After a very long time I am updating this story. Hope you remember me and my stories. Extremely sorry for this delay. I was unwell and later get busy in work so didn't get time for updates. But now I am back. During this lock-down period, I decided to continue writing stories. Keep loving me and supporting me as a reader. I would love to read your response.

Will write destroyed-2 and that one mistake really soon. From tomorrow I will work on those stories. Stay tuned!

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Chapter 44: Remembering the past

''Sometimes we expect love to act as a medicine. And sometimes it has adverse effect and we can't realize it.''

Khushi's POV:

Neev each and every revelation stabbing my heart and pushing me into darkness of guilt. A shame coarse through me after knowing the truth.

''Arnav, always loved you but his anger turned out to be his biggest enemy that ruined your love life. The moment he realized his mistake, you lost your mental stability and transformed into a 5 years old kid- A kid who only murmurs one thing. 'I wanted to attend Arnavji wedding. I want to dance on my Arnavji's baraat..' how silly isn't it?.

I close my eyes as more tears roll down. I can't imagine his situation, how he must have felt seeing me in a mentally disabled state. It wasn't easy for him. He must have died that day. How I wish to turn back the pages of my past and do things differently. My Arnavji suffered as much as I did. He loves me so much but I left him? I still left him without giving him a chance to speak that night. He was trying to tell me the truth that night but I was so dumb didn't read the honesty and sincerity in those eyes. Oh god what I had done?

My Arnavji is just mine. He never had been in relation with another woman and I thought he got married and moved on, dumbing me.

Neev told me everything, each and every single detail of my past is now open in front of me. At first I thought he just played around woman for sex but no, he is worse than animal. He is a murderer. He even killed a weak, timid innocent and old woman too. Vasundra Ma was more like a mother to me. She supported me at the moment when no-one was with me. Every single person I loved, this bastard snatched them for his disgusting motives. I always blame Ananya and Arnav for my bitter past. Today I realized it wasn't them, I am responsible for it. Why did you had believed his every single lies and blame Arnav? Khushi, You sent Arnav to jail for Vasundra Ma death. During her last, she wanted to protect you from this evil man, she wanted to tell you the truth but you were so blinded with your hate and revenge you failed to differentiate between right or wrong.

I stood there numb absorbing his every and every single crime. At this stage, I have no idea how I am going to face Arnav and most importantly my daughter. Will they forgive me? Obviously not.

''Arnav took care of me during my pregnancy.'' Reality hit me really hard. Arnav love and my tantrum, his pamper and my childish acts. I try to remember but everything is blurry. Those images flash across my system but it is unclear. I am unable to remember properly. Why I can't remember anything. I want to know..I badly want to know what has happened during my mental illness.

I closed my eyes in grieverence remembering those phases of my life. Those days when I dream to spend all my life with my Arnavji, with our children. His love wasn't fake. He was with me day in and night, treated me because he had realized his mistakes and desperately needed another chance. Like me, he also dreamt to be with me all his life.. But I shattered his every single dream rejecting his love. He never sent me to mental asylum and I thought he..?

Stupid me! What I had done? Slowly I regain some blur images of the past.

~Flashback~ (5 years ago)

Arnav: Khushi come here and drink this milk.. (He ran after her trying to catch his 6th month pregnant childish khushi who has no idea what mess she had created in the entire house due to her naughtiness. Upon that her running like that making him skip a beat fearing for her and their baby growing inside her.

Arnav: Khushi stop I said.. (Raising his voice, he barked at her.)

Khushi: You bad bad..You always shout at me..Me no talk..katti (With that, she burst into cries jumping on the floor like a kid.

Arnav: Careful. Dammit.

Khushi: Why are you not allowing me to play..ahhhhh... you no allow me to move..you no allow me to make friends..I want to play outside..now..now..now..me no milk..me want to play.. (She is now crying sitting on the floor throwing her arms and legs in air. Upon seeing him coming near her, she turned her back making an angry face.) I no talk to you..you go..go..go..to that chudail..you only love you..you no lobe me..that's why you left me na..

Arnav: What are you saying. This is not true..(Khushi close her ears, not wanted to hear while he try to remove her hands. She shake her head in denial kicking him in between through her legs) I am sorry na..please don't cry..okay I will do whatever you say..please don't cry..okay you don't want to drink it..it's fine..please stop crying..I can't allow you to play..It is not good for your health.

Khushi: No..no..no...

He gasped not knowing how to make her understand. Locking her both legs, he lifted her off the ground and took her inside the bedroom. He console her by carefully taking her into his lap while she wet his shirt weeping continously.

Arnav: I never want to scold you but baby try to understand you can't run like this..it will affect our.. (He stop in midway observing her lost in her own world. He just smile admiring her cuteness and then lean down to kiss her swell)

Khushi: ''What the..why you kisshiing my tummy?'' Raising her head, she asked in confusion.

Arnav: Nothing..umm..it just I love your tummy..

