Chapter Thirty One

It was finally Saturday, and I was unashamed to admit that i'd had my bag packed since Thursday evening. I just really needed the break away with Gerard so I could just forget about everyone else. So that it could just be me and him for once, no interruptions.

I'd told my aunt and uncle that I was going to Kellin's for the night, and they hadn't even blinked twice at my lie. I would've told Ray if I thought he'd be interested, but he was still holding his six-day long grudge against me. I'd hoped he'd have mellowed by that point, but he was still angry. I'd be able to tell him the full truth come October, but with it only being late May I knew that I had two options - lie more or let him calm down. So far I was going with option number two.

So I made my way out of the house without any interruptions, my overnight bag slung over my shoulder and my jacket pulled on loosely. I walked to Gerard's, as we'd figured it wasn't worth the risk of him picking me up in case anyone saw. I didn't mind anyway - I liked the walk when the weather was nice and I could just stick my headphones in at what was probably a damaging volume.

Mikey had gone back to New Jersey the previous day, full of promises to come visit again soon, so it was just Gerard home when I got there. He answered the door out of his uniform - dressed in his usual black jeans, but paired with a t-shirt and his leather jacket that i'd seen him wear on a few occasions.

"Hey" He pulled me inside, waiting until the door was shut before he kissed me briefly and took my bag, setting it down next to his one "you get away okay?"

"Yeah, they didn't really ask much about it really" I grinned, following him into the kitchen "I'm a pretty good liar when I want to be."

"You kind of need to be" He chuckled, glancing between us "As much as I hate to say it, our whole relationship kind of relies on it at the moment."

"Well that's why we're going away tonight" I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around him "for the next 24 hours we don't have to lie about our feelings or hide them away anymore. I get to show everyone you're mine without worrying about the repercussions."

"I just feel sorry for whoever gets stuck near us when we get mushy" Gerard leaned back into my hug, placing his hands over the ones wrapped around his waist. I moved my head so it was resting on his shoulder, feeling the leather pressing against my cheek.

"I hope you've packed your collar...." I whispered, making him stiffen in my arms.

"Fuck Frankie, you're going to make me get a boner before we've even got there" although I couldn't see it, I would've betted that he rolled his eyes at that point. I could feel him smiling though, and that just made me giggle.

"You didn't answer my question...."

"Yes, I have" He sighed "only because I know what a fetish you seem to have for it. Fucking weirdo" he teased "come on, let's get going and then when we get there we can talk about this kink you've developed in more detail."

"I'd prefer a demonstration, but sure" he slid out of my grip but kept hold of my hand, pulling me towards the door with a loose grip as he tried and failed not to blush at my comment. "You should also know that when you blush like that it fucking turns me on, okay?"

"Shut up, i'm not blushing" He blatantly lied.

"Whatever you say" I just chuckled, picking up my bag again.

The drive took about two hours. We'd wanted to be sure that we could go far enough away that the risks of anyone recognising us were reduced to minimal statistics. We only stopped briefly at a service station to pick up coffee and doughnuts, both of us eager to reach our destination in plenty of time. Seeing as we only had the one night away, we both wanted to take advantage of all the time available to us both.

I wasn't disappointed when we arrived. Gerard had booked us into a small hotel located on the outskirts of a town, meaning that the countryside was nearby and yet we still had the option to go into the town center if we wanted to.

"I've made dinner reservations" He grinned after we'd parked the car, the two of us were walking up to the hotel front door, our bags over our shoulders and our hands entwined at our sides "it's about time I actually took you out somewhere like a regular couple."

"It feels weird to be holding your hand like this in public, it's going to even weirder when I can actually go into a restaurant with you" I bit my lip, finding it hard to even imagine people not even doing a double take when they saw the two of us together.

"That's why we're here, so we can be open about this for once" he squeezed my hand tighter as we walked into the reception. The woman behind the counter didn't even blink twice at us, just handing over our key and wishing us a pleasant evening. I almost wanted to just push my luck and start making out in front of her just to see her reaction, but before I knew it Gerard was pulling me into the elevator, moving so his other arm was now wrapped around my waist.

"It's really starting to frustrate me that I have to wait until after dinner to fuck you" He rubbed up against me on purpose, making me groan and grip onto his shoulders. I had to focus all of my energy on not getting a boner right there in public, no mater how amusing it would've been for Gerard, I didn't want to give anyone abnormal to stare at. We'd get enough of that when we got home.

