Chapter 44: A tormented mother

''So let's begin yet another game, Miss gupta..'' With a huge grin of victory on his face, he lean to her face claiming her as MINE when..

''D..o..n..t yo..u..touch me..ar..na..v..''

Her eyes shot open as she gasped pushing him off her body. His awful presence near her tore her body in shock. Her eyes started well by realizing what he is about to do. Her breathe get erratic and the deep scar get freshen again. There is only pain, betrayal and hatred left in her heart. On the other side, Arnav smiled and get up from his place seeing her well. What did i see? My khushi is responding..? Then he pinch himself and jerk back to reality by realizing it is not any dream..yes she is responding and on top of that, she took my name.

Arnav felt out of the world and wanted to scream and announce to everyone that his khushi come back...yes she come back to him..A lady who made him a human from a monster, who love him unconditionally sacrificing all her happiness, gave him reason to survive, gave him a princess like daughter..she is back. With all the joy of happiness, he look into her eyes, but his happiness faded by a small glimpse of her. There is only disgust and hatred in her eyes. He step back instantly.

She clutch the sheet tight just by staring him with her lips trembling and struggling to speak. Her chest getting heavy holding the burden of pain and humiliation inside her. Everything flashed in front of her eyes like a film.

A.S..R. This one word, she never forget. He is the same man who changes her world upside down leaving her with nothing other than pain and disgrace.

His eyes filled up with unshed tears seeing her reaction. It's like been ages he hear her melodious voice and those eyes- There is so much pain in them which made him swallow hard. Why she is staring me like this? Does she..?

''Khus..shi...'' Sighed, I call her but the expression on her face really made me dumbfounded. It is cold as ice. I call her name again to gain some response but she still gazing me like a dead soul, without avert her gaze from me. Then i advance to her by which she shift backward. There is a terror in them. Her response indeed scare me.

''Tum theek ho na, khushi?''

Then a sarcastic smile plastered her lips.

''I..'' She keep struggling much to speak with her chest moving up and down.

''Haan..bolo Khushi..i am right here.. Nothing is worry about..'' For a second, he forgot everything about his deeds, even that she become normal. All he knows that she is having difficulty to breathe. Then what he heard next still him.

''According to you, hame thik bilkul nahi hona chahiye haina..isliye ap hamare saath dubara vahi karna chhte hain jo apne us raat-..'' (For you, i shouldn't be well, isn't it? That's why you were trying to do the same you did that night..)''Yo..u..You wan..ted..to rap..e me..You wanted to kill me..'' Her eyes getting wet every second and her lips quiver.

Khushi..!

''Don't make me impure again by calling my name like this..You succeeded in breaking me..And now I can't endure...''

His eyes widen in shock when realization hit him. She get normal? He don't know how to react, whether to be happy to conquer she become normal or sad seeing so much hatred and agony for me.

Seeing him is like a torture to her. She is feeling suffocating under his gaze and inch backward, covering herself from his lusty eyes.

''Hama..re..pas mat ana..'' Arnav who was going to her, halted immediately. Guilt consume as he still have that connection to read her expressive gazes. He close his fist in his tight fist piercing nail to his skin.

''Khushi main tumse..'' He gulped before opening mouth when she throw a sharp weapon to attack him. This is a sudden blow to him. He jerk back by her sudden action.

''You wanted to kill me..kill me...force me..'' (She try to cover herself to protect herself) But then a sudden anger filled up her veins. She get completely out of order and began screaming.

H..e..l..p..m..e..h..e..l..p..m..e..

No. Khushi jerked his hand away as he try to touch her, in order to console her but she become more miserable as his every words putting salts to her wounds.

YOU BLOODY MONSTER..I HATE YOU.. I HATE YOU..DON'T TOUCH ME..I AM NOT YOUR MISTRESS..I WILL NOT SLEEP WITH THEM..I WON'T SPEND MY NIGHTS TO THAT..BR..OTHEL.. Her words make him realize again how deeply he wounded her but he calm himself and help her to lay straight by putting pillow behind her but his closeness worsen her condition more.

