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Raavi - divorce chaiyea naa ruk tuu.. Deti hu main tujhe divorce...

Everyone looked at raavi in shocked who  after saying this walked towards the kitchen..
The family were still in their shock that they didnt even see raavi coming out of the kitchen with a bucket full of water and even before anyone could react , raavi pured all the water on shiva drenching him completely...

They all gasped while shiva shivered at the contact of the water..
He looked up at raavi who was looking at him and said angrily..

Raavi - ye tujhe hosh main lane ke liye tha , jab puri tarha hosh main aa jaiye tab mujhse baat krne aana... Aur agar hosh main aapne ke baad bhi divorce chaiyea hoga toh de dungi tujhe main divorce..

Saying that raavi was about to walk away when shiva said

Shiva - tu bhi jaa rhi ha naa chod de bilkul waise hi jaise sbne kaha tha..
Tune bhi jane ki baat ki aaj.. Tujhe bhi lgta ha ki main tere layak nhi hu is liye jaa rhi ha na..

Shivas voice was breaking
And because he was drunk he wasn't even actually aware on what all he was saying..

Dev was about to move ahead and stop shiva but gautam stopped him saying

Gautam - bolne de usse aaj dev , kabhi na kabhi toh ye hona hi tha..
Uske liye apni andar ki ye saari baate bahar nikalna bht zaroori ha..

Dev looked at shiva , and turned his gaze towards raavi , who stood there pain and anger clearly visible..

Raavi moved towards shiva and said

Raavi- tu hi mujhe jane ko khe rha ha naa , divorce ki baat kr rha ha tha aur aab khe rha ha ki main ja rhi hu ,agar itna hi ha toh kyu bhej rha ha mujhe bol?

Shiva - kyuki pyaar krta hu tujhse , hamesha se bht krta hu par ye bhi janta hu ki tu mujhse better deserve krti ha is liye dur kr rha hu tujhe..

And suddenly SHIVA started crying like a baby and fell on his knees..
It pained everyone present there to see shiva like that , the same shiva who always stood like a rock was crying right now because he was hurt and this pain was not new it have been seeded in his heart from childhood..

They all kept looking at him when shiva said again

Shiva -  par main nhi rhe skta hu tere bina raavi , main nhi rhe skta hu.. Par kaise rakhu tujhe apne pass , kaise ,tujhe pata ha sb kheth ha ki teri zindagi barbad ho gai merese shaadi krke aur dekh shi kheth ha sb jis din se shaadi hui ha tu ro hi toh rhi ha bas , main tujhe kabhi khush nhi rakh paya hu, tune sach kaha tha teri har dard ki wajha main hi hu..
Yaad ha tune puja wali raat mujhse pucha tha ki tujh main aisi kya kami ha ki dev ko tujhse pyaar nhi hua , aaj main puch rha hu mujhe mai aisa kya ha ki sb mujhse nafrat krte ha mujhe zahil ,junglee ,gawar khethe ha..
Sbko sirf mera gussa hi kyu dekhta ha mera Pyaar mere ansoo kyu nhi dekhte ha..kyu raavi bol naa ,please bata mujhe..Maine kitna try kiya ki log mujhe pasand kare tu mujhe pasand kre pr mai Kabhi kisi ko pasand nhi aaya hu kyu..
Bachpan se tujhe pyaar krta aaya hu par kabhi tujhe bata nhi paya kyuki main ye janta tha ki main is duniya ka akhiri insaan honga Jisse tujhe pyaar hoga..
Main sach khe rha hu raavi , maine bht try kiya ha ki main dev ki tarha ban saku , aacha ban saku par wo mujhse ho nhi paya ha.. Main kya karu raavi tu batan naa mujhe ki logo ko main aacha lagu.. Mujhe pata ha tu mujhse better deserve krti ha pr main nhi rhe skta hu tere bina main janta hu maine tujhe bht hurt kiya par please uske wajha se tu mujhe chod ke mat jana please i promise main tujhe kabhi mami ki behen ki beti nhi bulaunga , kabhi chipkali nhi bulaunga toh bolegi toh main puri zindagi neeche zameen pe so jaunga pr please mujhe chod ke mat jana..please...
Tujhe pta bht dard hota ha mujhe tb tu mujhse dur jati ha toh aur wo dard main kisi ko bata bhi Nhi pata hu, jb teri shaadi dev se ho rhi thi toh lgta tha kisi ne mera dil bahat nikal ke rakh diya ho.. Main already bht dur rhe chuka hu tujhse ,aab nhi please raavi please mujhe. Chod ke mat jana..please ...

And suddenly shiva held raavi's leg hugging her , raavi stumble at that but held Shiva's shoulder for support , tears were streaming down her eye , not only her everyone present there were crying...

Before raavi could say anything shiva said still hugging her..

