C H A P T E R
T H R E E

Ahmad thrusted in and out of one of the girls he occasionally hooks up with whenever he's in the mood.

After everything that's been going on he needed a release, so he called one of his fuck buddies Nia to release his stress on and what's better than a little sex therapy?

Giving her long deep strokes, he closed his eyes letting the sounds of them having sex fill his ears.

When they had sex it was always wild, Nia was into that role play shit, doing it in crazy places as well which was one of the reasons why he always came back. The sex was just never boring, and that's what Ahmad liked.

He arrived at her house earlier that morning around eight or nine, and the two have been on each other since. He didn't even know what time it was now but he knew they had to be going for hours.

As he continued hitting her G-spot repeatedly her loud moans were starting to annoy him. He wasn't the type to make a lot of noise during sex but this girl was acting as if he was the best dick she ever had in her life.

He knew he was pretty blessed when it came down to this department, size wise and stroke wise but damn he ain't think he was that good.

When he slowed up on the strokes she tried leaning up to kiss him but he quickly dodged her lips turning his head so she ending up kissing his neck.

Shorty had life fucked up if she thought they were gon' kiss. He didn't kiss, he felt like kissing held way too many emotions. Sex was just sex to him.

When he ejaculated inside the condom, he pulled out smirking to himself as he took it off then walked into her bathroom connected to her room to flush it down the drain.

Walking out he saw her laying on the bed breathing hard, sitting up she looked over at him smiling. "I swear it gets better everytime..I can't even feel my legs right now." She blushed biting her lip.

Chuckling to himself he walked to the other side of her room to grab his boxers and pants. "Wait, you're leaving?"

Ahmad frowned as he slipped his boxers over his ass. "Um don't I always leave after we fuck?" He asked honestly confused as to why she was thinking otherwise.

"Ahmad, we've been messing around for like a year now .. don't you want us to be more, I know I do."

"Nia you cool and all but you knew what it was from the jump .. I told you I don't do relationships, they ain't for me .. I like you as a person, I do care about you but not in that way .. I'm sorry."

Nia nodded biting her lip, "I understand and you're right .. I did know what this was at the beginning but I can't help that I gained feelings for you .. its been a year Ahmad, I'm human you can't say you don't feel some type of feelings for me deep down."

Nia understood that Ahmad had issues with relationships but she wanted to be the one that changed his views on relationships.

She really liked him, he was funny and sweet at times.. and the sex was just a plus. She wanted him not just as a friend or a fuck buddy but as her man, her soulmate.

"Nia .. look I'm really not what you want, I ain't shit to be honest. I hide behind my feelings, putting on this front as if I'm okay but I'm not. I can't give you what you want, I'm mentally and emotionally fucked up as a person. I'll only hurt you and I'm saying this cause you're a good person who deserves better than what I can give you, and you shouldn't have wait on me either."

She sighed. "I understand .. and I'm sorry for this, I really hope this doesn't make things awkward between us now."

"It'll only be awkward if you make it awkward."

Smiling she stood up grabbing a t-shirt tossing it on as he continued putting on his clothes.

Once he was dressed and ready to go she stood from the bed walking over to give him a hug. Leaving a kiss on her forehead, Ahmad closed his eyes before lifting her chin up a little staring at her.

Nia was indeed eye candy, she was blessed in all the right places. Beautiful mocca chocolate skin, and greyish color eyes that she inherited from her grandmother. She wasn't the smallest woman, had big breast probably had to be about a 42D but even then he wasn't too sure, her ass was out of this world, just know baby girl had a fatty and he loved how it looked when her ass would be tooted up in the air as hit it from the back. The small pudge she had was something that never mattered to him either, he never discriminated a woman on their size or how they looked his focus was on the pussy.

The first day he landed eyes on her.. he wanted her in a sexual way. They bumped into each other at a bar Marcus had dragged him out too. First they talked over a drinks and shit but it didn't take much to get her to drop the panties for him which was another thing that kinda turned him off about her.

She was easy and he really didn't see how she liked him when she knew nothing about him really. The sex was good between the two but he honestly didn't want to take it further than that.

"I'll text you alright?" He told her and she nodded hoping he would kiss her but sighed once he let go of her chin and walked out her bedroom.

When she heard the front door close she shook her head. She felt stupid for even asking him about a relationship, she knew she was only gonna get rejected.

She just hoped he didn't fall back from her, the last thing she wanted to do was drive or push him away.

But sadly she did, Ahmad was never the type to hurt a female especially after him getting hurt in the past. But he actually does care for Nia's feelings and didn't want to keep stringing her along knowing how she feels about him.

He felt it would be selfish for him to continue this and forcing it to be something she didn't even want. He knew this would only cause problems later in their situation.

Nia was the type to bring the situation up again about her feelings and he honestly didn't want to go through that so sadly he had to cut ties.

When he reached his condo complex, he parked in his assigned parking spot glancing over at Marcus's car sighing.

