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*AUTHOR'S NOTE*
In no world do I believe self-harm is the answer. I do not glorify self-harm or support it whatsoever. I hope for all of you depressed or harming readers, that you are inspired by these scenarios to speak up and tell an adult of what you're doing. Also, these are going to be long. Cheers,

~Coffee

Shu

"Get lost slut." They said throwing your bags at you. You looked at them with watering eyes and stood up. "Y/n! Are you ok? What happened?" You friend asked in a concerning tone, helping you up. "They're just jerks." You replied pulling your bag upwards.

Later that night, as you sat in music class playing the violin, you heard that same group of retards walk inside. "So Sakamaki, wheres the money?" They looked at you akimbo and put their fingers in their palms. "I thought I said I didn't have it." You replied looking at them. "Tct, alright. It's 30,00 now."

"What!?" You shot up and looked at them with an upset face. The leader, who was known as Yuri, hit you straight across the face. "Yep, sure is." She smirked at your distressed face. "Alright, what do I have to do?"

The next night, which was a Saturday, your dad noticed you walking down the stairs wearing a rather formal outfit for a night out with your friends. "Y/n, where are you going?" Shu said opening one eye. "Oh it's alright dad; I'm just going to...hang out with friends." You did an eye closed smile and ran out the door.

"I swear Y/n is too happy sometimes."

When your 'friends' brought you to downtown Tokyo that night, you stood with them halfway in an alleyway. "See that guy over there? Walk up to him and ask if he'll treat you to dinner. Then, you know what to do." Yuri said. "Why? You'll get me expelled!" You whined. "Do you need me to tell your dad that you did something rather evil to Kyoya, if you catch my drift."

She pushed you out into the street, straight into the creepy old dude's arms. You looked up at him in embarrassment and he opened his mouth to speak. "Could it be...that...a pretty young girl like yourself...is...is asking me out?!" He said in an awestruck voice. "Um, I."

CLICK! Yuri's phone said taking a picture.

"Come come! Let's go get something to eat and then we can go back to my place!" He said pushing you forward. "No I..I have to go!" You said running away.

When you got home, you sat in your bed scrolling down social media. "What's that? You muttered looking at the latest update from Yuri's social media page. It was the picture of you and the creepy old man. "last...straw....LAST STRAW!" You yelled dropping your phone and running into the bathroom. You looked at yourself in the mirror and pulled your arm near your mouth.

Then you bit straight into your own vein making the blood squirt like a geyser out of you. You sucked so much blood out and eventually fell unconscious on the bathroom floor.

Your life continued like that for weeks. Until, one day, as you were taking a bath and slitting your arm with your fangs, you collapsed into the water bellow with your blood draining hastily out of your body.

'Sakura no hana wa itsu hiraku?

Yamano o sano ni itsu hiraku

Sakura no hana wa itsu niou?
Warau nananoko asobu koro

Sakura no hana wa itsu odoru
Utau nana no ko nemuru koro

Sakura no hana wa itsu kuchiru
Shinda nana no ko noboru koro..'

You opened your eyes and everything was blurry. The sight you saw was Shu in the bathtub with you slowly whispering the lyrics to a song over and over again. "...Dad?" You whispered as you looked straight at him. "Y/n what made you think killing yourself would fix all your problems?" Shu said looking at you. "I don't know..." You replied. "I love you too much." Your dad said hugging you. "Dad....I'm sorry...I'm so...useless..." Your eyes began to water when Shu hugged you and did what he always did to make you happy,

He gave you his earbud and turned on the music.

Reiji

You were eating your lunch on the rooftop of the school. "Mother always makes the best lunches." You said eating a bite of curry chicken. "There she is." You noticed four guys walking near you. You were clearly disturbed at the fact of what they said to you. Before you knew it, a black eye and bloody nose was all you knew.

Later that night, as you walked home from school, you suddenly felt a chill make its make down your spine. You walked faster out of fear. You began hearing voices. The voices were whispering. You swallowed hard and tried flying out, but it wasn't a full moon. Feeling lost, you evolved into running. As you ran faster to your house, you felt someone grab onto your arm. Out of horror you turned around to see those boys again. They were seniors, quite superior compared to you.

