If there was any youtuber Dean loved, it was TheCasOfThursday. He loved the way he made jokes and talked about random things. He wasn't quite as flamboyant as Tyler Oakley, but Dean had this headcanon that Cas was gay. He wished it was true.

He was awaiting the moment when he uploaded a new video. It was a Thursday afternoon, and that's usually when Cas uploaded. He kept refreshing the page over and over again, just waiting for that new video, because he was one of those fans.

And finally, after clicking the refresh button so many times he thought his monitor would explode, there was a new video on the page. Dean was particularly interested in the title.

"Coming Out".

He grinned as he considered the meaning, knowing what it had to have been. He eagerly clicked the play button, watching the video.

It started out with his usual introduction; an animation of Cas with a Molotov saying "Hey, assbutt!" and throwing it at the screen, and in the explosion, his username, TheCasOfThursday, would appear in bold font. "Assbutt" is his nickname for his viewers. Dean thought it was kinda funny.

Then Cas was on the screen. "Hello, my assbutts. So... today, I feel that... I should talk to you guys about something."

Dean was very interested. He was always engaged by what Cas had to say. Especially since he wrote so much fanfiction, he knew that one of these days, something would become canon.

"So... I've been doing... a lot of thinking lately. For... the longest time. Like... a year or two at least. And it... terrifies me."

Dean was even more intrigued. Was this his fanfiction coming true?

"Well... I've been taking a good, long look at myself, and, uh... I think it's pretty clear... what's been bugging me for the longest damn time."

And... fanfiction moment:

"I think I'm gay."

There it was.

"YES!" Dean accidentally yelled aloud.

"This is probably shocking to many of you, and I'm sure you have a lot of questions, but... I'm gay, guys."

This was actually real. Dean's biggest headcanon ever was actually true. Proof. Right here. Actually, another headcanon of his was hugely "Troyler" related, but that wasn't important at the moment.

"I know, that large faction of you who needlessly ship me with Jenna Marbles are deeply disappointed, but sorry. Not gonna happen. And... it probably wouldn't have happened anyway. So... uh, yeah."

Damn "Jennstiel". Or "Marvak" to some.

"But, yeah, guys, this is real. I... I'm gay. It must be weird for a lot of you, it's weird to me too, but we can get used to it together."

Dean knew it all along. He mostly wanted it because he had the biggest crush on him, but he still knew. Maybe... all his fanfictions with him and Cas could come true. Of course, he'd have to actually meet the guy, which would never happen.

"So... I just, two... ish years ago, I started thinking to myself, 'Why haven't I met a girl yet? A girl that... makes me want to sing?' And I thought two things. One, I don't think anyone could make me want to sing. And two... what if I'm gay?"

And Dean randomly thought of a new headcanon; Cas sang opera but never did in public. A beautiful thought, but that was even less likely than his "Destiel" fanfictions. It was a working ship name, he didn't think it was that good.

"To me, this was an absolutely horrifying thought. I never thought about... the possibility that I was... gay. That just... wasn't something I ever thought about. And now... I'm suddenly wondering that maybe... I like guys? And... my brain just... shut down."

Dean could relate. He was in middle school when he thought he was gay. Seventh grade was always a bitch, he didn't need gay thoughts to top that.

"I just... couldn't think. I didn't know what to do. So I tried to just... push it away. Try to ignore it. But... I couldn't."

Dean tried that, too. Didn't work.

"I was up for... so many nights. I would just lie there and... think... about this... impossible thing. Was I gay? Who knows?"

So relatable. Dean couldn't even believe it.

"But, I sorted through everything, and... it's pretty clear. I'm... one hundred percent, completely and totally... gay. And I don't just mean homosexual. I mean gay... as in happy.... Wow. That was... so bad." He laughed.

Dean was pretty freaking gay with this, too. Because... he was gay. And was gay about... gay. Or... wait.

"Okay, well, now that's out there. Breathe it in. And in the description, I have the results from the VidCon contest, the 'VidContest', as I so cleverly dubbed it. So, if you're the lucky winner, then-" He tossed a handful of confetti in the air. "CONFETTI! It's a parade!"

Dean loved it when he did the confetti parade thing. It always made him laugh.

"And, if you haven't already, just click that subscribe button, because that would make me... very happy," He grinned. "I will see you assbutts later, so until then, I leave you with this week's tumblr pic. So adios and goodbye!"

