~Third Person's POV

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As a bright warming light entered and quarreled with the darkness of his smoky, quiet and haunted room, he rubbed his puffy eyes with his weak knuckles, trying hard to come back into consciousness.

It had been eight days since he had locked himself up in his room.

His only diet these days included alcohol and water! He had stopped eating everything as it used to cause adverse effects on his stomach and whole body, leading him to vomit continuously. It felt as if whatever he tried to eat was busy cursing him for his highly unfortunate fate.

The after effects of alcohol from last night were still present in his body as his head spun wildly when he tried to drag himself towards the bathroom, only to fall down on the sofa again. His body was getting weaker by every passing second as if all of his energy and nutrients were being slowly drained out.

He was getting skinny day by day.

And Oh!

What about that never ending glamour and magnificence of his charming existence?

Yes! It was also fading away.

He was becoming bloodless, lifeless and completely languid as if he was nothing but just a a rotten corpse!

After taking a long hot shower, as he decided to come out of his chamber to which he had restricted himself since 8 days, he stopped by the full length mirror who was apparently making fun of his disheveled state.

All he could see in the mirror was a zombie!

He wasn't the same Shahveer Ali Khan anymore!

Huge dark circles surrounded his red swollen eyes as if he was a panda! He brushed his fingers across his face as he realized how fast he was shedding pounds only to become skinny day by day. Those good looks for which every hottest girl in Manchester was ready to die, were silently betraying their owner. His charm, his handsomeness, his flawlessness and his killing and dashing features were slowly and gradually leaving him alone!

"What have you done to me Hooriyah?"

He whispered to himself as he looked at his reflection with disappointment and pain.

"Would you ever feel happy if you watch me in this state?"

He continued to mumble under his own breath.

"I wish you were here, in front of me! Then you would have known how beautifully your Allah has done justice with the tears which I had given to you !"

A warm lonely tear cascaded down his cheeks from one of his puffy eyes.

"I wish you were here to see how pathetically your beloved is being destroyed by your nightmares, your voices and your memories!"

He cried and continued to complain as if she was listening!

"I know you are listening! You are haunting me! Destroying me! Cursing me! Annoying me! You are casting a spell upon me! A spell of something which I am hating! You are making me crazy! Driving my heart insane! I wish you were here to see my state Hooriyah! I wish you were here!"

He cried innocently as her beautiful melodious voices started to ring in his head again!

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~Shahveer

All of my imaginations were abruptly interrupted by a deafening ring on my phone due to which I finally came out of my trance in which I was lost few minutes ago.

Not surprisingly, it was Soniya!

She had been calling me since three days but I hadn't answered her for once. It wasn't that I was mad on her. It's just that I had started feeling annoyed due to her super clingy and over possessive nature. I had slowly and gradually started to realize that the feelings I had for her, were not the feelings of love. Perhaps, I was just passing my time with her.

I never loved her! I only liked her and there is a huge difference between loving and liking someone.

And that likeness was also fading day by day.

I was loosing interest in her.

Because I had started gaining interest in someone else!

I admit that Soniya cared for me, but only when there was a purpose or a need. I had never felt for her the way I had started feeling for someone else. Someone who had unintentionally and unexpectedly started to build lots of chaos and desperation in my already dead heart.

Finally deciding to give her one last chance, I picked up her call only to be stormed with a bunch of questions.

"Shahveer! So finally you had decided to pick up my call! Where the hell have you been since eight days? What the hell has happened to you? Why are you pretending like I don't even exist?" She complained.

"Listen to me Soniya....I was just___"

"I'm not gonna listen to you at all! Just come downstairs, we will be there at your porch after five minutes!" She interrupted.

"What do you mean by ....we?" I asked.

"I mean that our whole gang! Melissa, James, Carlos, Priya etc etc! We have planned a picnic and are leaving for London today, by road, and you have to come with us at any cost or else I will smash your face with a hammer! Do you understand?"

