Chapter 12

Months has passed and Sky and I still bond. Kami lagi ang magkasama kahit saan, nang dumating kami galing sa isla at nakita ko kaagad na hinahalikan ni Andrew si Charm.

He was kissing her passionately, that's when I realized.... I should let him go. Magmo-move on na talaga ako at I enjoy ang buhay.

And that's what I did, with Sky.

I can call him my bestfriend now, a month being with him makes me attract to him more. He's lovinga and caring when it comes to Raine, kahit sa mga bata.

He's humble and gentle to children's. We always visited Island of Hope to and enjoyed the scenery, we also visit an orphanage near the island. It was fun, that whole month was fun.

I can't imagine having a boybest, I was a quiet person. I only communicate when I needed to or I just want to. But whenever I'm with him I always wanted to talk, like... I don't want to lose a topic. I always wanted to hear his voice, I always wanted to see his smile. Is it even normal to my heart to beat furiously whenever he laugh?

Well... I guess so? I've never felt something like this before, even Andrew can't give me tingling sensation. Only Sky can do that, Andrew can't make my knees wobble in just a smile. Only Sky can do that. Only him.

"Are you... really going back to Manila? I mean... pwede namang dito ka na lang diba?"

I sighed once again. He's been stopping mw to go back to Manila, I need to go back because it's almost Christmas. My friends and I already planned a party, hindi pwedeng hindi ko sila sisiputin. I can ditch the party that my parents held, but not my friends. Isang buwan ko na din kaseng hindi sila nakikita. I can't just leave them behind because of Sky.

"Alam mo namang kailangan ko diba? And... you'll be back after five days right? Susunod ko din naman sakin sa Manila"

Sabi naman kasi niya uuwi din siya sa Manila para i-celebrate ang Christmas kasama ang pamilya niya. Wala naman kase akong makakasama rito kung sakaling mag stay ako. I don't want my christmas to be lonemas. Mahirap na, baka umiyak ako habang nakatingin sa christmas tree.

He sat at my bed and looked away. He seem to be worried and scared, ano bang kinakatakot niya? And... he can visit me anytime. Malapit lang naman siguro ang bahay nila.

Humiga siya sa kama ko kaya pinatuloy ko na lang ang pagliligpit ko ng gamit. Dahil lagi na kaming magkasama, parang wala na sa amin ang mag stay sa iisang kwarto. We can even sleep beside each other, I don't know why I felt so safe and comfortable with him. But I'm sure that it's because he's gentle and not a beast.

"Are you... fine seeing your ex and your family?" He asked in a low voice.

I stopped a bit and think about it. I know it's hard, but I think I can handle it right? I'm still scarred because of what happened, is still fresh in my heart. But... after a month of moving on, I think it's fine to see them right?

"Yeah...?" I said unsure of my answer. I continued placing my clothes inside my baggage. "I don't know, let's just see... maybe a little bit pain? I don't know"

He sighed then get up. He looked at me seriously. "Paano kung... guluhin ka niya ulit?"

Ako naman ngayon ang napabuntong hininga, Sky knew all about my past. About what happened and why the hell am I here in this place. I was drunk at that time, it's after seeing Andrew and Charm kissing each other passionately. That's when I tell him everything, when I say everything... lahat yun. How Andrew and I get together until how he broke my heart into pieces.

I leaned on the side bed. "Actually... I don't know" I honestly answered. "After what he did to me... I guess I'll just ignore him? Make him stay away from me?"

His face became serious. Eto na naman tayo eh, when it comes to Andrew– I mean my ex boyfriend he always became serious. He said he hates my ex for hurting me. He said I should be love endlessly not to be hurt.

I know he's sweet. But when his face became stoic I just can't help but not to look at him... kasi naman, ang gwapo niya. Mukha siyang masungit na lalaki tapos nagiging sweet pagdating sakin. Grabe naman.

