I keep rubbing on my belly as I walk back to my bedroom. As if rubbing on the belly would take away the truth. Every time I closed my eyes I keep seeing the stupid + sign. I can't believe I am pregnant. 

For fucks sakes! A few minutes ago I just accepted the fact that I am in love with a vampire. My mom has been 100% human and John a 100% vampire which made her pregnancy ME. I am not human...

I am already 50% monster. Nathan is 100% vampire. I have been beaten to an inch of my life and the little creature in my stomach is still alive.

Whatever thing is on my belly isn't going to be human. I lay down on the bed staring at the ceiling thinking of a way to get rid of the thing inside of me.

This is what Nathan and John wanted from me from the very beginning... All of the sudden the memory when we were in the shower and John caught us came into my mind.  Nathan told John he wanted to finish... They BOTH treated me like a monster machine.

FUCK!  If being kick in the stomach over, and over and over again, and drowning didn't kill this thing... What would?   Maybe... Maybe. I have to kill myself...

The door to the bedroom opens. I sit up on the bed straight... The happiness in Nathan's face makes me feel sick all over again. Nathan is carrying a tray full of different types of food. Yet I find myself looking to see if he has the nerve to bring blood. As if I would ever nurture this monster inside of me.

"You must be hungry." I shake my head.

"No." He frowns walk all the way towards me and sit next to me holding the tray of food.

"Nauseous?"

"No."

"What's wrong?"

"Nathan..." My voice trembles. "Do you truly love me?" I stare at him while I bit into my lower lip. Nathan lets go of the tray by putting it next to him and put a hands on my cheeks as he scoots closer to me.

"I truly love you, Zoey." I take a deep breath.

"Then you should respect my wishes."

"Wishes?" He repeats in disbelieve and stares at me in confusion.

 "I don't want to have this." I point towards my belly. His frown deepens. Then he knows what I mean.

"Are you saying you don't want the baby?" I cringe at the word baby, that was the last thing. This thing was. Nathan growl in my face almost guessing my thoughts.

"Don't!" I snap at him knowing the argument.

"Don't what!" He says standing up. Putting his hands into a fist.

I stand up too getting close to him. "Don't you dare growl at me you fucking piece of shit! You and John are a fucking prick and you know that! You got me pregnant by tricking me! I don't want it. I don't want this thing inside of me. You can't force me!" I punch my belly hard hurting myself in the process.

Nathan's runs vampire speed towards me and hugs me in a way that my blows now goes to his back. "GET off me! You don't love me! You were using me this whole time!" My knees become weak and Nathan is all that is holding me up. He lowers us to the floor and keeps hugging me tightly.

"Calm down Zoey Love. I promise I'll talk to you... But not like this. We can't have a conversation while you're acting like this." Nathan murmurs as if that alone would calm me down.

"Get off me," I say crying. "You had sex with me while I clearly said no. You still did it to impregnate me." My vision is now blurred by tears. This can't be happening to me. Nathan couldn't be using me to create fighting machines for this stupid war. "You fucking planned this!"

Nathan stands up slowly holding onto my wrist and pulls me with him. "Zoey... You need to calm down. Ok? The baby is going to be normal. It's going to look human, just like any other normal baby-"

"A normal baby wouldn't have survived the beating Aurora gave me." His face turns dark.

"Zoey... Honey." He tries to pull me to him again but I stand my grounds. "Let's just wait and see?"

"That's the last thing I'll do." Nathan pulls on my wrist harder making me stumble.

"Zoey... I don't want to force you." I hear the treat loud and clear. But he will.  "This is something new to you and you are just scared and nervous. You are letting the prejudice you have against us win once again. And being hormonal is not helping you any right now. Once the baby is born. You'll thank me-"

"This thing is not going to be born." I try to snatch my hand back, but he holds onto it hard without hurting me. I free one of my hands and go to hit my stomach again. Nathan holds onto both wrists staring at me.

"Zoey." His tone is harsh. I could see him trying to calm his anger down, but was failing miserably. "Calm the fuck down, or I will calm you down myself."

I scoff. "Try-" In an instant, he put me over his shoulder and put me on the bed gently. I don't know what the fuck happened. One moment I was standing in front of him as he held my wrist hard, the next I was on the bed tide to it. This jackass move so fast I never saw it coming. I looked up and glared at him.

This is not over...