The two have yet to speak since that day and it was really getting to Ahmad. It's been two days, they talked Friday and it was now Sunday the two never went this long without talking.

But Ahmad couldn't be mad at anybody but himself because he was the reason they weren't speaking. He heard exactly what Marcus said and knew he was right.

Marcus has always been there for him and always comes to him for advice, he knew it was unfair for him to know so much about Marcus and Marcus not know anything about him really but he wasn't ready yet, and he honestly didn't know when he was ever gon' be ready.

Everybody at work noticed the behavior as well. Melissa of course being her usual nosey self tried to find out what was up but Marcus wasn't gonna speak on it especially to her out of all people.

Getting out his car he shut his door then hit the lock making the horn go off twice.

Walking up the steps that lead to his apartment, he passed Marcus's wanting to go over there and talk it out but decided against it. He knew how stubborn Marcus could be at times so he was going to address the issue later.

Sticking his key into the door, he stepped inside his house damn near shitting his pants when he saw Marcus sitting on his couch eating a bag of chips and watching Suicide Squad.

Ahmad didn't even try to hide the smile that was coming, he was happy to see his boy. "Whatcho' ugly ass doing in my shit?"

"I ain't got food in my spot, so I decided to stop being mad at you so I could eat."

Marcus actually had a long talk with Ahmad's mama Mrs. Stacey about what went down, and his mama just went onto explain about how that's just how he is and how he doesn't mean any harm when he shuts people out.

She knew it probably bothered Marcus that Ahmad was still not trusting him all the way still especially after all the years they've been knowing each other, but once she said he's the same way with his own family, including her and his siblings .. Marcus relaxed a bit.

"Just like a nigga, how long you been here?"

Marcus scratched his head, "Right after I saw you pull off I came over.. where you been nigga?"

"At Nia's," He smirked plopping down on the couch next to him.

"Damn, y'all still fucking around?"

"Yep but today was the last day of that though."

Marcus frowned. "Why? I thought you enjoyed sex with her."

"I do but she don' caught feelings for me, she wants more than what I'm willing to give her right now.. so I had to distant myself, I fuck other women and I know since she likes me she finna start getting jealous and passive agressive especially if I'm over at her spot and one of my flings decides to hit me up and I really don't want to deal with that shit.. in a way I'm saving her from getting hurt cause I'm not settling down."

"Damn, but I feel you though. At least you are taking her feelings into considersation..but she still gon' be hurt when you stop fucking with her."

"I ain't gon' do it raw like ignore her or nothing just fall back slowly .. act like I'm busy alot, I'll think of something."

Marcus looked over at his friend shaking his head. He just didn't understand how this man was turning down females left and right when it was folks out there who actually wanted a relationship but can't find no one including himself.

He wants to settle down, he wants to start growing and building with someone but females never take him serious because he's a pretty boy and just assume he a fuck boy, then he looks at Ahmad who is a fuck boy and bitches be wanting to cuff him.

He just didn't understand..

"To be honest, I really thought you and Nia was gon' get serious."

Ahmad looked up from his phone smacking his teeth. "Why you think that?"

"I mean she stayed around the longest from out of the few girls you did tell me about .. thought you and her shared some type of connection that you couldn't let go of."

He laughed. "Don't get me wrong .. Nia is cool as hell, and beautiful, she don' cooked me for me, gave me back massages and shit, like if I was gon' cuff somebody it would probably be her but I don't know its just something about her that doesn't make me want her in that way plus with my issues and personal hatred towards relationships it just wasn't gon' work out."

"Understandable but um I really want to apologize for the other day."

Ahmad frowned wondering why he was apologizing when it was him in the wrong. "You did nothing wrong though, I admit I was wrong .. but its just some shit I been through that I just ain't ready to tell and relive again, it has nothing to do with you.. I trust you with my life, you've shown your loyalty its just my own personal thoughts that keeps me from opening up but one day hopefully I will be able too."

"You ever thought seeing someone? Like a therapist?"

"You want me to sit down and tell a stranger my business when I can't even tell you or my family yet. Plus that shit don't work they get paid to act as if they care about people when they don't, they jot a few things down, give advice we been hearing all our life then dismisses us and tells us to come back same time next week. I'll pass on that."

"Never know man, you need to talk to someone .. I can only imagine what goes on in that big ass head of yours."

Yeah, you can only imagine but if you knew even you'd be as fucked up as me..He thought to himself.

"Yeah .. I'll sleep on it." He lied.

Ahmad knew he would never do something like that, he'd go to Marcus or his mama first before going to a stranger that just wanted his money.

"Yo birthday next weekend .. what we doing? Strip club and dollar bills?"

"You already know I don't go out, I'm good with staying home and playing the game all day."

Marcus sucked his teeth. "I really don't see how we friends .. we are not a like at all."

"We kinda the same but when it comes to partying and clubbing thats just not my scene, plus I was thinking about going to see my mom and pops, its been a minute since I last seen them."

"If you go see them, I'm going as well. Yo mama cooking does something to my soul."