"Get away from me!" You casted your fangs at them making them laugh. "Oo looks like we have ourselves a vampire! Oh no! Get the garlic and Holy Cross!" They teased. You jerked your arm away and gave them the evil eye. "It's not like that." One behind you grabbed your hair and gave it a sniff. "Oo she must really be one! Her hair smells of blood!" You tried pulling away, but failed miserably. "You guys are very impolite! I should tell my father!"

They waved their hands at you. "Oh no I'm so scared! What're they gonna do? Bite me? Haha!" Filled with rage, you stomped away almost in tears. "Yeah that's right! Cry me a river!" They yelled at you.

In your room that night, you sat at your desk playing with a pen. "Y/n, sweetheart? Are you alright?" Yui said walking in the room. "I'm ok mother." You replied without moving. "Darling you didn't even come to dinner. How are things at school?" She bent down to your eye level, but you didn't look at her. "Fine." You replied turning away. "Ok, well, baby if you need anything, mommy is here. Ok?" You nodded and muttered 'ok' before she kissed your head. "Ok, get some rest sweetheart. Goodnight."

She left the room and you pulled out your diary. "If this were an anime book, Hell Correspondence would exist." You said.

The next night, after school, Reiji came to tuck you in for bed. That night you had the same people slit glass into your back, so you were in extreme pain. "Y/n how did you get that black eye?" Reiji said pushing up his glasses. "Oh I was sleeping in class and when the teacher hit my desk with the ruler so I hit my eye with my fist." You finished with a laugh. Reiji gave you a small smile and as he walked out of the door, you asked him a question.

"Father, if I were to go to hell before you, would you miss me?" Reiji looked at the ceiling. "Honestly Y/n, what kind of literature have you been reading? It seems as if the last few days you've been down in the dumps. Of course I'd miss you. Now go to sleep." He said closing the door, leaving you alone.

But as you laid there, you began thinking of tomorrow. "It'll be the same, the day after it will be the same, it'll all be the same until I die. They'll just make a fool of me and mistreat me." You said. With that flame ignited in your heart, you stood up and walked into the bathroom.

You reached for the razor and pressed it against your arm. "It's for the best." You began. "If I disappeared." You moved the blade across your arm. "Forever." The blood slowing came flooding out onto the floor. You watched it closely and told yourself, 'Every day I wake up and receive torment from others, I will slit my body. When it stops, I will be free again.'

Meanwhile as Reiji laid in the bed reading a book with Yui, he thought about your question. "Well that's quite odd." He told himself as he shut the book and placed it on the dresser. "What is it dear?" Yui looked at him confused. "Y/n asked me the weirdest question today; I hope she's alright." He stated in a concerned voice. "I'd better keep an eye on her."

"It's quite evident that your grades have decreased Y/n." Reiji said holding your report card three months later. "Want to tell me what's going on?" He asked. You looked at him and smiled. "It's just those stinking clubs father!" You chuckled. Reiji was reluctant to agree with you, but eventually complied.

It had been another day of torment and you cried as you slid the razor across your skin. "Slit 105." You declared as you put down the razor and reached for the bandages nearby. You bandaged it up and just as you did the door opened and Reiji stood there holding a book. "Stop. Stop right now!" He said running over to you, dropping the book on the floor.

He kneeled on the floor and grabbed you by your shoulders. "Y/n, is there something you want to tell me?" Although he already saw the entire incident, he wanted you to confess to what was wrong. "Father...I...these.." You eyes reddened up with tears as you held your arms. "Boys they were doing bad things to me and I just wanted it to to stop! I started slitting myself because I thought that the more I did it the more it would bring me hope that there would be an end!" You sobbed.

Reiji pulled your sleeve up to see the blood still streaming from the wound. Other bandages surrounded it. He started by unraveling the first one, then the second, and then the third. He stood you up and gently removed your shirt, setting it aside, to see bandaids and cloth all throughout your skin. "Y/n, cutting is never the answer. You understand? How long has this been going on?" He said concerned.

"....105 days, 15 hours, 6 minutes...." You replied in a quiet voice. Reiji looked at you and sighed. "I love you so much. You're not worthless. You don't let them get to you. I'll handle them, ok?"

