Authors pov

Raavi stood infront of the mirror remembering the scene she has just witnessed..
She didn't know what was More pain full for her the fact that she has loved a selfish Person all her childhood , Or the fact that he never cared about her emotions and has moved on in his new life where as she was stuck in marriage where she was not even welcomed...

Flashback
2 hours before 

It was finally puja today , it's been 6 days since they all have came to haveli..
Things have been not at all Normal for shiva and raavi , after the car incident raavi has avoided shiva where shiva too avoided raavi fearing that he might make her uncomfortable with his presence..
Though raavi was some where Or the other missing shiva slightly but as usual she choose to ignore it..

Even a slightest touch form shiva or a brief eye lock would also send shivers down her spine.
It was something she never felt for anyone not even dev , infact with dev she has to always over do these like forcefully making herself feel that emotion but with shiva it would happen automatically..
Even today in the morning when shiva came out of the washroom fully Dressed in traditional clothes raavi couldn't take her eyes off him..

And shiva was also not less, everyday he would purposely sleep after her  , so that he could graze at her as much as he wants it was his guilty pleasure..
He was in love with this lady and there was no denying about that but the fact that even after she was in his life , tied in a relationship which people say last for lifes yet she could never be his by her heart because it belongs to someone else...

Today also they Sat in the puja together just because it was giving the people around them a happiness...
Though dev and rishita were quite Happy , the Same was not the  case with shiva and raavi..

It took them around 8 hours to complete the puja with full rituals...
The puja went fine apart from the fact that  when pandit ji asked Shiva to fill raavi's mang with the sindoor he didn't because he remembered the marriage Day incident  and assuming that it will make her uncomfortable he asked her to fill it herself...
Which kind of made everyone sad , even raavi...
Raavi took this in a completely different way thinking that it was because of his hate he asked her to do it herself...
She didn't know why but she felt hurt , And angry... Angry  because her mind and heart was full of confusion because of shiva , everytime they would have a eye lock raavi would feel a different kind of sensation pass through her , everyday they both will sleep at the two ends of the bed but when raavi will get up in the morning she will have ,shiva's arms around her and her head on his chest hugging him..
As raavi was always the first one to wake up she would keep looking at shiva even after she has told herself several times not to do so..
Everytime she was trying to go away from him, some thing or the other will pull her towards him and no matter how much she denies but she too knew that she was getting effected with him..

Both raavi and shiva were assuming things making their already injured heart More wounded..

It was around 7 when they all were back to the haveli , except Shiva as he gone to do some work that gaumbi assigned him...

Raavi was walking towards her room so that she can change and then relax, and maybe sleep so that she can avoid shiva.. She was hurt by his today's incident and she knew if he comes infront of her she will last it him which she didn't wanted to do...
she was passing the garden when she saw dev and rishita kissing each other...
It was not a wrong thing to do for a married couple but still raavi felt hurt.

She knew she shouldn't be feeling hurt , they were husband And wife and they were not doing anything wrong but still she felt hurt..
And why won't she , no matter how much she tries to make her self understand she has loved that Person a lot , And to see that Person with someone else living his life as Normal as if nothing happened just added fuel to her anger And heartbreak....

Raavi Ran towards her room And stumbled on the bed crying , imaging the scene again And again..
She has dreamed about all these with dev and to see him with someone else was Not something she could take so naturally...

She got up from the bed And walked towards her washroom eyes full of tears and pain..

Kyu dev kyu, kyu mere saath aisa kiya Tume , meri feelings ka mera mazak bana ke kya mila ha tumhe , pure somnath ke samne main tumse apne pyaar ka izhar krti rahi aur tum sunta rahe ek baar bhi nhi kaha ki raavi main pyaar nhi krta hu tumse...
Kyu dev kyu kiya kyuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Raavi shouted...

Flashback ends..

She looked at herself in the washroom mirror and angrily throw a side mirror at the bigger one thrashing it into pieces..
Resulting in getting hurt herself because of the pieces...

She Sat on the floor sobbing her eyes closed,  just wishing that she  could erase the memory from her mind and be it peace...

Here shiva who was early then expected was walking towards his room.
He opened the door and looked around to see raavi  assuming her to be somewhere else he stepped in and closed the door , he walked towards the washroom only to hear sobbing voice coming from there...

Shiva hurridely walked inside the washroom only to see raavi sitting on the floor..

Raavi- he shouted but either she didn't heard him Or she had passed out..
Thinking the other One to be true And fearing that raavi has fainted because of the crying he run towards her only to step on the glasses but Shiva cared the least about himself right now..

Raavi - Shiva shook her shoulder , which made raavi pull her head up And look at him...

Not able to think straight raavi pushed shiva away from him and shouted

Raavi- teri wajha se , teri wajha se aaj main is dard main hu , kyu kyu ki tune mujhse shaadi shiva kyu ki , aisi kaun si nafrat karta tha tu mujhse ki mujhse aisi takleef dena chatha tha tu , bol naa bata mujhe ....
Kyu tum dono bhai mujhe todne main lage ho..
Ek shaadi ke mandap main chod ke chala gaya aur ek ha Jo itni nafrat krta ha ki mujhse bas is liye shaadi ki taki main har din mat saku..
Yahi chatha tha naa tu ki main dev ko har din kisi aur ke saath dekhu aur Ye socho ki wo kaise mera nhi ho paya is liye ki naa tune mujhse shaadi...
Bol naa

Shiva looked at raavi shocked , he was Not able to understand why made her accuse him like this..
He wanted to shout at her but looking at her vulnerable state he calmed himself and asked her

Shiva - raavi hua kya ha ,kisi ne kuch kaha ha kya , bol naa kya hua ha kyu ro rhi ha itna..