"How long till our reservation?" I gulped "if we're quick, i'm sure we could-"

"No" He placed a finger on my lips, shutting me up "I don't want to rush it. I've been looking forward to it for days now. Besides, if we're having the full date experience then sex tends to come after dinner." The door opened at that point, and I was eternally grateful that nobody was waiting for the elevator, as they would've been met with the sight of Gerard pressing against me, his arms wrapped around me as I clung onto his shoulders, both of us giving each other dark and no doubt lustful looks.

"Come on then" I pulled him out of the elevator "or i'll take all the complimentary coffee."

"Don't you dare!" He yelled after me as I hurried down the corridor, locating our room and quickly barreling into it as he caught up. It took no time for the door to close behind him, and even less before he was chucking his bag to one side and using his other hand to grab the front of my t-shirt.

I let him pull me without any hesitation, more than willing for whatever time we had before dinner to be spent making out. To be honest, if it were up to me we'd miss dinner entirely and never even leave the goddam hotel room, but I knew Gerard was excited to take me out properly, so I didn't suggest this plan to him.

He kissed me quickly, not giving me long to sink into it before he was pulling away again, a teasing smirk on his lips.

"I'd go on, but i'm afraid we'll get carried away and miss our date" He explained, keeping a hand on my chest so I couldn't re-connect the kiss and pick up where we'd left off.

"This date better we worth the wait" I grumbled as we just laughed, letting go of me and wandering around, inspecting our room. To be honest, the only thing I was particularly interested in was the double bed, although the en suite looked pretty good too.

Today was just one of those days where my teenage hormones were in no rush to calm down whatsoever. The promise of sex later on had me riled up, especially when gerard fell back onto the bed and spread his arms out, letting out a content sigh.

"If you're going to tease me this much then i'm going to need a smoke" I rolled my eyes, purposely diverting my vision away from the bed and instead focusing on grabbing my pack and a lighter from my bag, heading over to the small balcony. It was more like a ledge, really, but it was enough for me to lean out over as I lit my cigarette without having to worry about setting off any fire alarms in the process.

"Don't ruin your lungs!" Gerard yelled after me, still not moving from the bed "you'll need them later!"

*

"This is weird" I noted, glancing around the restaurant.

"Good weird or bad weird?" He asked between mouthfuls of food. My own dinner was so good it was practically gone, my stomach feeling bloated but content.

"Good, I think" I took in the sweet little Italian, with it's regular customers and a few guests like ourselves. They weren't hard to distinguish, as all the locals knew the waiters and were happily chatting to the them. "I guess it's just me trying to get over nobody looking twice at us. Nobody cares, we're just a normal couple to them all."

"Well get use to it" He grinned "because as soon as we figure out this mess we're in, you and me can be a proper couple."

"How long's that going to take?" I scoffed, trying not to let my mind wander to the details of all the piling shit we were in back home. I wanted to enjoy this without having any of that in my mind.

"I don't know" He admitted "but one day this will be our reality, not just a weekend. I promise" His eyes were wide and serious, and despite all the odds stacked up against us, I found myself believing him. Maybe I was being a foolish, lovestruck teenager, but part of me really did hope that we would make it through everything we were facing.

"I hope you're right. I don't think i'd cope with all this bullshit if you weren't around" I never normally admitted stuff like that, but I felt comfortable enough doing so.

"Neither would I" he chuckled.

"What do you mean? Things were fine for you before I came along" It wasn't like he had many problems that hadn't been caused by me. His career was hanging on the line with every moment he spent with me, surely he would've been better off without those risks appearing in his life?

"Just because I wasn't breaking the law, lashing out, kicking up a fuss and all the other things that people deem to mean trouble dosen't mean I was content, let alone happy before I met you" he tried to leave it there, but I stared at him, waiting for him to go on. After a moment of deliberation, he did. "I mean, I'd never had a relationship like this. I pushed my sexuality to the back of my mind and refused to deal with it. You gave me that push that made me come to terms with who I really am."

"There's more to it than that" I noted "tell me."

