Chapter 25: Most awaited confession

Sweating, she almost lost herself in those haunted dreams. Her hands tightly gripped the bedsheets as Anjali's screaming voice for help devastating her. She squint her eyes tightly with her hand shaking. Her head is moving left and right and lips trying to spoke all the heart out for her. But she failed miserably. Suddenly a warm touch made her senses conscious. She can clearly recognize it. It made her body cold.

She woke up panting. And then look around baffled and the next thing she find him beside her. His hand fist her.

''Khushi kya hua tum theek ho(What happen, Khushi?)..do u need anything?'' She look at him for few seconds trying to register where she was in. Fear is clearly visible on her face, soon enough it changes into anguish and pain. She took away her hand and inch back. She saw him staring her with softness.

''Thank god you are awake.. i got so scared, i thought you..'' He hugged her happily seeing her alright. It's been almost 3 days he was trying to make her conscious but due to shock she went to the trauma. He wanted to apologize her for that night. Those eyes of her only making him remember about his awful crime..

She rose up on her feet and walked. Her eyes pop out finding herself in a place she never imagined. She look at him questioning.

''We are in Nainital..Its your favorite place isn't it? She continue to stare him plainly while he walk to her and says.

''Di once told me it's your dream to be in the hill station for your honeymoon..with your husband.. You love playing with ice and..--

After few second he realized what does he just said. She made a sad chuckle.

Honeymoon? A mistress is not allowed to see any dream.. to wish anything.. she wondered sarcastically laughing at herself.

He try to talk in order to bring any response but all he get only her silence and her gazing him.

''Do you need something..?'' When she didn't reply still, he loose his patience and walked to her grabbing her shoulder.

''Khushi please talk to me..shout at me, scold me, fight with me, beat me but please say something..i can't bear your silence'' She stay numb.

Without her realization those eyes only her weakness. He feel very sorry for his behaviour but putting all his into words too hard for him to emote.

Reminding herself what she actually to him and why he brought her here made her heart bleed again. Without breaking eye contact, she finally utter..

Haan i need something Arnavji..will you give me..?

Haan bolo khushi..

POISON..kill me Arnavji..You will feel better..

KHUSHI.. (He shouted on her face grabbing her forearm..)

How dare you say that..

Why you are getting angry..this is what you always wanted..You kidnap Payal to have me, You call off my marriage with Rishab only to torture me, to give me a brutal punishment for your sister's death.. you wanted to punish me for killing your unborn, you pushed me from the bridge, you rape me..you sucedded..now i want to die..That's why you brought me here.to rape me more.. He stop her voice placing his finger.

STOP IT JUST STOP IT..He embrace her tightly. Don't talk about that night..I was not in my senses..It just happened i don't know..

She smirked.. It so easy to say for you, it just happened..Do you have any idea how a women felt when her body been brutally tortured..No Arnavji you never understand the pain of loosing modesty..Its better you kill me now and finsh it all here..

He stop her saying anything..

''Don't talk about death..I can't tolarate anything happen to you..You are all i have..You are my only family..''

Family? A prostitute never be loyal to one man..She only kept to pleasure..to fulfill a man's desire...I am your desire then fulfill it and kill me because i can't handle it anymore..I am fed up with all these..free me from this world..

He cupped her face with tears rolling his eyes.

''That was my biggest mistake...I thought your tears become my victory..it will give me peace but i was so wrong..Those 3 days without you made me realize what you meant for me..''

There is a plain silence for a moment and then he says looking deep in those innocent eyes who made him fall in love with her all over again..

I CAN'T LOOSE YOU KHUSHI...YOU ARE MY LIFE..YOU ARE MY WORLD..MY LOVE..

Fresh tears rolled from her face.

You already loose me Arnavji..''

She shoved herself from his hold and got up from bed and ran to the bathroom.

Khushi..!!!!!!!!!!! He rushed behind and knock the door.

''Please talk to me Khushi, I want to tell you that I lo..

Bas Arnavji..iske age kuch mat kehna varna hum bardasht nahi kar payenge.. (Don't say anything furthur else i cannot handle it..)

Khushi.. i..

''PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE..''

She screamed and fell down on the ground and cried her heart out..

Apne bahat der kardi Arnavji.. (Its too late now..I can't..) She burst into crying hugging herself closer to heart..the heart that still beats for him despite being murdered by him.

Next few hours passed quickly. Khushi cried all the day and night. Never she thought in her wildest dream, a man whom she thought to be her prince charming became a beast.. she should have known a mistress have no right to see such dreams which only meant to be broken.

His words keep ringing to her ears. He wanted to give their relationship a second chance but everytime she close her ears his brutality came before her eyes.