Khushi: But it become so big na..why Arnavji..? Do i eat more than it is required? (He reply shaking his head) And see my legs, it is swells? (She lifted her frock making him see her bare hips. He shut his eyes immediately feeling awkward. ) See you also believe I am getting fatter day by day that's not looking me haina..ahhh..

She again burst into cries.

Arnav: No baby..It is not like that..umm..You are not fat baba..you are the most beautiful girl in the universe..I love you sooo much..

Khushi: Sachi..

Arnav: Yes..

She jump on him giving him hug while he carefully supported her belly not allowing her to do much pressure over it. After adjusting her dress, made her lay on the mattress and move down to kiss her swollen legs. She giggled and kick him.

Khushi: What arre you doing? It is tickling me.

Arnav: I am sorry. Is it paining a lot? She weakly nodded.

He come back with a balm and massage her legs. It gives her pleasure. She smiles soothingly. Seeing her, he too smiles.

Arnav: Better? (She nodded absent minded, too busy in playing and talking with her favorite toy.) Now stop talking and come here.. (He raised his arms for her and she happily shifted herself against his chest as this is the only place she felt being at home. )

''Never waste those precious diamond like tears for a man like me.'' She is too lost in her own world to reply him.

Arnav: You are my jaan..I can't imagine to loose you. (He kiss her eyes and suck those salty droplets that is still shining within her cheeks.) Promise me, you never leave me.

Khushi: Of fo Arnavji you are behaving as if you are my lobers..now don't look at me like that otherwise your wife will think I stole you from her..I want to dance in your marria...

He zip her mouth placing his finger on her lips.

Arnav: Shut up. I am not going to marry anyone. If Arnav Singh raizada marry anyone then it is only you. Keep that in your little head. And one more thing you are not stealing me from anyone. It was me who stole your happiness..your innocence..your love..

Khushi: Hehehe..how can you marry me..you are marrying that chudail..me bad girl na..me bad character..(His heart broke hearing what she just said) see me so fat..so ugly and... (He didn't let her complete and quickly took her into his close embrace hugging her tight.

Arnav: I am sorry, Khushi..I am really sorry.. (His eyes welled up.) ''Maine jo tumhare saath kiya uske baad main tumhari nafrat bhi deserve nahi karta..lekin ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena..'' (Whatever I did to you after that I don't even deserve your hatred. If you can try to forgive me)

Khushi: Cholo mujhe..and let me play..

~Flashback ends~

Third person POV-

Coming back to present, Khushi opens her eyes and look back at Neev with deadly glare.

Neev: Aise kya dekh rahi ho jaise mujhe kha jaogi.. (What are you looking me at as if eat me alive) He chuckled seeing her deadly expression.

Khushi: Sirf tumhare vajese maine apne life ke sabse khubsurat moments miss kar diye..mujhe sab kuch yaad aa gaya..Mere Arnavji ne mujhe pagal nahi banaya..usne mera itna khayal rakha..mere pagalpan ko jhela, mujhe itna pyaar diya jitna shyad puri duniya mein bhi na ho aur tumne mauka milne pe badi asani se mujhe mere arnav aur mere bachhe se dur kar diya.. Tumhare jaise haivan ko jeene ka koi haq nahi hain.. (Only because of you i miss all those beautiful moments of my life..I remember everything..my Arnavji were not responsible for my mental illness..he took care of me..bare my madness, shower so much love which noone ever have but you took me away from my family..monster like you don't deserve to live in this world)

She remove her gun from her bag and pointed toward him..

Neev: Meera no..you can't kill me..I told you everything and you promise me you will leave me after I confess it all to you..

Khushi: Promises are meant to be broken.. She replied with dangerous kind of rage visible on her face before triggering him.

Neev: Someone help me..help..please helppppp!!!!!!!

Like a scared kitten, he started to ran away to escape from this mad woman. Her every move to him made him close to death. She shot the bullet and it directly hit his right leg. He tripped and fell down screaming out loud. Blood is oozing out, causing him to shout in pain.

Meera: Come on..get up and run if you can..get up Neev and save your life..I give you one last chance if you stand up on your own feet I will think about leaving you..

Neev: Sach.. (He smiles hopelessly.)

Khushi: Ofcourse darling. You did so much for me all those years. At least I should reward you this.. (She said with a straight face passing a cunning smile.

Neev: Ahh..but..I can't even move..it is hurting me the most..

Khushi: Oh you are bleeding. Let me help you to stand. (She walk to him and he gave his hand to her.)

Using her high heels, she stamp her foot over his wounded part. He whimper incohrently Feeling better or you want one more? She twisted her foot one more time. Pain is getting worse than imagined. He felt as if someone cut his legs with a sharp knife.

Neev: Are you nuts? What are you doing you bloody bitch.. (She slam a hard slap over his face hearing his words and this time kicked him on his manhood so harshly it bleed him to death.) What..you..have..done.. (He cried horribly.)