You dried your eyes and smiled. "Father...thank you!" You replied realizing you weren't alone.

Ayato

You walked your sassy self down the hallway towards your next class, home economics with your friend Yui. Yui had her long pink hair flowing behind her as the two of you walked through the door together. The both of you sat in the front and waited for the teacher to walk inside, and when he did, he announced the upcoming announcement.

"Alright kids, settle down. Now, I will be partnering you up today with someone else who you will work for the rest of the semester with on the assignment where you will be raising a false baby with."

All of the names had been called it except you and three others. "And lastly, Y/n Sakamaki with Alois Trancy." He said. You flinched as you looked near the back to see him making hand trails down his arm. Yui looked at you and told you to ask if you could switch, but he said nope.

Therefore that night you went to Alois to his mansion. The first thing he did was sling you into the wall. "Admit you're shit Sakamaki!" He yelled. You flinched and shook your head. "Uh no duck off." Alois slapped your face and made you land on the floor. "What was that for?!" You yelled. Alois bent down to you and grabbed your throat. It felt intensely uncomfortable.

"G-get off!" You replied trying to push him away. "Now you die Sakamaki!" He said. Suddenly he got off of you and stood up. "Here's the deal. Either you come to my house every day until the assignment is over, or I'll kill your sister." You looked at him horrified. "But you'd kill my mom too!" You yelled.

"That's the idea. So you'll obey me?" He said giving you a smirk. "Alright..."

For the next month, your project was put aside and you were forced to endure all of the pain and suffrages Alois gave you. One night it was having metal burned in the fireplace and pressed on your skin, another it was being drowned in his bedroom sink. Regardless, he was being a complete bitch to you.

Some nights when he'd be angry, he'd force you on your back and stick glass shreds through your skin. He also tormented you verbally such as saying you should be dead.

But one night when you came home with your arm burned, you had a desire to poor out your grievance. "Pancake! Yours Truly has brought you up dessert cooked by Yui herself!" Ayato said as you were doing homework outside. "Oh thanks dad. What kind of cake is this?" He sat back in the chair and looked at the stars. "Strawberry. I swear your mother has a fetish for strawberries." You laughed a little at your dad. "Well thanks for the cake dad." You said. "Anytime. Oh and Pancake? How's your assignment with that Alois kid going?" Your eyes widened in fear. "Fine dad." He nodded and gave you a thumbs up.

After finishing the cake, you walked up the stairs to the swimming pool and decided to take a dip. But you weren't in your bathing suit, just in your uniform. You looked at the water and held your hand outwards. "This world would be so much cleaner; so much better; so much angelic if I were dead." You said holding a set of scissors out over the pool. You slid them across your wrist making the pool have drops of blood floating in streams.

It continued like that for the rest of the semester. On the nights Alois would stab you in the back with glass, you would come home a crying mess back sought nourishment through cutting and seeing that blood.

"Come on Yui!" Ayato said pulling Yui into the indoor swimming pool's room. You watched from afar with wide eyes as he should deep affection for your mother. They didn't notice you and kissed underneath the light.

"Why?" You said pulling out the rusted scissors. You slit yourself like that day three months ago and began crying noiselessly. "WHY!?!?" You screamed making your parents jump. You jabbed it inside of your chest and fell into the pool.

Everything around you turned bloody red and blurry. You closed your eyes and decided to wait for the sweet taste of death to fill you.

"Y/n!" Ayato screamed jumping into the pool and swimming to you. You felt his embrace and the cold air hitting your skin. "...Daddy..." You murmured. "Y/n....don't close your eyes again." He demanded. Yui ran over to you and Ayato placed you on the nearby sofa. "Daddy....I'm sorry..." You said looking at him with blood dripping from your chest. "Forget about that. Why would you do something that...that terrifying!" He said hugging you. Yui grabbed bandages to fix you up when you pulled your sleeve up.

Your slits still had fresh blood streaming out. Ayato wiped it away with his sleeve and him and Yui both embraced you. "I love you so much Pancake." Ayato cried. He was crying. For some odd reason, him crying made you happy. It made you suddenly feel loved. "I'm sorry mom and dad." You said before smiling.

