be Mother. I am wasted here; born at the wrong time and in the wrong place. But tonight is the night I end it. I'm coming mother. I'm coming to see you. Please accept me."

Subaru layed the flowers down, pulling the knife from his hoodie pocket.
" I have reached the end of my story. Today is the day I put Down the pen and close my book forever"
He pulled up his sleeves, seeing his damaged, scarred wrists and torn bandages.
"It's time. Accept me with open arms. Take me into your embrace and never let go. Don't make me be alone anymore."
With a cry, he slid the sharpened sliver blade against his wrist, crimson liquid falling out the cuts onto the grave. He did the same thing on the other side, watching the blood rush out of his own arms.
" It's done Mother. I can go to Utopia with you, where the sky is made of diamonds and the rivers flow gold, where the trees and flowers speak, and there is no such thing as sadness."

Subaru's head spun as he began to feel dizzy, he layed down on the grave and curled up, his tears and blood stained the soil. He slowly closed his eyes, never to be opened again.