Khushi: I did what you deserve Mr Khurana. This is just a trailer. More to come. Opps sorry to realize you are not a man anymore. From now, you won't ever dare to use any other woman to fulfill your lust. (He eyed her painfully.)

By now he realized it is almost impossible to get spared from his mental woman. His death is bound to happen. He gulped hard. Every pore of his body is now paining like hell. She damaged him the worst.

Neev: You hate me right then Kill me..kill me and take your revenge..I deserve the death punishment..Please shot me..Khushi..

Khushi: Not so easily..tumhe itni asani se maarne nai dungi..tumhara vo haal karungi ki tum roz maut ki bheek mangoge mujhse..( I won't let you die so easily..I make your life worst than hell..I torture you every single second in such a way you will beg me for your death) Take his bastard away from my sight and make sure his death news should be spread in every newspaper but remember don't let him die..I want him alive..Understood''

Bodyguard: Yes mam..

Two bodyguards of hers started to drag his limpless body. Neev struggled in their clutches, shouting at her, which make her to stop on her way. She turn around and stood there with folded hands.

Neev: Once police will know they will send you to jail and your dream to be with your Arnav and your daughter will remain a dream only. You will be finished Miss Meera Shergil..Get ready to spend the rest of your life in jail.

Khushi: Oh really? (She signal them to stop and then she walk toward them in slow yet determined steps.) Read this.. (She show one article in a document.) Oh I forgot your body parts are not working anymore. Let me help my dearest friend. So this article is going to publish in every news channel tomorrow. ''It states that A famous business woman, Meera shergil who was going to marry her close friend, Neev Khurana, he attempt her murder for her property."

Neev: Wh..att..rubbish..

Khushi: There is more..

She continued reading further. ''According to some sources and the evidences collected from the accident spot it is evident she did all in self defense." And you know what statement I will give to media and police when they will come to meet me after my fake accident. I would love to tell them that you tried to kill me, try to rape me for my property and later ranaway when get unsucessful. While running off in your car, you met with an accident. As a result your car exploded and you died in an accident. Your dead body got so badly burn on-one able to recognize you. No-one ever will come to know where you are and what has happened to you. Isn't it a nice plan. After this moment, Neev Khurana will become history. Remember this is how you vanished Khushi gupta 5 years ago. For everyone she is dead but you gave new name..new personality to her. But there is one twist in the tale. You gave new identity to me and pretended to save my life for your selfish motives. But I will not do that. I will keep you alive only to torture you more.''

Neev: No Meera..you can't do this to me..Please forgive me I will do whatever you say please leave me..I am ready to spent all my life in jail..

Khushi: That would be very easy punishment for all your crimes. You will stay in my jail..Welcome to your new hell Mr Neev Khurana!

Neev: Meera..you..

Khushi: Not Meera..I am Khushi Gupta..A simple girl whose innocence and honesty was being killed by you. You killed Khushi Gupta and made me an evil and heartless Meera shergil. But from today onwards Meera Shergil is dead and Khushi gupta has taken rebirth to give a new name to Khushi and Arnav incomplete love story.

''Meera No..Meera..please save me..someone please help..''

She signal her men and they started to drag him like a street dog toward his destination

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''I am coming Arnav..your Khushi is coming back to you and this time forever..please wait for me..''

Inhaling the fresh air of London, Khushi is smiling like a free bird getting her real identity back. Everything seems so beautiful. She is feeling very light and happy. She actually forgot to smile but Arnav made her smile again. Buying plenty of red roses from a street for Arnav, she cross the road. Excitement, eagerness, joyful, nervousness all the mixed emotions drawing her toward the edge of insanity. Like a desperate teenager, she took the taxi and jump inside asking him to drive faster. She is dying to meet Arnav. She wanted to reach him as early as possible totally oblivious what is going to happen in future.

Without any delay, she reached Arnav's apartment and went inside in the search of him. Calling out his name, she looked out for him. Holding a bouquet of red roses, she stood outside his bedroom.

''Arnav..'' Hesitantly, she reached inside and saw him in the room sitting on the chair facing her back. She call his name two three times but when he didn't move, she walked near him, not knowing how to start conversation. Taking heavy breathe, she speak up with shivered voice.

Khushi: You might be thinking what I am doing here..actually umm..Arnav..I know I made many mistakes in my life and the worst thing happen when I left you 5 years back leaving behind our little daughter and then disgrace your love not once but many times thinking you and Ananya Di..Arnav I am sorry..I started living with you pretending to be a good wife just to destroy you because I wanted to give you pain because I thought you.. (Her words left incomplete when she felt a sudden push from other end)

Khushi look on shocked seeing her baby daughter in place of Arnav. She have no idea how much she had heard and what she assumed. But seeing her wet face, she felt a pang of pain within her heart. Little Khushi breathing harshly and her tears are flowing unstoppable. She is unable to speak as more tears are shedding from her cheeks. Her little heart broken into million pieces hearing all that from her mother. Her hurt transformed into hate thinking her to be reason her papa committed suicide.

To be continued!

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