She chuckled as she announced the plan to which I groaned with annoyance.

"Uh...Soniya, I think you guys should go alone, I'm not feeling well!" I made a lame excuse.

"Listen to me Shahveer! We are doing this for you! It's your 26th Birthday tomorrow! And we want to make it special for you! We will party hard, dance like a psychopath and have lots and lots of fun! Will you break our heart like this Shavi?"

I could feel her pouting on the other end.

I had totally forgotten that I was turning 26 tomorrow.

Wow!

Did I actually forget the day which I used to enjoy like hell?

My birthday ?

How's this even possible?

"I'm coming downstairs in two minutes!"

Don't know why, but I finally blurted it out.

Maybe because I didn't want to argue anymore. Or maybe because I didn't want to ruin my birthday by having horrible hallucinations!

"Yeeeeeaaaaaap!!! Thanks a ton Majesty! For taking out some precious time from your life, for us!" She giggled.

"I'll pack for the trip, now! Bye, see ya later!" I smiled and ended the call.

Maybe a road trip with friends would do wonders!

Or at least I will get rid of those nightmares for some days!

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As the car sped off across the smoothly paved and glossy roads of London, my friends continued to sing some awful songs at the top of their lungs while I stared at the beautiful city with my gloomy eyes.

Within few hours, we had finally reached at our destination where we had to stay for two nights. It was an elegant and luxurious resort where we were supposed to celebrate my birthday party.

As the darkness slowly started to envelope the magnificent city of London, my friends started searching for some coolest nightclubs in the town. But being the most restless out of all, I wasn't excited at all!

I was frustrated, exasperated and annoyed!

ALL I WANTED WAS SOME PEACE!

I didn't feel like partying tonight. Something was burning inside!
There was a storm!
A tornado!
And a volcanic eruption!
Everything was happening simultaneously!

This feeling of exasperation was about to take my life any second.

My friends had planned a grand party for me and instead of being grateful to them, I was throwing tantrums like a spoiled kid. The parties which were just like heaven for me, seemed to be boring and meaningless now!

"Come on you can't be serious Shahveer! Just come with me, the place which I had just discovered, is mind blowing! You will get crazy as hell once you pay a visit there!" Soniya pulled my arm as she tried to convince me for the umpteenth time.

"I'm fine here, why don't you guys go and enjoy by yourself?" I excused once again.

"You wanna feel better? Do you?" She asked with a serious tone.

"I want to!" I whispered as I nodded.

"Then don't waste my time and get up, I'm gonna take you to one of the best clubs in this world and I bet you, you are going to forget each and every shit which is frustrating your mind!" She pulled me more harshly this time due to which I had to give up and follow her towards the nightclub which was thankfully not that far from the resort.

As soon as we reached at our destination, a storm of dancing flamboyant lights welcomed me as a cool refreshing breeze filled with alcoholic aroma brushed through my face.

Inside the club, it was like dancing on the Northern Lights; beneath the dry-ice smoke swirled an array of blues, acid greens, hot pinks and gold. The music played over the dance floor as if it had fused with the bodies.

"You're gonna love this!" Soniya whispered in my ears and pulled me towards the stage where everyone was busy dancing on the Hollywood beats like a pro, not caring about their lives, as if it was their last day on Earth.

All sorts of whiskey, champagne, beers, vodkas, tequila, brandy and wines were decorated on the nearby counter where a young bartender was swiftly working and arranging uncountable glasses and bottles for the visitors.

The music was loud!

Deafening!

And the beats were high!

The DJ changed the songs professionally as he mixed several beats simultaneously.

It was no doubt, the best club in town!