Marcus kinda pretty much became apart of Ahmad's family when he lost his parents when he was seventeen. His last year in high school he lived with them and that was really when the two became real close.

"She'd love it for you to come .. you know she loves your aggy ass."

"Who doesn't love me bruh?"

Ahmad pointed to himself then stood up laughing. "I'm trying to get drunk tonight, invite the crew over and let's get lit."

Ahmad wasn't the club type but being at home and drinking and getting fucked up was cool, cause if he did pass out he'd already be in the comfort of his home.

"I take back what I said .. I see why we friends , I was just thinking about getting drunk." Marcus laughed pulling out his phone.

Ahmad stood up from the couch to get ready for tonight shaking his head.

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A couple hours later Ahmad's condo was filled with two of his homeboy's from the hood. DeWayne and Jaylen and his co-workers, Shaun, Marcus, Melissa and his receptionist Hazel.

Ahmad sat on one of his bar stools sipping on a cup of lean, vibing and bobbing his head to the beat of Drowning by A boogie wit da Hoodie ft Kodak Black.

He scanned his with his eyes condo watching his people enjoy themselves but then mentally rolled his eyes when he locked eyes with Melissa.

She smirked standing to her feet then walked over towards him strutting in the tight fitted black dress she wore. "Why you all over here by yourself?"

He looked her up and down chuckling to himself. "Maybe because I like being alone.."

"Where's the fun in that though?"

"I tend to think I'm a fun person so being alone is very entertaining but you wouldn't know anything about that."

Smirking she eyed him stepping inbetween his legs. If Ahmad wasn't under the influence he would've pushed her away but right now Melissa was looking pretty damn good and he was in the mood.

Marcus watched the two from the couch shaking his head, tapping Shaun on the shoulder and pointed towards the two. "You see this shit?" He laughed.

They shook their heads as they watched Melissa whisper shit in his ear that was making him smirk and smile while his hand rested on the lower part of her back like an inch away from her ass.

"She been watching that nigga since she got here, wouldn't surprise me if they fucked cause that nigga passed gon'." Shaun laughed.

"He not gon' fuck her, he may be intoxicated but he ain't stupid. He knows we both fucked her and he don't do pass arounds."

"Bet a hunnid dollars nigga."

"Bet nigga." Slapping hands they went back to drinking and conversating.

Back across the room, Melissa and Ahmad was vibing in a sexual way of course. She turned around bending over slightly shaking her ass to the beat of Unforgettable by French Montana ft Swae-Lee.

Melissa was trying hella hard to get with Ahmad tonight. After two years of trying she felt like tonight was the night she was gon' get ber chance and she was going to make sure she did not fuck that up. As she twerked, his hand rested slightly on her waist as he took a sip of the lean in his cup.

Standing up straight, she turned to face him then leaned in closer as if she was about to kiss him then went to his ear. "You think we could take this to the back?"

Smirking, he shrugged letting her lead the way to his room. Pushing the door open she admired his decor but her main focus was the bed.

Pushing him down on it, she hiked her short dress up then straddled his lap. "You have no idea how long I've been waiting on this exact moment." She smiled flipping her 24 inch Brazilian weave off her shoulder.

Ahmad smirked. "I could take a wild guess but enough of the chatter, let's do this and get it over with."

She went to take her dress off but he stopped her. "Wait..you get naked to suck dick?"

She smacked her teeth, "You not tryna fuck?"

"Um no, but if you willing to give me top that'd be lovely though." He smiled.

She stood up fixing her dress. "You are such an asshole, You know how many niggas would kill to get a piece of this and here you are turning it down.. I'm really starting to think you're gay."

Ahmad laughed. "Gay? Yeah nah never that, see I love pussy and I love sex. If I really wanted to fuck you, I'd have you bent over on the wall fucking the life out of you screaming to the gods but see I don't want to fuck you .. You're a pass around, you fucked Shaun and Marcus so now why would I want to hit something my boys already had? You beautiful, I give you that and talented but yeah that's all I can really say about you other than that you a hoe." He stated bluntly.

"Fuck you,"

"That's what you want you to do." He laughed standing to his feet. "But if we're done here you can go."

Melissa bit her lip debating if this is what she wanted to do, here she was giving the chance to share a moment with the man she's been trying so hard to get.

Rolling her eyes she dropped to her knees and started unbuckling his pants. She knew she was only giving this chance cause he was intoxicated so she took it.

Ahmad knew the type of girl Melissa was, he knew better to stick his dick inside her, wasn't no telling how many other niggas don' hit cause he knew she got around.

While she sucked and slurped on his shaft all he could think about was Nia, her admitting her feelings towards him was really starting to bug him and having to cut her off as well bugged him even more.

He honestly didn't know what he really wanted to do at this point.

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and there we have it folks ..

Trying to update as much as I can because school literally starts in two weeks and I'll be working as well so updates will be slower..

but hope you guys enjoy this chapter, please leave your thoughts, again thanks for the love & support!

- Denise 💕