And his theme music began to play, a picture of him with his "wormstache" drawn presumably on tumblr on the screen.

He decided he would go to the description and see who won the "VidContest". He knew it wouldn't be him, but he figured he'd look anyway.

He scrolled through the description, where he saw links and merchandise promotion and all that, looking for the VidContest winner. Even though he knew there was no way in hell Cas would've-

"The VidContest winner is: Impala67! 🎉 CONFETTI! It's a parade! 🎉"

Impala67. That was Dean's username.

This was impossible. That couldn't have been real. This was a dream. There was no fucking way TheCasOfThursday just came out and picked him as the winner of the VidContest.

He was actually, seriously, legitimately going to meet TheCasOf-Motherfucking-Thursday.

Dean couldn't handle this. Not only was he going to meet Cas, but he was also going to VIDCON! That was only his biggest dream ever! VidCon. The place where dreams come true. Apparently.

Maybe he'd even get the chance to meet some other YouTube celebrities. Like Dan and Phil, who he watched regularly and shipped like there was no tomorrow. Tyler Oakley, who actually helped him come out a bit through his videos. Maybe even Marcus Butler. Or Troye Sivan. Maybe Connor Franta. Or Jenna Marbles, though that would be awkward now that Cas has come out; everyone knows she has a crush on him. Except... well, Cas. He was a sweetheart, but a bit slow.

He was gonna meet his idol. And he couldn't wait.

._.__.~MAGICAL TIME SKIP~.__._.

Dean got everything he needed in the mail, and he was on his way to Anaheim, California. He was just so jittery and nervous. Cas was like his hero, he couldn't wait to meet him.

He got to VidCon, and he was horribly anxious. He couldn't believe this was happening. He was going to meet Castiel Novak. The Castiel Novak. TheCasOf-Freaking-Thursday. Oh boy.

He walked in and was breath taken. He saw so many YouTube references. He knew all of them. Toby Turner, Pewdiepie, Smosh, Epic Meal Time, all of them. He was the ultimate YouTube fan. He just had to find Cas in this giant crowd. Hopefully he would.

He went through stand after stand, so many YouTubers. He wanted to meet them all. But he had to find Cas. No distractions. HOLY SHIT HE SAW DAN AND PHIL.

No. No distractions. He... he could meet them later. Maybe. Hey, maybe if he got close to Cas he could meet all sorts of YouTubers. Ha, yeah right.

Holy shit. He found him. Castiel freaking Novak. He was right there.

No way. It couldn't have been him. This was too unbelievable. As he laid eyes on him, he felt a sudden lump in his pa- I mean, throat.

He had to go up there. It was all part of the contest, meeting Cas. He had to. But... his legs weren't cooperating with his brain all of a sudden.

C'mon, me. Get it together. This has been your lifelong dream for about two and a half years. Just go up there and... make a fool of yourself and get it over with.

He took a deep breath and approached... his hero. Something he never thought would happen.

Cas saw him and smiled. "You must be Impala67. I recognize you from your profile picture."

Dean swallowed. "Um... y-yeah. I, uh... I'm Dean. Uh... hi." Dude, stop being such a pussy, would ya?

"C'mon, I want my fans to meet ya."

Dean quickly nodded and stood next to him behind his booth, where he had his camera. Dean could not fathom this. He was here. Right now. With Cas. Right now. Holy shit.

"Hello, my assbutts!" Cas spoke into the camera. "I am here at VidCon with my VidContest winner! Meet Impala67, or Dean!"

He had to say something. "Uh... sup? Uh... wish you could be here!"

"Y'know, Dean, I am really digging the shirt. Isn't it marvelous?"

He was referring to Dean's T-shirt that had Cas's animated figure on it. He ordered it on Cas's website called justforassbutts.com where you can buy his merchandise. This particular shirt was one of Cas's favorite designs; his animated self with a diamond Minecraft sword in space, standing on a giant burger with tiny burgers all around him. It kinda reminded Dean of Adventure Time, the way it was animated.

"Thanks. You know where I got it?"

Cas decided to play along. "I dunno. Where?"

"Walmart. It was half off." He joked.

"Oh, nice," Cas nodded along, smiling. "So, how you liking VidCon?"

"It's, uh, it's pretty cool. I saw Dan and Phil somewhere and nearly had a heart attack." He laughed.

"Y'know, if memory serves me, you entered the contest about... four times?"