Shiva - janti ha aaj main mami ke ghar gaya tha unse ye kehne ki wo tujhse aapke mil le kyuki tu unhe miss kr rhi ha , par pata ha unhone kya kaha..

And then shiva started narrating everything

Flashback (continued in authors pov)
To mami's house..

Shiva stood outside the narayan house , he was just repeating one thing

Ye main apni raavi ke liye kr rha hu , aur kuch nhi..

Saying tht one last time shiva rang the bell and waited for the door to open and around 2 min later anita opened the door..

Shiva tu - anita was too shocked to see shiva early in the morning

Shiva nodded and said

Shiva - wo mami se baat krna ha kuch , ghar pe ha wo.

Anita's eyes went wide listening to shiva

Anita - tu fui se baat krne aaya ha ? Maine sahi suna ha naa ? Ya mere kaan baj rhe ha?

Shiva looked at anita annoyed who got side giving him place to enter..

Anita followed shiva behind and shouted to prafulla

Anita - fui neeche aao koi aaya ha..

Shiva - naam ha mera ek

Anita - jisko sunne ke baad fui daar se Upper hi upper gayab ho jaiyegi..

Shiva nodded in an understanding form and stood there silently waiting for prafulla to come down..

Prafulla who was climbing down the stairs got shocked to see shiva present there.

Prafulla - ye tu subha subha yaha kya kr rha ha ?

Shiva looked at prafulla in complete annoyance but then he remembered the reason he was here for and not wanting to go out of control he directly came to the point

Shiva - dekh mami mai yaha ladne nhi aaya hu bas ye bolne aaya hu ki raavi se jake mil le, usse teri bht yaad aa rhi ha..

Prafulla - meri yaad aa rhi ha , us din usne mujhe itna bola tb bhi ?

Shiva turned towards her and said

Shiva - beti ha teri , gusse main bol diya uske dil se laga ke bathegi kya ?

Prafulla smirked at him and said

Prafulla - ye bhai ye , main is liye usse naraz nhi hu ki wo mujhse ladi is liye hu ki wo tere jaise insaan ke wajah se mujhse ladi..
Tere jaise janwar ke liye wo mujhse apni mausi maa se lad padi..

Shiva closed his eyes and took a deep breath , he had promised himself that he won't get effected by anyone's words and do what he is here for..

Shiva - haa theek ha hu main zahil , junglee , gawar sb hu par tu toh nhi ha naa tu toh bht samajhdar ha toh jake mil usse.. Usne ek baar kya bol diya itna bura lg gay tujhe.. Aare mami beti ha teri wo beti..

Prafulla looked at his eyes and said

Prafulla - theek ha mil lungi pan ek sharat pe tu usse chod de , shaadi tod de usse apni ,main nhi chathi hu ki meri beti tujh jaise junglee , ke saath rahe..
Tu agar usse talak de dega toh main usse maaf kar dungi..

Shiva and anita's eyes went wide listening to prafulla..
Shiva just kept looking at her in shock while anita moved forwards and said

Anita - fui kya bol rhe ho are Pyaar krti ha apni raavi usse aur aap khe rhe ho shiva ko ki wo.isse chod de are fui ek baar ke liye kaam se kaam apna ego side main rakh ke apni beti ke liye socho naa kyu uski life kharab krne pe lage ho aap kyu..

Prafull - ye tu chup kar anita , mujhe pta ha main kya kr rhi hu , aur rhi baat pyaar ki toh tujhe sach main lgta ha ki raavi ko.shiva se pyaar ho gaya ha aare meri baachi ha wo main jnti hu ki usse bas uspe daya aa rhi ha aur kuch nhi , isse hospital main dekh ke bas uske andar ka insaan jag gaya aur usne wo khe diya ha , jb wo shanti se sochegi tb samajh aaiyega ki wo iske jaise ghatiya insan ke liye nhi bani ha..
Aare is dhara ki wajah se meri beti iske saath fas gai warna aukat bhi ha kya iski ki ye raavi ko deserve kre..
Is liye tu beech main mat bol..

Aur tu bhai , tune suna naa maine kya bola agar tu usse apna rishta tod dega toh hi main usse maaf karungi.. Are tujhse shaadi karwane se aacha tha ki main dev se hi uski shaadi krwa deti kaam se kaam uski zindagi maim khushi toh rhti..