With her sharp nails, she grab him and then attack him with a surgical instrument kept in a desk. It hit his head bringing him knock down to floor. But she did not stop there. She grab his collar, pull him up and place her hand around his chest choking him through her both hands and tears filled her eyes.

WHY YOU PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS..WHY YOU BETRAY ME..

Sooner Ananya and Anjali come inside along with doctors and nurses hearing all the outburst happening. Both rooted in shock by the scene. Ananya sobbed knowing all the brutal incidents happened to her while Anjali glare him angrily. She really wish to give the same punishment which she gave to those rapist.

Doctor try to control her and grab her one hand to inject the tranquilizer drug. But nothing work to her. She is just screaming and threatening him through her eyes, she not going to spare him. He close his eyes in pain.

Nurses grab her both hands to tie them. The sight in front of him become unbearable.

''Leave my khushi..'' He shouted moving forward, commanding them to stop.

''But Mr raizada..It's not good to keep her free..she may attack anyone..'' Doctor stated.

''NO ONE WILL TOUCH HER..NO-ONE..'' Her innocent mind hint her she will again be punished by him. He will again send her to that hell, to those animals.

''But Mr raizada..you are not understanding..she..''

''That's enough. I said leave her..'' He order everyone to get out. Now only Khushi and Arnav present in her ward. Once they left, he sigh taking small steps to her. His every step shiver her to death. Tears flow from her eyes uncontrollably.

There is no one who can save me..he will again punish me..disowned me..sold me.. She imagined herself being beaten and used by him. This one thought again pushing her to the same shell she returned.

Unaware about the storm inside her, he gently untie her hands and take a seat beside her and say some soothing words to her. All the time she is just staring him with unreadable expression. He is not sure what will be her next moves. All he knows he wanted to calm her, cure her. More than him, her daughter needs a mother. She need to know she become a mother, they have a daughter. Above all, he is ashamed of his deeds and wanted to tell her everything she had missed these months.

''Khushi..main tumse iss duniya mein sabse jyada pyaar-..'' (I love you more than my..) Before he complete, she start to laugh maniacally. This time she never get fool trusting his words.

Hamare zindagi ke sabse khubsurat din ko ghinauna din banake chain nahi mila apko..(Aren't you satisfied turning out the most memorable day to the most disgusting and aweful day that you..) again start your game..

He try to speak further, but the words choke. Her grip loosen on sheets and she inch back holding pillow closer to her heart. He don't know how to react, they were living together from past several months but she never behaved like that.

For the first time she attacked him. At first he thought, he get back his old Khushi, a mother love for a daughter made her back to normal. But all her assumption prove wrong by her mood swings. The sudden changes in her make him more worried. There is a glint of madness in her eyes. Then she started laughing more madly and snatch her hairs puzzled. He get shocked.

''Ap humse pyaar nahi karte..nahi karte..nahi karte..woh toh ap..usse..usse..karte hain..haina..haina..haina..boliye na.. (You don't love you..no love..no love..you love her..right na..right na..) She repeated her words like a mentally ill person.

''Khushi calm down..okay i will not come close to you..'' His eyes filled up with tears seeing her distraught state.

''Hehehe..jhoote..ap hamare izzat lutne aye the na..'' (You came to assault me haina?)

Her words do hurt him. Her words and actions made him more guilty. He wanted to kill himself. All the trauma and attacks she is going through, just because of him. Till yesterday, she was like a small innocent child who love her Arnavji like anything but this side of her is more dangerous. He wanted to calm her, to tell her he is extremely sorry for his deeds, but before he do something, she hit herself.

''No!!!!!!!!!!! Stop it..Please..''

'Dur rahiye hamse..varna hum maar dalenge khudko..'' (Stay away otherwise i kill myself) Pushing him away with a force, she get up searching for something to kill herself. Her eyes glinted getting scissor.. She grab it and put it toward her stomach.

''No don't...please no..give it back to me..''

''So that you can rape me again..no..no..no..i won't let this happen..'' Her words prick him, it trigger to a place where it hurts the most. But he control his emotions, at present her health and safety is more important.