"Uh, five. Four times under Impala67 and one time as... 'Casbutt93'."

Cas laughed at that. "Oh, wow. So you're a pretty big fan I take it?"

"Are you kidding? You're awesome! I mean, I just can't believe I'm here right now, at VidCon, meeting you, you! And I just I can't even right now and I, uh, I should probably shut up now." He chuckled softly, looking into Cas's blue eyes. He loved those eyes so much. He wanted to stare into them forever. He wished he could. But it was unlikely they'd ever meet again after today.

"Alright, well I gotta do some signage, Dean, would you hold the camera for me?"

"H-hold the-the camera? Y-you mean like... as in... f-film you? With the camera?"

"C'mon, don't be nervous. Here, take it." He handed Dean the camera, who pointed it at Cas, his hands shaking a little bit.

"Okay. Got it. I-I got the camera." He chuckled.

He filmed Cas as he signed shirts and posters and other paraphernalia. He could hardly contain himself, he was so freaking excited. This was actually happening right now. He was sitting here, filming his biggest hero, like, ever.

At some point, a little redheaded girl, about seven or eight years old, walked up to the booth. "Hi." She spoke softly.

Cas chuckled. "Hello. What's your name?"

"A-Anna."

"Anna. Nice to meet you. You're a fan of my videos?"

Anna nodded, a small smile on her face. Cas was always so good with kids, and Dean loved that about him.

She held up one of his posters, one that Dean actually had at home. "Can you sign my poster?"

"Of course, sweetheart."

Dean loved that poster. It was Cas's, rather serious, face with a mustache edited on to it. At the bottom it read, TheCasOfThursday.

"'To my friend, Anna, from Cas. Live long and prosper.'" He signed with a smile.

"Thank you!" She smiled.

"No problem." Cas replied.

Anna ran off, squealing with delight, shouting, "Mommy! Daddy! Guess what!"

Both Cas and Dean laughed, Dean setting the camera on the table so it pointed at both him and Cas. "I'm a bit surprised her parents let her watch your stuff."

Cas glanced over at him in confusion. "What do you mean?"

"Hey, man, I've seen some of your videos!"

Cas laughed, remembering some of his... less child friendly videos.

"I mean, remember the Harry Potter Drinking Game with Shane Dawson? Or the Avengers Drinking Game with Jenna Marbles? How bout the Tobuscus Happy Wheels Drinking Game with... y'know, Toby?"

"Ah, memories." Cas feigned nostalgia.

"I think you've got an alcohol problem."

"Nah. I got no problem with it, it's fine the way it is."

Dean laughed. "Yeah, I hear that."

"Hey, do you like Friends?" Cas asked randomly.

"Hell yeah. Why?"

"I'm thinking... Friends Drinking Game. Maybe... with Impala67. Or Dean. Whichever."

"See? That, right there. All the drinking games. And you end up getting seriously drunk. Every time."

"Pfft. What? No I do not."

"Oh really? So when you tried to kiss Tyler Oakley during the Strange Online Porn Drinking Game-"

"Now that was completely sober." Cas smiled, winking at the camera.

Dean chuckled. "And it took you so long to figure out you were gay."

"Hey, I've had this shit figured out for a while, but I just... didn't say anything. And, hey, no one said anything about my almost kiss with Tyler 'cause they all thought I was drunk." He shrugged.

"Ahh. Well played, Novak. Well played."

"Okay, Friends Drinking Game. Nothin' but tequila shots. Okay, every time Joey says, 'How you doin'?' (Who here read that in Joey's voice?), take a shot. Every time Ross says something about dinosaurs, take a shot. Every time we see a Ross/Rachel moment, take a shot."

"Well, we're gonna drink ourselves to death." Dean grinned.

Cas chuckled. "And every time Joey and Chandler share a gay moment, shot!"

"Oh, shit, we're doomed."

They both laughed. "That's the idea."

"Oh! Every time Monica gets all OCD, take a shot!"

"Nice one. Ooh! Every time Phoebe sings 'Smelly Cat', take a shot."

"Or if anyone refers to it."

"Yeah, that too. I'd say for every time Chandler cracks a joke, but...."

"Ooh. Yeah, no." Dean half grinned.

"Every time Gunther has one of his Rachel crush moments, take a shot!"

"Oh, man, Gunther. Unbelievable. Hey. Every time Ross gets jealous of one of Rachel's boyfriends, shot."