An energetic layer of ecstasy ran down my spine as I watched the highly vigorous crowd dance crazily on the excellent beats of my favorite types of music. I immediately picked up a bottle of vodka from the counter and gulped it down my throat in the same usual manner and waited for few seconds to embrace the after effects of the alcohol, which luckily, started to appear sooner than my expectations. As I began to fall in the pool of euphoria, I started forgetting my frustration, depression and those painful wounds, and it actually seemed as if they were miraculously healing. This overwhelming feeling of intoxication, ecstasy and pure bliss was magically helping me in feeling the happiest person alive. Maybe it was the best vodka in town! 

Tonight was going to be epic!

I knew that!

Without wasting any more time, I unbuttoned my jet black leather jacket, rolled up the sleeves of my white shirt and threw the jacket towards some gorgeous ladies, who were continuously whispering in awe while looking at me and drooling over my highly mesmerizing looks, to which they shouted with elation and enthusiasm.

I smiled devilishly and winked at them due to which they nearly fainted. As the energetic vibes danced across my soul, I enthusiastically followed my gang towards the dance floor where they were busy in hooting, laughing and dancing like a pro!

Soniya immediately cheered up as she saw me coming towards her and we began to dance like some crazy fellows. The night was young and so were my feelings. By that time, I had completely forgot what I was going through since five months as being completely lost in the hurricane of tranquility, exhilaration and euphoria was enough for me to never look back at my past. I was feeling thrilled, overjoyed and most importantly, relaxed. And that was the most beautiful feeling in the world.

My best friends were with me, Soniya was with me and this club seemed to be a heaven to me!

What else could I ask for?

I was dying with anxiety, but tonight, I watched all of my stress magically fade away!

I danced and sang along the beautiful beats of some Bollywood songs, forgetting about the rest of the world as Soniya chirped happily.

" Oh Shavi! I was dying to see you like this since months!" She cried with joy as she wrapped her arms around my neck.

"I'm sorry for treating you like an idiot since few days!" I apologized.

"It's okay dear, I know you have been going through a lot! But just know one thing, I'll be always there by your side darling!" She smiled shyly.

"Then lets marry next month?"

I smiled, not knowing the meaning of the words which were unintentionally escaping out of my mouth. A strange feeling kicked inside my heart as I tried to stop myself from uttering something else!

It felt as if someone was casting a spell over me, making me utter the words which I didn't want to.

"Really?" She chirped happily.

"Yes! The sooner, the better!" I looked at her twinkling eyes with a great intensity, trying to figure out what the hell I was saying.

"I don't believe this Shavi! Of course! It would be the best moment of my life!" She giggled and hugged me with joy.

We danced along the beats as we enjoyed the rhythms of this ecstatic atmosphere with full enthusiasm. The urge to embrace this feeling started to get intenser as I craved for some more vodka, in order to completely lose my sanity to its extra wonderful after effects. I was just loving this euphoric state of mine! I wanted to stay like this forever! Happy, carefree and relaxed!

I excused my friends for a while and left for the counter as the urge began to grow deeper and deeper, inside my heart.

" I would like to have some more Vodka please! Make sure it is even more stronger than before! I am just loving this feeling! I feel lost! But this feeling is amazing!" 

I winked as I shared my happiness with the bartender who laughed at my clumsy and disheveled state. Half of my shirt was tucked in, but the other half was not. One of my sleeves was rolled down, but the other was not. My hair were nothing but just a pure mess. My eyes were red, swollen and twinkling with ecstasy and joy. My skin was turning pale by every passing second. My lips were quivering, craving for the taste of that extra amazing Vodka, once again!

"Sure Sir, by the way, how much do you want?" That British guy, who was perhaps the most skilled bartender in the world, asked in a very professional and polite manner.

"Just keep on pouring! Do not stop! Serve me as many glasses as possible! I wanna be nothing, but just a crazy f*cking pool of vodka, tonight!" 

I giggled as he gave me a look which apparently explained that he was extremely impressed!

 "Here you go sir!" He winked back and started pouring the drink in dozens of icy blue colored large glasses, for me.

"WOAAAAHHH!" I shouted with joy as I watched him pouring the drink.

"Enjoy, Sir!" He laughed again.