Anita angrily stood between prafulla and shiva and said

Anita - bas karo fui , ye hi junglee insan ke karan apki beti zinda ha aaj , issi junglee ke karan log usse izzat dete ha warna dev ne toh planning kr li thi naa uska dil todne ki.. Aare fui kyu nhi samajh aata ha aapko hi agar shiva nhi hota toh raavi aaj zinda bhi nhi hoti , agar wo nhi hota toh aapne apni beti ko kab ka kho diya hota.. Are mama ki shiva thoda gussa krta ha pr kaam se kaam uska dil toh saaf ha naa , aapki tarha nhi ha naa jo muh pe aacha banke peeche apko todne ki koshis kare.. Aur kya kaha aapne dev se shaadi ussi dev se jisne usse marne ke liye chod diya tha , ussi dev se jo dekhen bhi nhi aaya tha usse ek baar.. Are fui kisi ke liye narazgi apni jagha hoti ha pr us narazgi main hum us insaan ki bhalai hi naa dekhe wo kaha ki samajhdari ha..
Aaya haa naa shiva aaj apke pass sirf is liye taki wo apko raavi se milwa sake..
Are wo kitni nafrat krta ha aapse ye mujhe batane ki zaroorat nhi ha pura somnath janta ha pr tb bhi aaya ha aaj apke pass sirf raavi ke khushi ke liye aur aap usse aise khe rhe ho..

Prafulla - bas bht hua mujhe parwachan mat de aur kis izzat ki baat kr rhi ha tu isse shaadi krke raavi ko izzat nhi mil rhi ha aur bezati ho rhi ha iski..
Pata bhi ha jb bhi mai bahar jati hu toh log mujhe tana marte ha ki
"Ye prafulla isse aacha toh tu mere bete se hi raavi ki shaadi krwa deti , haa bas chal nhi skta ha wo baaki sb theek ha gussa nhi krta ha , insan ha shiva ki tarha janwar Nhi.."
Aare socha ha tune kabhi ki mujhe kitna bura lgta ha , are phool si meri beti thi , jiske chehre pe hamesha muskan rhti thi aur aaj dekh ek hasi ko taras gai ha wo , bas is shiva kr wajah se..
Isse shaadi krke usne apni zindagi barbad ki ha aur ye baat main likh ke de skti hu..

Anita looked at prafulla in a disbelieving manner , while shiva just stood there not saying not moving an inch..
He didn't felt hurt listening to prafulla's word he felt broken.. He felt as if no matter what he does he will never be good enough for raavi..

He looked up when he felt prafulla nearing him

Prafulla - ek baat yaad rakh haa shiva , is galat feimi main mat rhna ki raavi ko tujhe pyaar ho gaya ha bas taras aa rha ha usse tujhpe..uska Pyaar na dev hi rhne wala ha hamesha.. Aare bachpan se usne usse pyaar kiya ha toh itni asani se usse kisi aur se pyaar kaise ho jaiyega aur tujhse toh kabhi nhi..Us din usne jo hospital main bola ha naa wo galat ha usse bht jaldi samajh aa jaiyega..
Aur rhi baat meri aur raavi ki toh dekh le bhai aise bhi kal teri wajah se ek baap aur beti ka rishta toot gaya ha tu chatha ki mai raavi ke saath wahi karu jo rishita ke baap ne uske saath kiya ha toh bol mujhe.. Main kr dungi.. Kyuki mujhe pta ha aaj nhi toh kal raavi mere pass hi aane wali ha phir main uski shaadi kisi ache ladke se karwaungi tujhe jaise se nhi..

Shiva just kept looking at prafulla , her words were ringing in his head continuously , not knowing what to do ,he silently turned and walked away..

Anita did tried calling him but shiva was in his own mess to even listen to him.. She didn't know what to do and how to do.
She did realise that today shiva was hurt beyond repairs , and he might need some time to get back into his sence..

Shiva walked out of narayan house , he didnt knew where he was going but he had to go somewhere , he just wanted to remove his pain , to remove all the words that prafulla has told him , words that people throws at him..
No.matter how much strong one person shows himself but there is a point where your strong ness gets break..
And this was that moment for shiva..

And without being in his sense shiva landed himself in a wine shop drinking way away from his capacity...

Flashback ends..

Everyone stood silent..
No one moved , no.one said anything , they just kept looking at shiva who was broken , the shiva who rarely use to cry (atleast thats what they all have taught) was crying continuously right now.. And they all didn't know how to stop him..

Raavi just kept looking at the shiva tears streaming down her eyes , she was feeling a fire inside her for prafulla but she also knew that she had to take care of shiva right now and that the rest of the world can wait.. She felt guilty that he had to go thorough all this just because of her , it was because of her he had to listen to all these..
And she felt even more guilty that he has been going through this thing from past 10 years and yet he never said anything and now her love has made him so weak that he was crying like this.. She felt that her being away was much better for him then this where she was with him and yet he was getting hurt...
She had one question

"Was she worth the love shiva was showing her and  the pain he had to go through "?

Raavi tried moving away from shiva but he only tighten his hold on her legs crying continuously and said

Shiva - nhi nhi please raavi mujhe chod ke mat jaa please , mat jaa please , main aacha insaan ban ke dekhaunga par please mujhe chod ke mat jaa..
With every words Shiva's hold on Raavi's leg was becoming tight...
Raavi's heart broke listening to Shiva's word she took a deep breath and said calmly

Raavi - shiva chod mujhe....

The end