"So... when Rachel ever dates another man?"

"Shot!" They spoke at once, the two of them laughing.

"Y'know, I was a bit nervous about meeting you. Well, a lot nervous. But, now, it kinda feels... natural. Y'know what I mean?"

"Yeah, same with me and Jack Douglass. I was a huge fan, and I still am. When I met him, I was just fangirling all over the damn place. And now we tease each other on Twitter."

"I'd love to tease you on Twitter. Oh, shit, I just said that out loud, didn't I?"

Cas chuckled. "Well, Dean," He gave him a look of fake seduction. "You could always tease me in real life."

They both laughed, though Dean's was a forced laughter. He had a for reals crush on Cas. This was only making it more difficult for him. He knew they were just goofing, but he didn't want to just goof. He wanted it to mean something.

"So," Dean cleared his throat. "When do you think we should do that Friends Drinking Game?"

Cas shrugged. "I dunno. When's good for you?"

"Eh, we can talk about it later," Dean waved it off. "Y'know, this is making for a rather long video." Dean gestured to the camera which still sat at the table.

"Oh, well. It'll make for more to watch, then."

"Good," He looked into the camera. "You hear that, guys? Stay tuned! Or else! I can tell when you've left. Hey, you!" He pointed at the lens. "Get back here!"

Cas laughed at Dean's joking. "How have we not met?"

Dean looked back at Cas. "I dunno. Maybe because of this thing called 'the odds are pretty much astronomical'."

"Oh, come on! We could've met! Maybe we knew each other when we were, like, kids, and now we don't remember each other."

"Unlikely."

"I dunno, the name Dean Winchester sounds pretty familiar to me."

Dean scoffed. "You're probably just thinking of a rifle, Cas."

Cas shot him a slight bitchface. "C'mon. I must be at least a little kinda familiar to you, right?" He pressed.

"Hmmm... uh, no."

Cas grinned, softy punching him in the arm. "Shut up, this face is familiar."

Dean chuckled. "Okay, okay. Whatever you say."

A small smile lit up Cas's face. "Hey Dean? Wanna meet some YouTubers?"

Dean gave him a look asking if he was serious. "Would I?" He grinned.

They closed up the booth until further notice to meet up with some YouTube celebrities, the camera in Dean's hand. Cas was close friends with most of these guys, so it was a breeze.

"So. Tyler Oakley?" Cas suggested. "Dan and Phil? Troye Sivan? Who first?"

Dean chuckled nervously. "I - I, uh, I don't know. It - it's just so nerve wracking. I - I can't believe this is happening." He laughed.

Cas smiled at his enthusiasm. "Dan and Phil it is, then."

They arrived at Dan and Phil's booth, which had a mile long line, unsurprisingly. Cas managed to squeeze them into the very front, making Dean even more jittery.

"Um, hi, Dan and Phil?" Cas began, imitating a fangirl. "I am just such a huge fan! Can you sign my VidContest winner?" He budged Dean forward a bit, who was trying to keep it together.

Dan and Phil laughed, causing Dean to laugh along. "Hey, Cas." Dan greeted.

"Hey," Phil waved. "So, this is the VidContest winner?"

"Yep. Dan and Phil, meet Dean. Dean, meet-"

"Dan and Phil!" Dean exclaimed. "Uh, hi! This is just - oh my god, I can't even... I - I can't even, y'know?" He chuckled awkwardly.

"Hashtag 'every fangirl ever'." Dan laughed.

"C'mon, Dan, stop using real life hashtags." Phil groaned.

"Hey, if I want to use hashtags IRL, I can use hashtags IRL. What are you, the hashtag police?"

"Yes, yes I am. And you are under arrest... for... disturbing the peace... on the internet."

Dan just sort of facepalmed while Phil stood there awkwardly. Hashtag "my life".

Dean chuckled. "Oh my god, Classic Dan and Phil. Just classic... you guys."

After meeting Dan and Phil, they met up with Tyler Oakley. Dean couldn't help but feel a bit nervous. Next to Cas, Tyler Oakley was Dean's favorite YouTuber. Tyler helped Dean embrace his gay spirit, it's hard to top that.

They reached his booth and got to the front of the line. "Um, excuse me, Mr. Oakley," Cas imitated a... white girl. "Can you sign my assbutt?"

They all laughed at that. "Oh my god, hi Cassie!" Tyler gave Cas a hug. "Is this the VidContest winner?"