''Why Arnav..Why you forced me...I haven't kill your di..Why you are punished me for the crime i am not responsible..You claim to love me you can't trust me..why you are not ready to hear me just once, why can't you trust your khushi..We loved each other all our life and your forcing me made me remember that night..you finished everything between us..your crime made me remember those monsters..those monsters..(She close her ears in terror) She shivered again.

''They raped your Di in front of my eyes, why i didn't saved her..Why?? Anjali please forgive me..I am your murderer..Arnav is right..I killed you..I killed you..

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After a long day he returned back home. As he entered the premise, he got darkness all around his apartment. He went and switch on the light.

His eyes only searching her. After a while he got her. She is sitting in the floor looking outside the window.

His eyes then went to the plate which is still untouched.

He took the plate and reached her.

''Khushi!'' He called her name softly.

''Why you haven't eat anything..''

''I am not hungry..'' She reply after wiping her face.

''Really? As far as i know my khushi never stay hungry specially when her favorite jalebis are been made..umm...its so yummy..'' He try to lighten her mood bringing plate near her nose. It made her crave for her.

Its good you not wanted..I will finish it all off alone.. He eat it making a pleasurable sound.

She show a sharp glare and then look away.

''Mera gussa khane pe mat nikalo..meri jaan..'' (why showing your anger on food)

Shock would be understatement by what he just did. Did she heard something wrong? She keep staring him with wide eyes.

What are you staring me at? She rolled her eyes and turned to go..

He kissed her cheeks from behind bringing her figure close to him..

''Be with me..''

''Sir yeh aap..aap yeh..''

Arnav..Your Arnav..

She continue to look at him with shock and bewilderment.. She can't believe it was same Arnav singh raizada who claim to hate her. His words definitely made her nervous.

He touch her cheeks lovingly and look into her eyes deeply.

I am sorry, khushi..Sorry for every single pain you went through..I am a pervert..always hurt you but you..

''I don't want to talk about it Arnavji..'' She walked but he held her hand.

i know i had hurt you numerous times..won't you give me one chance to rectify my sins.. She turned and look at him with surprise.

I want to move on, Khushi..whatever happened i can't changed it but i will try to make your present beautiful..Di was right you are the angel in my life and i can't loose my angel..I know i took lot of time but now i realized what you meant for me.. (He walked to her and held her hand tenderly.)

you made my heart beat..I had promised myself to never fall in love again but your love won over my hatred..i tried so hard to hate.. but everytime i saw you in pain it made my heart bleed tenth times..it killed me..

His words brought tears in her eyes.

''Arnavji..'' (She weep..)

''Please don't stop me khushi..Let me pour my heart..it took me lot of courage to express my feelings..And now i know what i want..I want you in my life..I can't hate you because I.. [he paused only to drowned in her]

Their eyes interlocked for a minute while and then he speak those three magical words.

I LOVE YOU, KHUSHI..

The heaviness in his voice made her heart skipped its beat. It was totally unexpected.

She don't know how to feel..whether to be happy or be sad..all the time she was only waiting for this moment and when he finally accepting his feelings, she felt her heart explode.

She shook her head in disbelief. Before he say something more, she ran away from there and locked herself in the room.

On getting inside, she felt her heart thumping against her chest. Those words made her feel alive again.

''Hey devimaiya..yeh sab kya ho raha hain..kahi hum sapna toh nahi dekh rahe.. Kya Arnavji sach mein humse. (What is happening..is it a dream? do he really love--) She pinched herself and then realization drawn upon her big time.

She smiled to herself. She look at herself in the mirror..the same feelings started to knock her..she felt breathless..she touch her cheeks and felt her cheek turning pink.. But sooner her smile faded.

Arnav paced outside her room to and fro waiting for her reply desperately. Hurriedly he turn his head on hearing her footsteps. She open the door and walk to him..

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In the Anath Ashram:

Aman is silently staring at the ear ring in his palm pondering over it. Something strange is happening, his can feels her. His heart can recognize her. From the time he met that mask girl, his heart is not at peace. He badly wanted to know who was she? What was her motive?

However, he checked the cctv footage but hadn't got any clue. Little did he know Anjali had again came to visit this place after that night and successful deleted her part before he grab it.

A sudden footsteps brought him back from his chain of thoughts.. It was his men whom he send to found about her..

''Did you found out?''

''No Sir! I enquire to the staff, check everywhere but no one had seen the of that women..''

''Don't give me any explanation..i want result..Go and find out where she had come..I am damn sure she had something to do with Ranjit...keep a check on him..'' They nodded and went off..

Although her face not visible but her holding weapon can clearly visible in the footage..she had pointed gun for ranjit? Did she wanted to harm Ranjit? But why? Who was she? Several questions running to his mind which he need to be answered quickly.