Tumayo ako at saka umupo sa tabi niya. He looked at me curiously, kunot noo parin siya kaya naman inayos ko ang noo niya. Nang hindi na ito kumunot ay tumingin ako sa kaniya at saka ngumiti.

"Sabi sayo wag kang kunot ng kunot eh. Pumapangit ka" Tumawa ako ng mahina dahil nagsinungaling na naman ako. Nasasanay na akong magsinungaling, I just can't help it. Alangan namang sabihin ko na gumagwapo siya diba? Baka lumaki ulo, pero parang hindi naman siya ganun.

Pero malay niyo diba, may tinatago pa siyang kabaliwan sa katawan.

He chuckled and pinch my cheeks. "Ang cute mo"

Ngumuso ako para pigilan ang pagngiti. Ket kelan talaga nakakakilig ang lalaking to. "Alam ko no" I rolled my eyes on him before stooding up and packed my clothes again.

I heard him sighed again. Mukhang nasasanay na siya kaka buntong hininga.

"Okay... hindi na kita pipigilan. Just wait for me to come back okay?"

Lumapad ang ngiti ko at saka bigla siyang niyakap. "Yiee! Salamat Sky! Buti na lang talaga susunod ka sa'kin, baka bumalik kaagad ako dito pag hindi ka sumunod"

Hw just shook his head and helped me pack my clothes.

Pagkatapos naming ayusin lahat ng gamit ko ay tumayo na ako at hinila si Sky pababa. It's 7:15 in the morning and we haven't eat anything yet. Mamayang 1PM pa ang flight ko kaya naman may oras pa ako para maggala gala.

"What do you want eat?" Sky asked while looking at the menu.

Just like what my order was since I first landed here, I ordered shrimps and crabs. Konti lang ang kakainin ko dahil nabusog ako sa dalang foods kanina ni Sky, he always spoils me. If nagca-crave ako ng pizza or fries talagang magba-biyahe siya ng ilang kilometro para lang bilhan ako.

Minsan nga magkasama pa kaming lumalabas papunta sa bayan.

Hindi talaga ako nagsisi na nakilala ko si Sky sa isla na to. Bakit nga ba hindi ko siya nakilala dati pa? Edi sana naiyakan ko na siya nung wala na kami ni Andrew. Pero thankful padin ako, kasi dumating siya.

"Hindi ka ba nagsasawa? Yan na lang lagi ang kinakain mo dito ah"

Inismiran ko siya at saka binalatan ang shrimp. "Masarap eh, bakit naman ako magsasawa?"

He rolled his eyes and get my shrimp and ate it. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin  dahil nang-aagaw na naman siya ng pagkain.

"Ang sabihin mo... paborito yan ni Andrew kaya hindi ka nagsasawa" He said bitterly.

Natahimik ako at saka nawalan ng emosyon ang mukha. He really knows me very well. Sa kaunting panahon na magkasama kami, kilalang kilala niya na talaga ako.

"Tama ako diba?" Tanong niya kaya naman ay napa-irao na lang ako.

This won't bring any good, hindi naman sa paborito yun ni Drew. Talagang masarap lang kaya hindi ko mahindian.

"Masarap lang, nasali na naman ang gago kong ex"

Napangiti siya at saka umiling. "Masyado kang bitter"

I glared at him. Bakit kasi ganito siya magsalita? I really doubt his gender identity, minsan naiisip ko na bakla siya. But he's not, talagang napaka humble niyang magsalita at ang linis ng katawan. Sobra pa sa doctor na maarte.

Tinapos namin ang pagkain namin bago kami sabay naligo sa pool, he even tried to drown me! Gusto niya atang patayin ako, nakakainis din minsan kaso nag sorry naman at sinuyo ako hanggang sa pinabili ko siya ng sangkatutak na barbecue sa isang stand malapit sa isang hacienda.