"Yup. Dean, Tyler. Tyler, Dean."

"Uh... hi, Tyler." Dean greeted shyly.

"OMG, Cassie! He's so cute! Where've you been hiding this one?" He laughed.

"At my booth. Now, he's a pretty big fan, and I think he's about to explode, so-" They all laughed.

"I just, y'know, I think you're great," Dean fangirled. "Y-you helped me come out, so I - I have you to thank for that. And I - I just love your videos. Especially the collab you did with Marcus Butler with the helium balloons and you sang different songs together, remember?"

They all laughed in remembrance of that video. Dean was having a great time. Not only did he meet Cas, but he also met Dan Howell, Phil Lester, and Tyler Oakley! Holy shit!

"Cute and sweet," Tyler looked at Cas suggestively. "He's a keeper, Cassie."

"Oh, shut up, Tyler!" Cas shoved him in the shoulder. "It's a completely platonic fan thing."

"But that's not nearly as fun."

Needless to say, Tyler ships it.

Dean got to meet so many YouTubers. After Tyler Oakley, they met up with Jack Douglass. Then Marcus Butler, then Troye Sivan, then Jenna Marbles. And Jenna Marbles? She did not ship it.

They were running around meeting up with dozens of YouTubers. This was the best day of Dean's whole existence. It was just so exciting meeting all these guys. He adored them all, now he gets to meet them all.

By the end of it all, VidCon was coming to a close, and they had to leave soon.

"Well, Dean, this has been fun." Cas grinned.

"Indeed it has been." Dean returned the grin.

"Y'know, if we're gonna do that drinking game, tourer gonna want my address." Cas began checking his pockets for a pen.

"Well I'd want your address anyway and I should really shut up now."

Cas laughed, finding a black pen in the breast pocket of his shirt. He took Dean's hand and wrote his address and phone number on his palm.

"So. Call me, text me, do whatever. I'd really like to do a collab with you. You seem like an okay guy."

"Oh, I'm a delight." Dean joked.

Cas chuckled. "Alright. I'll see you around."

"Yeah, I'll see ya."

Dean wanted so badly to see him again. He couldn't wait to meet up with his idol. This was just overwhelming. He had TheCasOfThursday's address and cell phone number. And there wasn't a doubt in his mind that they'd meet again soon.

(A\N: wow that was longer than I planned 😋

So. A lot has happened guys. Really, just ask my girlfriend.

Oh. Have I not mentioned Dayna?

SHE MAH BAE-BAE!

We're in the same Girl Scout troop and I asked her out and she said yes and she's beautiful and funny and random and in a lot of the same fandoms as me and 💘

I'm writing a book about it. It's called Scouts Honor and it's destiel, so Boy Scouts. I have no idea how Boy Scouts works so 😐

But yeah. She mah Day-Bae. Or Day-Day. Or my sweet little duckling cuz her favorite animal is ducks ☺️

💜💕💕💖💕💕💜

I finished Buffy. HOLY SH-

I say nothing......... 😫😫😫

I went to Kings Island today. It's an amusement park nearby and HOLY SH-

It's cool. If I stay still long enough, I can still feel The Vortex... or The Beast, one of those two... 🎢🎢

DUDEDUDEDUDEDUDE GMOD GARRY'S MOD I HAVE IT AND ASDFGHJKL

It's cool. Just kinda sorta the best game EVERRRRR! Garry's mod is HASKDJ. That's a word, most definitely.

BUT SRSLY THO BUFFY. MUSICAL EPISODE. SPIKE. BUFFY KISSING. CRR H OFIOF !I

I kinda just slapped my phone out of enthusiasm cuz SPUFFYYYY! MY BIGGEST OTP SINCE... HELL, DESTIEL! And I don't get worked up over straight couples. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME, JOSS WHEDON??!!?!?

Guys. We are almost there. The big ONE HUNDREDTH ONE SHOT SPECTACULATHON! Totally what it's called.

DUDE I FEEL THE ROLLERCOASTER IN MY BODY ITS SO WEIRD

And I will continue THIS one shot after the big one-zero-zero. Don't worry, they'll get drunk 😊🍻

And I'm sorry if I portrayed VidCon wrong but I've never been, although I'd like to go cuz YASS

And HEY! Happy early Star Wars day! May the fourth be with you, my Marshminions!

Speaking of,

Peace Off My Mini Marshminions!)