He will not do or say anything that affect her mental state more. As per doctor, she needed to be handle with care. Somehow he remove scissor from her hand and throw out all the intrument from the window before she hurt herself.

STAY AWAY FROM ME..I SAID STAY AWAY.. Her scream deepen as she vent out her frustration and misery by slapping herself.

She clutch her head to steady herself. She felt everything swim in front of her eyes. Seeing her state, he get afraid, he wanted to go and hold her but scared to go near her, what if she again hurt herself, he call out doctor inside, he injected her strong medicine and soon drug started its effect. As people crowded inside, he step back before casting last glance to a lady with painful tears roll down.

''Yeh maine kya kar diya..'' (What i had done?) Every pore of his body is now screaming in pain. Her mental state deteriorating by every fraction. It made him more vulnerable he is the reason of her this state.

'Arnav..'' Ananya call out but he did not stop and left.

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Arnav sitting in a corner from past few hours. His eyes and heart bruise badly. He bang his hand by which he dare to slap her that night.

''Hamar..e pas mat..ana..'' Her words and actions played to his mind and he closed his eyes absorbing her words. He left her with nothing. She is broken beyond endurance.

''I don't deserve her..'' His eyes pricked with tears. Absent minded, he step ahead and it lead him to the room where he felt the presence of Khushi. The melodious grin of a baby-doll shake him back to reality. Till today he is just living like a dead, his soul died the day he lost his precious doll, His khushi. Seems Destiny again gave him a chance bringing her reflection to this life- a small part of Khushi. Gulping his tears, he walk to met his daughter laying in a crib. No..her daughter.. He corrected because he don't deserve to call a father. He lost the right the day itself when he accuse her a characterless who sleep with Aman.

''I meet your mummy..'' He said gulping down the pain and smile looking at her eyes that is shining, just like her mother.

''Can i call you, khushi..?'' He ask her permission by which she grin.

''Thank you..'' He smile a little and about to turn when she holding his finger with her tiny hands. It made him remember her mother. How everytime he try to go and Khushi used to hold his hand and tell him not to go.

''Your mother is not well..'' Her face fell and she tilted her head sideways.

''I know you are upset with me..I am sorry beta.. (He wish he able to say these three words to khushi but sadly he couldn't.) Hearing the word 'beta' made mini khushi to look at him angrily. It sound like her father mocking her.

''You know she needs someone who can console her, embrace her and i am one of those unlucky person who cannot go and wipe out her sorrow..But you, i wish you grow up soon and take care of her..''

'Mr raizada..'' Came a voice. Gulping his tears, he turn to view the person before standing up to his feet.

''What happened?'' He ask nurse who just arrived in the room.

'Patient has come back to senses and calling you..please hurry up..'' Nurse stated urgently.

'What?'' Came out as a shock for him.. Khushi is calling me? How can she call me? She should not see me..It will worse her condition.

''Please..come with me..Doctor ask me to take you to patient..she...''

''What happen?'' He almost shouted.

'Please come quickly..'' He turn back but not before giving one assuring smile to babydoll who is crisping and swinging her arms to be with her mother.

'Don't worry Sooner i will take you to your mother..till then bua is there for you..'' With that, he rushed off before giving last glance to Anjali who is standing and observing them for a while.

Back to her room:

'Arnavji.. arnavji dekiye na..yeh hame phirse buri jage le aye..'' (He again take me to this bad place) He look at her trying to register and by next second, she came running to his arms and jump to him. Her advances made him speechless.

''I become so scared..Ananya didi also telling me where were you..You know na i can't live without you..Boliye na..kuch.. She demanded after breaking off and gave a kiss to his cheeks. He just stood there, staring her keenly trying to understand her moves.

''Haww how you get hurt..?'' She blow his wounds, all the while kissing his face. He look on shocked by her behaviour and then turn back to view doctor who is standing with tensed expression.

To be continued!

Precap: Khushi get shock treatment.

What will happen next? Will khushi get normal or remain unstable. How Arnav will react after that. Who will keep arshi daughter. Arnav or Khushi?

Or she still remain unstable and Arnav need to handle two babies at the same time.

To know.. wait for next chapter. And please do vote and comment.