Kanato

It all began one day when you were swinging at the park with your doll. You placed her down on the sand and stood up to get a shovel. But when you looked back, she was gone. "....Mei?" You looked around confused and saw two girls your age playing with her nearby a campfire. They were laughing at you.

"You give that back to me right now!" You yelled barging over there. "Hey I knew it belonged to Y/n! Told ya!" One said. "Give it back!" You shouted at them and suddenly one grabbed you from behind, restraining you. "Oh boo who; poor Y/n." The girls from your school said as she held it over the fire. "What are...doing?!" You said as she dangled it. "Give it back!" You screamed trying to escape the other's grasp. Then, she laughed and dropped it inside with a boo who coming from her lips.

You screamed louder than before. "Come on let's get out of here." They said laughing and releasing you. You scrambled over and screamed at the doll's burning body. "Mei!" You cried.

The next day at school, you were so filled with hatred and wanted to find them and kill them, that the second you found them, you shouted at them. "You heartless bastard!" You screamed. You walked to her, getting ready to tell her off, when she pushed you to the floor. You looked at her tearfully and she sat down on the floor herself.

"Help! Help! Y/n is bullying me!" She screamed. People came running out and saw you standing up. "Y/n! You! Office now!" The principal yelled grabbing your ear and dragging you.

In the office he pushed you down. "Y/n. You don't hurt other kids." You yanked yourself up and almost yelled at him. "But sir I didn't!" You cried. He rolled his eyes and grabbed the phone, calling your parents.

When they arrived, Yui apologized deeply for your unruly behavior. The card ride home was just as bad. "Y/n," Yui began. "Um, the University has canceled your application." Yui said making you quiver. "What?" You replied. "I'm sorry dear; I knew you worked so hard." In the backseat you started cursing those girls.

The teasing got worse. A week later she walked up to you and ticked you off even more. "I got your application Y/n! I'm going to be filling your spot!" She bragged. "Oh and daddy also said he'd buy me a car if I got the application!" All of the work you did was useless now. Everything you had ever worked for was gone.

In the girls bathroom you locked the door and had a complete meltdown. You shattered the mirror and kicked the walls so hard it left holes. You grabbed your razor and as you screamed, cut your shoulder. By the time you calmed down, the floor, mirror, wall, and sinks were all drenched in blood. You stared at yourself in the cracked mirror, telling yourself you were utterly pointless.

The same thing happened when you got home. You locked yourself in the bathroom, destroyed it and cut yourself until the entire room was dripping red with blood. "I worked so hard!" You yelled falling on the floor. "I worked so very hard, and this is the shit I get!" You swore you were going to kill her. But when you opened the bathroom door and began walking down the stairs and collapsed and fell down the stairs.

Yui was out at a friend's house, and when you fell, Kanato raced downstairs to see a bloody trail and you lying on the floor bellow. "Y/N!" He screamed racing down. You lied unconscious as he shook you trying to wake you up. "Y/N! Y/N!" Kanato screamed hugging your body. You opened your eyes and felt your daddy's tears on your face. "...Daddy..." You whispered. "Teddy and I are worried." Kanato said clutching your body. "Daddy, I deserve....they deserve...death." You trailed off before lowering your hand allowing Kanato to see all your cuts. "Teddy, Y/n was cutting herself because of these girls. I'll kill them for you, princess."

Laito

"Little bitch! Get up! It's time for school!" Laito said. You turned around and groaned into your pillow. "I didn't want to do this, little bitch." He said sticking his hands up your shirt. "I'M UP DAD! GET YOUR HANDS OUT OF THERE!"

Laito laughed and kissed your cheek. "Breakfast is downstairs little bitch." You gronaed again and rolled out of bed.

That night at school, you were walking down the hallway to class when you felt two hands pull you into a room. It was the boy's bathroom. Suddenly the leader grabbed you by the collar and dragged you to the floor. "Hey! Stop it!" You screamed as they held you down on the floor. "What should we do?" One says. "Hm. I got it. Let's take off all her clothes and post it to one of those porn websites and social media."

Your eyes widened as you began screaming. "Cover up the moron's mouth." Three hold you down as one begins unzipping your skirt and pulling it down while you kick and cry. As you look up the leader pulls out his phone and starts getting ready to take a picture. "No no she's not nude enough you assholes. Hurry up before someone catches us."