Without wasting any other second, I grabbed a glass and gulped the drink down my throat and shook my head with excitement as its taste was even more fantastic than before. 

Not ready to stop so soon, I continued to gulp the second glass, then the third one, then fourth, then fifth, then sixth, then seventh, then eighth, then ninth and then finally tenth.

And that's when I started to feel something strange in the air which was surrounding me! A sensation of something which was incomprehensible.

My eyes started to get redder as I stopped drinking further and the glass immediately dropped from my hand and fell on the counter table. It was a strange feeling!

A feeling of being watched by someone!

Someone, who had unfortunately began to rule my heart! Someone whose memories had completely destroyed my soul.

Someone was watching me, indeed! 

I closed my eyes to avoid that feeling, but I failed to do so! 

I nervously opened them and slowly turned to look at my back, to experience the most beautiful feeling of the world.

The feeling of REALIZATION!

There she stood!

Dressed in that beautiful saree, in which I had saw her at Alizeh's bridal shower. Her eyes twinkled with joy as she looked at me with lots of affection. Her naturally rosy cheeks turned crimson as if she was blushing. Her smile widened as she saw me getting up from the stool and slowly walk towards her beautiful, delicate, fragile and charismatic existence, amidst the wild crowd which was busy in dancing crazily.

She was smiling! Her large kohl-filled hazel brown eyes were enveloped by beautiful long black eyelashes which were glistening with some moisture. Her eyes held a pool of tears! The tears of joy and happiness.

She was looking at me with so much love that it was getting harder for me to breath or blink for once. Her insanely beautiful and pretty face was driving me crazy. My eyes were madly glued upon her angelic face, as if this glance was the only thing my eyes were craving for, since five months!

I slowly walked towards that flawless and extremely pure, elegant and beautiful soul as some tears started to dwell up in my olive green eyes which were continuously glued upon her breathtaking hazel brown ones. Lost and engrossed by the magic of her deadly, wild and heavenly fragrance, I failed to notice my surroundings. People were busy screaming, laughing, drinking, hooting, dancing and singing like complete psychopaths.

But this prepossessing soul stood quietly and peacefully amidst so much chaos, noise and vulgarity as if it wasn't bothering her at all! 

All she was looking at, were the pair of my olive green eyes which were flooded with a river of painful tears. The eyes which she said she could die for!

She said that my eyes were worth dying for! She was the only one who loved my eyes more than anything. She was the only one who adored them since childhood. 

She told me once, that she had always loved my eyes and my heart!

She was mad for my olive green eyes! 

And unfortunately, I was getting mad for her hazel brown ones!

I walked slowly, quietly and carefully, so that I don't miss her glance again. Her long beautiful dark brown here brushed across her face as she continued to smile at me.

The distances began to minimize as I happily walked towards this innocent girl whom I had tortured a lot! I was still lost! Lost in her existence! I moved closer until we were just a few inches apart.

As the clock finally struck 12, she smiled beautifully and opened her mouth, only to whisper something in her purely melodious voice.

"Happy Birthday, Veer!" 

A waterfall of tears cascaded down her cheeks as she smiled and wished me with her sweet and charming voice.

I slowly raised one of my shivering hands to wipe the tears which were magically flowing through her sparkling eyes.

And as soon as I was about to touch her creamy, soft and alluring skin which had enveloped her rosy cheeks, she gave me a heart wrenching look which was filled with immense love, affection and care and finally turned to leave me in this pathetic state, once again!

"No! Stop!" I barked as she slowly turned to leave the bar.

"Hoor! Stop! HOORIYAH! " I yelled at the top of my lungs and followed her like a mad man and ran between the crowd, brutally pushing away every single person who was coming in my way!

"HOORIYAH! DON'T LEAVE DAMN IT! I NEED YOU!" I cried mercilessly and walked as fast as I could, pushing away two men who were busy dancing but she didn't stop.