He thought to talk regarding this matter to Arnav but as usual he is busy in entertaining his mistress..

He can't understand why he is giving so much priority to that characterless chick..And now took her to Nainital as if nothing had happened..Damn you Asr..You are so complicated, man..

He remove his cell and see her picture..

''Anjali, i never let anyone to harm to those whom you had loved...I will safeguard Ranjit and who ever trying to harm him will have to face me before putting a scratch on him..That's my promise to you..''

~~~

Instead of replying him, she took the plate from his hand and started munching her favorite jalebis..

Khu--.. He expected her to answer him but all he get her ignorance. He went to her but suddenly she switch on the tv and moved in front of Tv ignoring his queries..

''I am talking to you..will you answer me...'' She increases the volume of the TV and continue to ignore..

''I am talking to you dammit..ANSWER ME..'' He throw the remote from her hand and grab her shoulder..

What? You feel very angry na when i didn't hear you then same rule apply to you..You never gave me chance to prove my innocence..always blame me then how could you expect me to behave same..give me the remote..

''No you will first answer me..''

What do you want Arnavji..how could you expect me to forgive you after what you have done.. no women forget it EVER..you not only ripped my body but shredded my heart into million pieces..You had made me went through worse..You damn confession not going to change anything..YOU ARE A MONSTER.. She pushed him angrily and went away from his sight..

Another day rolled. Everything is same as before..She stood outside and breath the fresh air of Nainital. Cold ice touch her skin making her remember her past moments with Arnav. That were the best memories of her life when they were so close to each other. She open her eyes and wipe her tears..

''Stop it Khushi.. you are only his mistress not his lover..stop thinking about him..he is not made for you..You are only his slave..'' Sulkily, she walk to the apartment and get inside. She change her dress and sat in the chair lost in the deep thoughts.

She heard the door bell rang but ignore it. Maid open the door and he get inside. She move to other side by sensing him near.

''I haven't had any intention to torment you by showing my face to you again and again, I just came here to meet you one last time..With astonishment she look up.

I am leaving, Khushi..'' She went shocked.

''You were right..i don't deserve your forgiveness..You only love one man in your life that is rishab..'' She clutched her dupatta and close her eyes.

I hate him, Arnav..! She wanted to speak this truth but words stuck in her throat.

While he continued.

''I shouldn't come between you and him..I am such a fool to think you too love me..Now I am freeing you from this deal..He will be here tomorrow to take you back to his place..Then you can marry him and live happily with your prince charming..

His words hurting her but remain still..

She still had her back facing him, crying silently. She wanted to tell him the truth what he was thinking wasn't true..She never loved Rishab, it is only him, Yes she had love him all her life, only him and still love him forever. Every pore of her body scream to tell him that...but scared..will he believe her? She needed to tell him entire reality of his ex girlfriend..

Time had come.. She had finally decided to tell him everything.

Hence, She turned but to her surprise he already disappear..She gave a dry laugh..

''Once again you left without giving me a chance to explain.. what i felt for you.. we never become one..this is my fate..''

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Entire day she keep thinking about him. Thousand of fearful thought coming to her mind from the time she saw in the news that few people die due to snowstorm. She is highly agitated and restless. Upon that most of the areas are closed. Her mind is clouded with worry for him. Entire night she keep thinking the possible way to reach him. She made many calls but all the lines are dead. As the time descended, Her worry increasing.

A sudden break of the door grab her attention. Immediately she ran to open the door. She was literally shivering by the sight in front of her. A man was holding Arnav on his shoulder while blood was oozing from his head. It was Arnav's driver, she instantly recognize him.

She urgently move forward and hold him.

''What happened to him..?''

''Mam i found him on the road, probably due to snow he met with an accident..''

''What?'' She put his head on her lap and touch his wound feeling his pain.

''Don't cry mam he is fine now..''

''Thank you thank you so much...you don't know what you have done for me..thank you for saving my Ar--'' She stopped in the midway and shake him.

Driver helped Khushi to lead him toward the room and then he left.

''Arnavji..'' She place his head on her lap and patted him in order to gain any response.

''Please open your eyes..'' She rub his hand. His body were freezing cold.

On top of that his body temperature keep on rising. It made her hell worried.

She got up and close all the doors and window then cover him with blanket but nothing helping him much to keep him warm.. She didn't know what she should do..due to bad signal she cannot able to contact anyone neither she know anyone out here who could help her, all she knew she will do anything to get him back in her life..

Apko kuch nahi hoga Arnavji.. hum apna pyaar dubara nahi kho sakhte.. (I can't let anything happen to you..I can't loose my Love again)

She lean on top of him and hugged him as tightly. Their breathe become one AGAIN...

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