4 Month Later.

It has been four months and I was back to being a prisoner but worse. I spend my days tight to the bedpost. The only time I'm free is when Nathan comes and bathed me. I have tried escaping several times, but it's useless...

I don't know what day it is and I don't care. I stare blankly into space as tears run down my cheek. The door opens and I know they are going to put food into my system against my will.

"Zoey baby..." His voice is sad and broken. "It's been four months. Looks at your belly... Let me bring a doctor-" I close my eyes tight. Last time he tried to bring a doctor to look at the thing... It did not go well. "The baby is normal-"

I open my eyes and glare at Nathan. "Don't waste saliva on the same shit. I don't want this thing. Period."

"Look Zoey. I'm going out for a day or so."

"Who the fuck is going to take care of me?"

"Aurora." He starts to say.

"Are you insane?"

"Your father ask her... I couldn't object-"

"Because you didn't tell John she tried to kill me." He sighs.

"She won't hurt you."

"Right." I murmur. "Just get out of my face. The mere smell of you is making me nauseous." He smiles amused at my insult and gives me a kiss on the forehead then leaves me alone in the fucking bedroom...

I must have fallen asleep because the sound of the door opening wakes me up.

"I'm not hungry." I murmur eyes still close.

"I'm not here to feed you." I open my eyes and stared at Aurora.

"Are you here to kill me?" She smiles at me like I never seen before and keeps walking towards me.

"You and I both know, that is not possible." She gets closer to me and sits down staring at my belly in a weird way. After a few seconds, she unties me. I rub on my wrist frowning at her.

"What are you doing?"

"Do you still want to..." She swallows hard. Something is different about her. "Kill your baby." I glare at her for calling the thing a baby.

"Yes..." 

"Then you have to leave the house... Runaway." I nod. This thing ruined any possible future I could have ever had with Nathan. Maybe that's why Aurora wanted me to kill it...

"Why are you helping me?" She gives me a crooked smile that has me worried.

"Because Nathan and John are acting stupid. I can't blame them though as smart as those two are, sometimes stupidity show's it's ugly head." I glared at her. "They are once again underestimating you."

"What do you mean?"

"Forcing you to do things doesn't work...You fell in love with Nathan when he changed the way he acted towards you." I purse my lips. She rolls her eyes at me. "I know. The slut talking about love... You and I knew I wasn't in love with Nathan...  I was and always will be in love with John."

"Nice way of showing it." She laughs.

"I know. I plan to kill him an all that. I wanted power... Got blind for a quick second." There's a frown in my face as I stare at her.

"So... If you open your eyes and know Nathan loves me... Why are you helping me escape?"

"I am not helping you. I am helping Nathan." Her tone has a secret edge to it.

 "How?"

"Wait and see..."

"Fine." I stand up and start to walk towards the door. 

 "The house is empty. Just walk away." I stop by the door.

"Why is the house empty?" She gives me a crooked smile.

"You're wasting time." I open the door about to leave to my fake freedom. "Wait." I turn and stare at Aurora. She has a bat in hand and I must look scared because she rolls her eyes at me.  "You do know the beating I gave you was for Nathan's benefits right?"

"Right," I say sarcastically. "It didn't sound like to me when you were blaming me for your misfortune." She laughs.

"I know. I got over it. Call it a vampire thing. You'll find out what is like very soon-"

"No. I won't." I snap at her. She just smiles. "So if the bat is not to help me get rid of the thing, what is it for-"

"Please. It has been established. Your baby can't be killed by a beating."

"I know." She smiles and nods. "Now you're going to love this." She gives me the metal bat. "Do your worse."

"You'll heal, there won't be proof I escaped by beating you-"

"I haven't fed. I"ll be bruised. Trust me."

"Sure."

"We need to sell that you ran away-" I swung and hit her over the head with the bat, then did it again, and again. She hissed and snatched the bat away from my hands angrily. "Damn you! You enjoy that too much." I laugh.

"God that was fun."

"Yeah, well I look forward to returning the favor." She smiled spitting blood to the floor. I had a small feeling the threat was fake... 

 "Thank You." She just nods.

"Don't thank me yet. Thank me when you're back." I roll my eyes at her. She breaks the metal bat and makes it into a stake then gives me half. "Now stab my leg-" She doesn't have to tell me twice. 

I stab her leg and she falls to the floor. She gives me a look and I take off running.  The house is oddly empty and there were no guards on the gate.

So I kept running away from the mansion and away from love.