"Hey, watch your freaking steps, Idiot!" One of the men shouted wildly at me.

"I am sorry!"

I excused and ran after Hooriyah, searching her amidst the wild crowd. She continued to walk out of the club, ignoring all of my sorrowful cries.

As I ran after her, I failed to notice that Soniya was following me nervously.

"Shahveer, what happened? Where are you going?" Soniya called me but I ignored her words.

"Hooriyah! Don't Leave! For God's Sake, I need you!"

I continued to cry loudly as I walked out of the bar, only to end up on the silent roads of the London, all alone!

AND BOOM!

She was nowhere to be seen now!

She had gone! 

Again!

"Hooriyah!" A painful moan escaped through my lips which were quivering with fear by then.

I knelt down and fell upon the road as I continued to call her name and scream at the top of my lungs.

"HOORIYAAAAAAAH!"

I shouted for the last time as I glared at the dark starry sky with my red tear filled eyes. My voice echoed dramatically throughout the streets of London.

An that's when something totally unexpected escaped my mouth as I watched the stars with my horror filled eyes.

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"I love you!" 

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YES!

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I HAD REALIZED!

&

I HAD CONFESSED!

Although I knew she was nowhere to hear these heart-wrenching words which had came straight from the depths of my soul, but I knew, I knew that the whole universe, the whole horizon, the whole galaxy had become a witness to this beautiful confession and realization which I had finally made and experienced tonight!

"I LOVE YOU HOORIYAH! AND I AM COMING TO GET YOU BACK AT ANY COST!" 

I yelled crazily while looking at the shiniest star on the dark sky, which was possibly sparkling due to the power and intensity of my soul-shaking words!

"I am coming to get you back! You were always mine! And always will be!" 

I shouted again and again as my body started feeling numb and my head started to spin wildly.

"I swear to my ALMIGHTY ALLAH, that I have fallen in love with you, and I will do anything to get you back! Even if it costs me my own damn life! I will prove that my love for you is going to be the most powerful thing in this world!" 

I hiccupped between my merciless cries as a waterfall of tears cascaded down my cheeks.

"I LOVE YOU HOORIYAH JAHANGIR KHAN! AND I WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET YOU BACK IN MY LIFE! I WILL TASTE EVERY POISON WHICH WILL COME IN MY WAY! I WILL FIGHT WITH EVERY CALAMITY WHICH WILL CREATE OBSTACLES IN MY WAY! I WILL FIRST MAKE MYSELF CAPABLE OF WINNING YOUR HEART AGAIN, AND THEN I WILL SACRIFICE MY WHOLE LIFE FOR YOU SO THAT YOU CAN TREAT ME THE WAY YOU WANT! FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE WITH YOU, WAS WRONG! IT WAS INDEED WRONG! AND NOW I HAVE REALIZED WHAT TYPE OF SIN I HAVE COMMITTED. I WILL DO ANYTHING TO MEND YOUR BROKEN HEART ONCE AGAIN. I WILL TAKE YOU WITH ME AND WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE HEAVENLY, FOR WHAT I HAD DONE TO YOU WAS ENOUGH TO MAKE YOUR LIFE JUST LIKE A HELL! I AM COMING BACK HOORIYAH JAHANGIR KHAN! AND EVEN IF IT RISKS MY LIFE, I WILL HAVE NO REGRETS AND NO FEAR! BECAUSE I KNOW! I KNOW THAT IF I WON'T GET YOU BACK, I WILL DIE! I WILL DIE WITH DISGUST, GUILT AND PAIN. I WANT YOU AND I WILL GET YOU BACK! I AM COMING BACK! I AM COMING BACK HOORIYAH JAHANGIR KHAN! I AM COMING BACK, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD!"

I yelled and cried mercilessly as I continued to pour out the lava which had kept on boiling inside my damaged heart since five painful months.

"SHAHVEER! What are you doing here?" Soniya and some of my friends came running towards me.

