The past is a very dark place where we hide or lock up all our tragedies buried under the weight of the world where some of us are good at wearing facade mask as for other they crippling under depression struggling to escape from the fierce pain in reality but when I'm with him I feel like I can be myself again because I know he wouldn't expect me to be miss perfect girl I put on display for everyone.
Some truth are bigger than others never judge a book by it cover because you haven't fully walk in the chapter or live which might surprise you, him and I are just to lonely souls who happen to collide in fate together and I know he has secrets of his own that doesn't mean I'm going to pestering him about it nope in fact I'm just going to wait until he ready.
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Today is our last day in Paris after yesterday he said he takes out on date in a sercet location he implies  it would ruin the elements of surprises so, I decide to stop questioning him about it and go with the flow of it meanwhile I'm sitting in my hotel room texting Hazel to come over to help me pick out an outfit for my date with him. "Hey Hazel sos it it emergency" -me
Hiya Em yeah I'm on my way to our hotel room right now in five minutes because I was just finishing practicing my dance routine in the dance studio- Hazel
Thank girl and I know the judge will love your dance routine especially the one where you dance with Gabrielle because the duet is the right balance of emotions sadness and moving forward to new chapter in your life - me
Hearing my hotel door sounds like someone is at waiting for me open the door by knocking repeatedly running to open the door to see life saver for this occasion aka my best friend Hazel quickly closing the door behind her as we go upstairs to my room sitting down on my bed as I standing up explaining I have absolutely nothing to wear sighing shrugging my shoulder turn around I see hazel opening her bag first asking me " what is the occasion and what is dressed code?" She ruffling through the bag picking up some outfits once hearing explain everything to her "you would never me believe it but guess what?" I said excitedly to her making her guess what the news is she thinks before spouting out her guesses "you got an interview for photography jobs or you are going to take the jobs I show you the other day" she adding rethinking her guess " wait don't tell me he finally have the guts to ask you out on date" she said to me completely face palming herself for just realised what the emergency text is all about " come on just don't stand there help me pick out an outfit and help with my hair and makeup" I said to Hazel because that girl is so talented doing hair and makeup yet she doesn't want to that even she's so skilled at it.
"Alright I'm going to do my magic work on you and I'm going to call someone special for you" she said to me giving me a wink snatching my phone out of my hand knowing it useless because she got an height advantage slumping on my bed hearing hazel speak to the other person on the other side of the phone." hey love what up and I got a special surprise for you at the end of our date" He said to her thinking I'm the one who have my phone when Hazel on it.
I could tell he's definitely going to be confused suddenly hearing someone else voice speaking to him through my speakers phone " your girl Emily over here , my best friend is freaking out about what to wear because she worries you might not like it" Hazel said to me sighing to myself because I know she worries I might judge her hearing a subtle voice in the background " you did not say that H , I can't believe you and give me my phone back" I said to Hazel muffled sounds in the in background waiting for Hazel to give her the phone already.
"Listen you can wear anything even a garbage bag and still look like the most beautiful girl in the world to me love" He said reassuring Emily that it doesn't matter how she looks like and trying to stop her insecurities from taking over her emotions hoping she believes me.
" I guess you right Jamie" i say to me on a small voice I can tell she still overthinking her worth "love stop being to hard on yourself and what is it going to take to get that sassy, talented, fierce and beautiful brave girl back?" I said to her hearing giggling through the phone I knew then that she is special to me.
" you say that to all of your girls you are with" I  asks him questions  just to know if He really mean it or just saying it to get in my panties shaking my head at her comments "of course not and do you want to know because you are the only i really care you about so what if I have fangirl ? I don't care about them because they are not you and will never be you" He say to her spew out word that are completely utter true " ok I believe you J" I said to me.
Five minutes later
I'm ready to go out on our date but you know what us are like hyping up each other "yes girl you slays in that outfit right now.
I bet He can't keep his hand off you if he see you dress like that!"
Hazel said to me jokingly laughing at me turning red at her statements.
" oh girl don't you know it and enjoy your day with that guy you texting because I never seen you laugh that much" I said her winking jokingly with confidence oozing out me and now Hazel turn to be embarrassed pointing out a difference I see in her compare to last year " you're Emily I just feel like he get me sometimes you know and he's so funny" she said to me sighing dreamily oh my I thought I will never seen the day when Hazel finally fall for someone who isn't a complete nightmare I think to myself all suddenly a pillow hit me with full forces I guess she hear me " ops did I say that out loud and it is true though looks at you so happy for you now" I said hugging her.
He's Knocking on the hotel door " hello it is I ,Jamie coming to pick her up for our date night and may I come went every thing decent" he said wryly to us not sure if I'm wearing clothes or not such a gentleman " yeah can come in" hazel said to him as she quickly added in " go to the bathroom girl because you deserve an grand entrance" she whispered to me agreeing with her I went into the bathroom.
"Now it time to show the one and only Emily Lancaster smartest,beautiful, talented and amazing girl in world. Who is my best friend Emily" Hazel announces for me as I walk out the bathroom door " you like it" I said swirl around giving him a little show to him " what a cat got your tongue pretty boy?" I ask jokingly to him at first he didn't say anything until he finally said "Emily you look beautiful no words can even describe you and I think the only words for it is speechless"  he said to me in most sincere voices making my knee go weak.
Riding on his motorcycle with him holding onto his back tightly zooming to our date In the arch de triumphant later that night we talks about life , eat food that He surprisedly prepare for us ,  dancing in the moonlight and He singing to me talk me by Zayn Malick playing on his guitar as we both look at the stars.
Let just say it was wonderful date because we seal the deal with a kiss and took me back to my hotel room afterwards showing his gentleman side instead of acting on impulse of pleasures which I wouldn't of mind but he was taking me slow and steady.
Doesn't that always wins the race?