Your feet wiggle around as the skirt comes down to your knees and your shirt was taken off. Tears trickle down your cheeks as they begin removing your shoes and socks. The boy snaps a picture as the others hold her down. He smirks and asks for more.

When you got home that night, you ran upstairs past Laito playing his crossword downstairs and locked yourself in your closet. You opened your phone and wiped your eyes at the sight of you on Levi's social media page--- completely naked. You shut your phone and threw it at the wall. "It's just a dream, it's just a dream, it's just a dream." You tried reassuring yourself.

But you realized it wasn't when you went into school the next day and people were pulling pictures of you out their lockers. It seemed as if your world had become crashing down. Every day when you got home, Laito would ask you if you lost your v-card yet, and instead of laughing like you used to, you ran upstairs and locked yourself in your closet and cut yourself.

"She's not very pretty." You heard someone say as they looked at your picture. You had to start wearing hoodies over your school uniform after that.

Another day came along and you lied crying on your bed with a pocket knife beside you stained with new blood. You stood up and cried. Then as you held it to your wrist again, your hand was restrained. You froze and looked up. Laito looked at you with a sad face. He dropped the knife and pulled you close.

"....This may sound crazy....little bitch....but I understand..." Laito said to you. "You do...?" You replied. Lato nodded in reply. "I sure do." You hugged him back and stained his shirt with tears.

You hadn't noticed, but for the last few weeks, Laito followed you around. He suspected something was wrong after you stopped responding and started hiding in your room. He followed you to school and followed you home. He watched from afar inside of school. Laito had been there, but you never noticed. "Thank you dad." You said.

"For what little bitch?"

"For understanding."

Subaru

You stared at all the echoing laughter coming from those kids. Your face was pale and your eyes were fading color. Everyone looked at you with such taunting faces you couldn't bear to look at it any longer.

You stood there on the stage with the water dripping from every part of your body. Unable to stand it, you walked through the crowds of people and out the front door of the school and all the way home. You were so furious you were ready to kill someone. When you slammed the front door at home, Subaru walked in there to see all the racket and you soaking wet.

"Y/n? What happened; you're all soaking wet." Subaru said as he walked to you. "I'm alright. Just leave me alone." You said before walking upstairs and slamming the door to your room. "Phew. Ok Y/n tomorrow is another day."

But the next day, you opened the door to your slippers' holder and sticker notes fell out with rude remarks on them. You read a phew and looked around at all the laughing kids. "Those assholes." You muttered trying to conceal your emotions. "Don't let them see you cry." You told yourself as you shut the door and walked down the hallway.

"Hey albino!" You heard someone say. "You forgot your shitload of gifts! I bet you feel good being popular!" He said in a yelling voice as you walked past everyone. When you reached your desk, it wasn't much better. The desk spoke of death threats and telling you to kill yourself.

Your facade broke over the next few weeks. You walked home one day with intent of hurting yourself. It wouldn't be the first time you slit your wrists, you had been doing it to show yourself that what you were inducing wasn't pain.

Therefore you walked inside and dumped your bag on the floor. You ignored your papa and mama calling you from the living room and walked up the stairs to the rooftop. The breeze felt wonderful and the amazingly beautiful. You sat on the side with your feet hanging bellow and pulled your knife out. You slid it and the blood dripped on the white roses bellow. You slid it again and again and the white roses had been turned red. With your eyesight fading, you held it to your arm and slid it again.

"Y/n!" You heard someone say, but you didn't turn around. You continued cutting and humming. "What the hell? Are you....oh my! Shit!" Subaru yelled running over to you. He snatched the knife away from you and you continued as if it was still in your hand. "Papa, I'm sorry." You said. Subaru grabbed your back and lead your falling body to the ground. "Dammit...it's alright....you're fine." He said holding your bleeding arm.

"Papa I'm hurting myself." You said. "No Y/n you're hurting me! I--I don't want to see you like this! It hurts just as much as that!" You smiled and cried. "So all those letters and notes wishing I was dead don't mean anything to you? You still...love me?" Subaru hugged you and cried himself. "Of course I do stupid!"