"I am coming back, Hooriyah Jahangir Khan! I am coming back!"

I continued to mumble under my own breath unaware of my friends who were listening to my words.

" What? Hooriyah? How come you are talking about her in the middle of nowhere?" Soniya barked upon me angrily.

"She came here to meet me! But she has gone now! And now I am going to get her back!" I laughed like a psychopath.

"You have gone mad Shahveer! Hooriyah is in Pakistan! We are in London, England. That silly poor girl can't even afford a ticket for UK and you are saying that she came to meet you here? Are you crazy?" James laughed while the others mocked me!

"DON'T CALL HER SILLY! It's all because of you guys! Everything happened because of you all! That poor innocent soul was humiliated by me just because of you all! You guys are not friends, you are snakes! You are my enemies. You have destroyed my whole life just because of these parties, drugs, drinks and alcohol! She was pure! She was right! You guys have ruined my whole F*CKING life! I lost her because of you all! I believed in you guys. You all used to manipulate me! Provoke me against her! You guys used to call her with filthy names. You guys forced me to start worshiping money, power and status due to which I looked down upon her with disgust just because that poor soul did not belong to an elite class like me. Due to your pressure I had committed a sin which was the worst among all! The sin of breaking a heart. And do you know what? Even God Himself doesn't forgive the one who had broken someone's heart unless he or she himself or herself forgives the oppressor. You guys used to enjoy and spend my money on your own desires because I was the one who used to pamper you all since eighteen years. Being a son of a billionaire was what made you do friendship with me. You all had your own f*cking purposes. All you wanted was to fulfill your wishes with my father's money! You all made me believe that money is everything and those who don't have it, are useless. And because of this shitty psychology and stupid mentality, I had lost a gem! Just because of you cheap, filthy and materialistic snakes!" 

I continued to bark upon my friends as I recalled how Hooriyah had already disclosed their reality in front of me five months ago, but being the stupidest out of all, I failed to believe her.

They looked at me with horror, trying to act all innocent.

"You guys made me forget each and everything about my religion. You guys made me forget my identity! My real identity! I don't even know how to pray! I don't even know the basics of my religion Islam, just because of you all!" 

I cried as I recalled my doom.

"I wish I had known this before, that all of you were trying to take advantage of my status, money and power! She was right! Hooriyah was right!" I cried harder this time.

All of them stared at me with complete shock as they started to realize that they were not going to gain any benefit from their friend again.

"Listen to us Shahveer. It's not like that, we can still sort it out!" Soniya made an excuse.

"Just leave me alone! I don't wanna see your faces again in my life. I have done a great mistake and now it is high time to go back and repair the damage! And if I stayed with you guys for one more minute, I know you all will manipulate me again, and will stop me from repairing the damage which I had done to an innocent, pious and a pure heart!"

I wiped my tears and walked briskly towards my car which was waiting for me at the end of the street.

I angrily opened the door and threw my weak existence inside it and immediately ignited the engine, in order to head off towards my home.

I drove as fast as I could, unaware of the fact that I was still heavily intoxicated. I pressed the accelerator even more harder and the speed elevated to 190 km per hour.

As her tear stained face , loud painful cries and red swollen eyes began to appear in front of my eyes, I failed to control the staring wheel and my car slipped off from the road and sped off towards the foot path, where a huge tree barbarically collapsed with the windscreen, brutally shattering the glass and simultaneously opening all the four doors of the car.

A pool of blood cascaded down my forehead and raced throughout my lips, chin and neck.

And the last thing I could remember was a loud deafening sound of a siren which apparently belonged to an ambulance which was luckily passing by at the exact moment.

As the stream of blood continued to flow through my head, face and neck, my eyelashes began to drown due to the burden of unbearable pain while someone swiftly unbuckled my seat belt and helped me get out of the car.

As the loud blaring sound of siren entered my ears, my eyes finally decided to shut down while the darkness began to slowly embrace my grief stricken soul.