Shiva asked placing his hand on her shoulder but raavi jerker his hands away and stood up grabbed his collar and Said

Raavi- kisi ne kuch nhi kaha ha shiva ye bas mere andar ki cheikh ha jo aaj tujhe sunai de rhi ha , shiva mujhe ek baat bata kyu ki tune mujhse shaadi ?
Mujhe har din marne ke liye
Agar mujhe marta dekhne ka itna hi shaukh tha toh us din kyu bachaya tha tune mujhe ,bol naa ,chod deta marne ke liye kaam se kaam main har din toh nhi marti..ek baar main meri kahani khatam ho jati..

Shifa felt hurt pass through him listening to her words the thought of her dying was something shiva never wanted to go through..

Shiva - kya hua ha raavi bol naa

Raavi looked at him and suddenly the tears which has stopped because of her shouting at him was back again..
She fell on the grounds and said..

Raavi - mere saath hi kyu hua shiva Ye SB , mere maa Papa chod kar chale gai aur phir dev kyu Shiva kyu ho rha ha mere saath aisa..
Kaise dekhu main usse har din kisi aur ke saath kaise..
Jis insaan ko itna toot kar pyaar kiya ho usee kaise bhul jao..
Nhi bardast ho rha ha mujhse Ye aab please kuch kar.. Maine aisa kya gunha kiya tha Shiva ki mujhe aisi saza mil rhi ha.. Kyu bata naa mujhe , kyu nhi hua dev ko kabhi mujhse Pyaar kyu main pagal ki tarha usse pyaar krti gai , pure somnath ke samne usse izhar krti gai aur wo tab bhi chup batha raha...
Kyu Shiva kyu nhi hua usse mujhse pyaar aisi Kya kami ha mujh main Shiva..
Bol naa...
Itna pyaar kiya Maine usee , jaan tk dene chali gai thi uske liye..sabse lad gai thi uske liye , mausi maa ka Dil dukha diya tha unki haar ek baat kati thi taki main dev hi ho saku , kya kuch nhi kiya tha Maine shiva tune toh dekha ha naa phir bhi aaj main akeli kyu hu kyu main aaj tarap rhi hu uske liye..
Mujhse nhi bardast ho rha ha shiva Ye dard..
Kya kami rhe gai thi mere pyaar main Shiva bata naa..

Raavi was literally shaking Shiva , who was just looking at her with hurt..
Shiva too kneeled infront of her and pulled her in his arms..
Raavi too hugged shiva and cried

Raavi- tujhe pata ha apne har kal ka sapna Maine dev ke saath dekha tha , apni Khushi main apne gum main har ek cheez main Maine usee socha tha...
Yaha ( pointing towards her heart ) yaha dil main basaya tha Maine usee kaise nikalu main usse yaha se tu bata...
Itna badi chot kyu pahuchai usne mujhe shiva , jisse main itna zyada pyaar krti hu.. Is tarha mujhe todne ki kya zaroorat thi ? Ek baar khe deta ki raavi nhi krta hu tujhse pyaar toh  main samajh jati par aise tamasha kyu banaya usne mera Shiva..kyu..... Kyu mandap main chod diya usne mujhe ? Pure somnath ke samne mera mazak banaya kyu shiva ?
Kitni baar usse mauka mila ha sach batane ka par har bar chup rha ha wo kyu..
Kya main is layak thi ki wo.mujhe mandap main chod deta , kya main sach deserve nhi krti thi , kya aaj bhi main usse ek.sorry deserve nhi krti hu shiva, kabhi kuch khethe kyu nhi ha wo..
Agar ek baar usne himmat ki hoti toh aaj mujhe ye dard nhi jhelna padta naa shiva..

Raavi continued sobbing while shiva just kept looking at her state..
She was hurt and that broke him too..
He was aware of this pain of heartbreak so he did understand her outbrust...

Though he himself was responsible for his heartbreak as he never told her about his feelings , but in case of raavi she was always loud and clear about her feelings for dev.. And yet dev behaved deaf and broke her heart like this..
For the first time in his life shiva felt hate towards his own brother , he felt like beating the shit out of dev...

For now shiva didn't cared that raavi was crying in his arms for his brother, for her Love Dev..
He didn't cared that she has thrown some harsh words at him because he knew what state of mind she was in..

Shiva looked at raavi who looked extremely tired and weak..
Not able to see her like this , he carefully picked her up in his arms and walked out of the washroom , placing her on the bed he moved towards the drawer to get the first aid kit..
All these while raavi kept looking at shiva feeling guilty for hurting  him like that..
She thought he will leave her like that or shout at her for her words but he did opposite..He took care of her..
Raavi felt anger on herself for speaking such rubbish things to him
Because she knew that he might hate her but his intension was never like what she thought them to be ..
She was just angry and shiva became the prey of her anger...

She looked towards Shiva who sat beside her , as he bandaged all her wounds which were fortunately not that Deep...

Raavi wanted to apologise from him for all the things she has told him but her body felt too tired and no having any energy she closed her eyes letting sleep consume her..

Shiva walked into the washroom and came back with a wet cloth , carefully wipping her face with that..

After he was done he sat on the floor near the window looking at raavi's sleeping figure..

He let his tears fall freely ,feeling helpless , hurt , pain and what not..

Shiva kept looking at raavi not knowing exactly how to remove her pain..

The end