"I... I have a lot of doubts I guess" He shrugged "I mean, I was new to the area, homesick for New Jersey... and then you come into my life, a kid from my home state, someone who also feels like a fish out of water living over here. I'm still new to this priesthood, and some days I don't even know if it's what I want anymore. I felt trapped, like I was stuck in a life I may not have originally wanted, and the more i'm with you the more I feel like I had choices again. I feel in control."

"So in control that you're going to throw it all away from a fuck-up seventeen year old" I raised an eyebrow.

"Maybe, but it will be my decision to do so. I'll make that choice, i'll deal with the consequences. At least i'll be choosing what's right for me and what I actually want for once, as opposed to what other's think is best for me" He grabbed my hand over the table, and I noticed how alive his eyes seemed as he talked. I think the things we don't talk about tend to be our biggest passions and dreams sometimes, and when we finally let them out it's always explosive.

"You really want to be with me that bad, huh?" I asked almost nervously.

"Of course" He squeezed my hand tighter "and don't call yourself a fuck up again, lying is a sin you know" he winked at the end, and I felt something stir within me.

"Are you suggesting we skip desert?" I rubbed my thumb along the edge of his hand "because the ice cream really does look great here...." I bit my lip on purpose, causing the desired effect to show on Gerard's features.

"I'll make up for the lack of ice-cream, I promise."

This time when we reached our room, we both only had one thing on our minds. It was probably evident to everyone from how fast we had walked through the foyer, and just how close together we stood in the elevator, our hands gripping each other's in promise. Refreshing, nobody cared, just glancing at us before going on with their own business.

I kicked the door shut with my foot, my hands pre-occupied with grabbing Gerard by the shoulders, attempting to push his jacket off his shoulders. It caught on his elbows, and he had to finish the job, chucking it to the floor as he kicked off his shoes.

I went to grab at his belt, but his hands covered mine, stopping them in their tracks. I gave him a look of confusion, but he just smirked before pushing me further into the room, and to my dismay away from him.

"We're trying something else tonight" He said in the form of little explanation.

"What do you mean?" I asked, but we ignored me, moving over to his bag and rummaging around in it for a moment before pulling out his priest collar.

"Are you going to put this on me or am I going to do it myself?" he asked teasingly, letting it dangle off his pinky finger. I picked it up and turned it over in my hands a couple of times before pulling it around his neck, struggling slightly with the clasp. Eventually, I fixed it on him. The moment I pulled my hands away he was turning around, a hand gripping my waist as he pushed me up against the wall, kissing me properly this time.

It was hard to know what to focus on - his tongue against mine or the way his hands were now pulling my t-shirt up. Eventually we had to break the kiss so he could pull my shirt over my head, and as soon as he had done so he threw his own one off too. Then I grabbed him and started the kiss all over again, in fact I was so busy kissing him that I hardly noticed him undoing my jeans until they were pooling at my ankles. Even then, I just distractedly kicked them off.

My brain seemed to have gone to fuzz; all I could concentrate on was undoing his belt buckle with one hand, the other one busy being entangled in his hair. The moment we finished getting his jeans off we broke apart, but kept our faces close enough together that we could feel each other's breath.

He stared at me for a moment, pupils huge, before pushing me onto the bed with a thump. I let him climb over me, straddling my waist in a way I was sure he knew made me instantly hard. It didn't help that he grinded down on me, making me bite back a moan.

"This is bay back for the other day, isn't it?" I groaned when he grinded against me again, no doubt thinking back to how I'd tormented him in his office. I was starting to regret getting him quite so wound up, because if he didn't stop soon I wouldn't be able to hold out.

"Just a bit" he grinned, looking down at me. I used this moment of temporary distraction to lean up and kiss him, but wrapping both arms around his shoulders as I did so. This made it easier for me to push against him, trying to get him to roll over and let us swap postions. He was adamant though, and pushed back, making me fall back down onto my back.

"Stop teasing me" I complained, just wanting to get on with it by that point.

"I'm not" He laughed "I want to try mixing things up this time, that's all" his eyes travelled down my bare chest, resting on my boxers, where I soon felt his hands reach out and tug at them. "If that's okay with you."

"You mean you wanna..."

"I want to be the one fucking you this time, yes" He leaned down into my neck and started to kiss over my jaw, and then back down over my adams apple, causing any thoughts to disappear from my head except one, and that was just how turned on I was by his proposition. "What do you say?"