"Nakakainis ka din minsan, bakit nga ba kita sinuyo?" Kunot noong ani niya sabay lapag ng barbeque sa harap ko.

"Malapit mo na akong patayin remember?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay kaya nagdadabog niyang kinuha ang tubig bago ako binigyan.

"Kain ng kain ng barbeque, parang hindi takot mamatay ah?"

I punch his hard chest because of that, I always drink a lot of water after eating barbeque kaya! KJ neto.

Minutes later, I get inside my room before having a shower and get dress. I wore a simple fitted jeans and a black crop top. I also wore a hat and a sunglasses. Ang init kasi sa labas.

"What are you wearing?" Kunot noong tanong niya habang pinapasadahan ng tingin ang suot ko.

I smiled at him and turn around. "Well... obviously, nakita mo na ang suot ko diba? Crop top saka jeans diba?" Pamimilosopa ko.

He pushed me inside my room again. "Get dress, yung hindi kita yung tiyan mo"

Inalis ko ang kamay niya sa braso ko at hinarap siya. "Maayos naman ah? Bakit ako magpapalit? Saka... ang init kaya, alangan namang mag sleeve ako?"

"Basta magbihis ka"

Inirapan ko lang siya bago kinuha ang bagahe ko at naglakad.

"Hey! Magpalit ka muna!"

"Ayoko nga!"

Pinigilan niya ako at saka inis na tinignan ako. "Bakit? Gusto mo bang akitin ang ex mo? Magpapa ganda ka ba para bumalik sayo ang gagong yun?"

My mouth agape and laughed emotionlessly. I thought iba siya, siguro nga naisip ko lang yun. Pare-pareho lang pala talaga sila ng mga bituka "Sa tingin mo gagawin ko yun? I'm not like that Sky, matino ako sa pagka matino"

Inis ko siyang nilagpasan bago ako naglakad papunta sa sasakyan na maghahatid sakin sa airport.

Sky followed me and sat beside me, I looked away and stared at the window. Hindi ko akalain na kaya  niya g sabihin sakin yun, even though he didn't mean to say that... it's still hurt to hear it from him.

We didn't even give glances on each other. I can see in my peripheral view that he's giving me some glances, hindi siya mapakali sa inuupuan niya pero hinayaan ko lang.

Nakatingin lang ako sa labas ng bintana at inaaliw ang sarili ko sa mga puno at bahay na dinadaanan namin. I don't want to talk to him, not now.

Nakarating kami sa airport ng walang kibuan. I even get my baggage all by myself, he helped me but I just ignore him and he my bags.

He look so guilty but I was hurt, nasaktan ako dahil parang ginawa niya naman ako g malandi nun... hindi naman kasi ako ganun.

Hindi ba ako pwedeng magsuot ng sexy na damit dahil baka landiin ko ang ex ko? Iba nga diyan naghuhubad na kaagad malandi lang ang ex at magbalikan na sila pero hindi naman sinabihan ng malandi. Nakakainis.

"Nicole"

Hindi ko pinansin si Sky at dumeretso lang sa paglalakad. I stopped walking when someone grab my hand and hugged me.

"Sorry.... I didn't mean to say that, I just... do t like seeing you wearing something like that"

Lumambot ang mukha ko pati na din ang puso ko sa malambing niyang boses, ano ba naman niyan. Marupok pala ako pagdating sa kaniya, bakit hindi ko alam yun?

Inalis niya ang pagyakap sa akin bago ako tinitigan. "Hindi ko lang gustong bumalik ka sa kaniya... I don't want you to fall for him harder. Hindi ko kakayanin na hindi ka makuha sa pagkakataong ito, hindi man kita nakuha noon... but I'll make you mine Nicole. Only mine"

Nagtataka ko siyang tignan kaya naman bumuntong hininga siya.

"I like you... no. I love you, and I want to court you. Payag ka man sa hindi.... liligawan kita. And as what I promise, I'll make you mine and only mine"