"Fuck yes" I groaned, moving my feverish hands to pull off his boxers. Him wanting to fuck me was kind of the last straw for me, and now it was almost hurting me to hold off jacking off at the thought of him inside of me. "Just get on with it and fuck me."

He looked down at me, only wearing his collar now, and a dark look crossed his eyes, telling me he still wanted to have fun first.

"Want to make it even more interesting?" His hand trailed up my thigh, resting just to the side of my dick and making my whole body shiver underneath his weight. All I could do was nod in response, causing him to lean down and whisper into my ear "call me Father Way when you come."

I was practically twitching by this point, so all I could do was let out a frustrated groan, which was cut short with a yelp when he lifted up both my legs, moving so that they were spread out either side of him, and his fingers were pressed against me.

I'd been so busy trying to keep a hold of myself that I hadn't even seen him get the lube out, but as soon as he pushed inside of me with one finger, it was apparent that they were coated in it. I just gaped and tried not to trash too much as he finger-fucked me. It didn't take long before he was pulling away though, if only temporarily, and I felt my whole body quiver, especially when I heard the condom wrapper being torn open, knowing exactly what was coming next. Except I only knew what i felt like to be the one fucking, and this time I was the one being fucked.

I was kind of nervous, but aroused to the point that it didn't bother me as much as it normally would've done.

"You still want to do this?" He asked as he lifted up my knees, moving us both around until he found a decent angle.

"Y-yes."

"Yes what?" That smirk was on his face again.

"Y-yes Father Way" I stuttered, making him groan. Although I couldn't really hear exactly what sort of noises he was making over my own, as that was the moment that he pushed inside of me, immediately making me cry out in a mixture of pleasure and slight pain, lessened by the sheer amount of lube he'd applied.

It felt strange, but I loved it too. Gerard stayed still for a moment, letting me squirm and grind, getting use to the feeling of him inside of me. After a moment or so he drew back, and after a nod from me pushed back in, watching as I panted and gasped.

"You okay?" He asked, going at an agonisingly slow pace no doubt just to wind me up.

"I'd be better if you picked up the pace a bit" I managed to retort before letting out another moan.

"Say it properly" He just grinned, resting his free hand on my thigh and rubbing against it.

"Fuck me harder, father Way" I groaned "oh fuck go faster Father" He complied, slamming into me so fast I barely had time to comprehend it before he was doing it again. It was like a mounting wall of pressure and pleasure, and my own dick now ached from how hard it was.

I gripped it with my sweaty hand, starting to feverishly jack myself off as he continued at his feverish pace, not showing any signs of slowly down any time soon. In fact, as he reached closer and closer he just seemed to speed up.

"Fuck Frankie" He just gasped "You look so good like that."

It was the moment when he hit my prostate that I came hard and fast into my hand, unable to help myself.

"Father i'm going to c-" I didn't even finish the sentence. Luckily Gerard must have been pretty close to, as it was mere moments later that he came inside of me, his yells and moans some of the most beautiful sounds i'd ever heard.

When he pulled out I felt kind of empty, especially when he pulled himself off me in order to clean up. I just lay there, spread out over the sheets, no doubt looking a sweaty mess but not caring. He soon collapsed down next to me on the sheets, this stupid, adorable grin on his face as he looked over at me.

"You're so fucking beautiful" He sighed, wrapping, wrapping an arm around my waist. "I l-" He stopped abruptly, shutting himself up.

"You what?" my eyes widened considerably as I stared back over at him. "Gerard?"

"I love you" He sighed "Have done for a while." I was stunned into silence for a good few moments, just staring at him. "Sorry, I didn't want to scare you or anything."

"No, you didn't" I shook my head, snapping out of my trance "It's just strange to hear you say it, that's all. And.. and I think I love you too. I've never felt like this before about anyone... and i'm pretty sure that's what it is."

"You don't need to say it back if you're not sure" He chuckled "I just want you to know."

"I know I don't need to, but I want to" I sighed, moving closer to him, not caring that we were both kind of sweaty. "I love you."

And I meant it.

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Sorry I made you wait but this is a longer chapter than normal plus it has all the sex so I reckon I should be forgiven.

Ngl this was very fun to write hope you enjoyed it.

~ Headfirst for Helena