Chapter 40: A newly found hope

Arnav, with his painful state and closed eyes, remember her. Her quiver voice, her fearful reflexes, is something he cannot forget. Regardless everything, peace is far from his heart. He wish he could rewind his past and do things differently. A man who always claimed to change the destiny, now standing at the place where he can't undo his past. He failed to protect her from getting ruined. She is broken. Her heart shredded into million pieces and he don't know how to repair the damage that worsen her. He throw her out of her life without any secind thought. She shouted, screamed numerous times to prove her innocence, why i never believed her? My betrayal shattered her and now she is standing at a place where is no hope to come back. Why you gave me so cruel punishment? Why you don't give me any chance to rectify my sins? Why always you getting punishment? Why i break her heart ruthlessly?

A sudden shear voice jerk him out of him.

HOW DARE YOU ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA!!!!!!!

He lifted his head and glace at the lady tearfully who is a biggest part of his life but now?

Anjali barged into his cabin ignoring all the security who followed her behind. Arnav signal them to get out and get up to meet her. She voluntarily bang his table before moving forward to grip his collar. His red furious eyes darken seeing hatred in her eyes. His Di's eyes gave him quick resemblance of a pain he saw in Khushi's eyes last night.

It enraged him like anything.

Anjali: Hw could you do this to Khushi. Where you have keep her. Answer me?? [Paused] I am talking to you..can you hear me?( She raised her voice to get some reaction.)

He glare her with bitterness and move forward standing exactly in front of her..

Arnav: What brought you here? He said with pain and anger, avoiding meeting her eyes.

Anjali: Is this a way to talk?

Arnav: As far as i remember you broke all relations with your brother. So don't expect anything from me. What do you want now? (His tone was cold yet soft.)

She is shooting dagger at her. Her one look is enough to burn him but he did not let it reflect on his face how much her hatred affecting him.

''Answer me!'' got only silence in reply.

She can't believe he is her brother whom she worship. After everything he have no shame and now being so mean to her. At the same time his drastic condition disturb her. His red puffy eyes, dark circles around eyes made her aware he did not sleep for several night, neither eat anything.

Arnav: What do you want, Di..Please go before I loose my temper. (His stern voice prevent her heart from getting soften.

Anjali: Don't act smart. I know you had kidnap Khushi. Where is she? (His face harden hearing 'Arnav' instead of 'chotte' from her.) You can fool entire world not your Di.

What do you said? Say again? His voice become heavy. There is a absolute silence for a moment. Seeing so much pain and remorse into his eyes, for a moment she forget her retaliation, she wanted to hold him tight, to tell him all will be alright.

Arnav: (He move and held her hand softly) Just say once..Once call me chotte.. I am very alone Di..Why it happen I had always lost the person i loved..First you and now khushi.. (Her heart lurched in pain and suddenly alarm bell and she opened it pushing his hand off her.)

Anjali: Because this is your KARMA.

Don't touch me. I have no relation with a criminal like you. (he smile suppressing his emotions) Those who don't respect women, use them like useless items, have no place in my life..Do you got that.

She tilted her head slightly and wipe off those unwanted tears before turn back to face him. She hate herself shedding her tears for the most insensitive person like him.

Anjali: Where is Khushi..? What you have done to her..

Arnav: I love her Di..I never imagine to hurt you..NOT AGAIN..

Anjali: So my guess was right..You have eloped her..? (He look straight at her) Whenever i thought you have some humanity and won't go low, you do something to prove me wrong. Thank you so much breaking the last knot of our bond. You can never change. I just wish Khushi will come out from her mental instability and throw you out from her life, just like you did. She will give you most brutal punishment you ever had, just remember that.

Arnav: What do you thought it is easy to get her away from me. No Di..She is mine..my first and last reason of survival..Until i am alive no one can separate her from me. (She laughed sarcastically by his dilusion)

Anjali: Stop day dreaming Arnav and come back from reality. As if Khushi is desperately waiting for you to be yours..you broke her trust and No descent women will breathe fresh air where you are living. The moment she get rid of this illness, She loathes you and hates you for what you have done to her..SHE NEVER FORGIVE YOU.. She remarked and it directly trigger at a place where it hurt the most.

SHE CAN'T LEAVE ME..I NEVER LET HER GO..SHE IS MY LOVE AND MY HEART KNOWS SOMEWHERE SHE STILL HAVE SOME FEELINGS FOR ME..SHE NEVER ABLE TO GO EVEN IF SHE WANTED, SHE CANNOT. BECAUSE OUR LOVE IS STRONGER..DID YOU UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!! He screamed on top of his lungs.

Anjali: What love you are talking about. It was your hatred that killed her deeply and she become like this. By shouting and screaming truth cannot unchanged and ignored. The day you make mockery of her feelings and engaged to Ananya, her love died for you and that letter was the proof to what extend you damaged her soul.

Arnav: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anjali: Stop this acting..It doesn't suit you Mr raizada..

Arnav: Di you know your chotte well..Whatever i wanted i achieve it at any cost..this time i needed my khushi..I needed her badly in my life.

Anjali: She is not a toy or a thing to kept in a museum. Whenever you wanted kept it for display and when she is of no use, throw her out. This time, She won't allow you to play with her feelings. Khushi is like my sister. Don't compel me to do things which i don't wanted to do.. (She worn pointing finger at him.) She is not in a condition to bear your hatred.. don't repeat the same mistake you does in past..If anything happen to her, i will KILL YOU and this time i will not miss the target and bullet hit your head..

Arnav: Thanks Di..I will happily ready to die from your hands, not until i get back my khushi. At present, My khushi needs me the most. Till my last breathe, i taken an oath to protect her, I never leave her hand.. He concluded with invisible tears and show her door to go.

Anjali: I will see how long your love survives. The day is not near when you will face her hatred. It's better tell me where is she?

Arnav: You do your cause and let me do mine.

Anjali: Fine! She glare him and turn to go.

She walk few steps, but stop at the door. But don't forget this time a powerful women is standing against you, not your sister

He said nothing just smiled in reply. She left from there and directly go to police station to do FIR against him.

Arnav held her picture close to his heart letting tears to roll down..

I miss you..I miss you Damn much..I promise to you Di, our kushi will be back..Mamin use vapas layungi..use vo har khushi dunga jiska usne sapne dekhe hain.. (I will get her back..will give her everything she desire and dreamt) But least did he know, her dreams and emotions died the day he name her love- a lust and desire to make her mine.

~~~

Khushi smiled adorably admiring the beatiful place. It is filled with beautiful flowers. Ananyabrought Khushi to a amazon fair.

After a long duration, Khushi breathe fresh air in a new surrounding. A huge crowd were roaming. She held Khushi's hand tightly and told her not to leave her hand. But there als, Khushi not leave her naughtiness.

She jumped exited inhaling the fragrance and run here and there playing in a park. A red rose grab attracted her, she kneel to pluck it but a thorn prick her finger making her jump in pain. Ananya who were talking to little kids out there turned abruptly hearing her cries.

''Khushi..'' She ran toward her but her legs halted glancing at the person comforting her.

A cold breeze touch khushi making her aware of someone's presence. She get startled and close her eyes fearfully as the feeling of HIM near her terrified her, She grew anxious. Her entire body started to shiver. Arnav sucked the tiny drop of blood from his finger in a way soothing her, but she is so traumtized, not having courage to open her eyes. Her voice frozen under her throat.

''Khushi..'' A soft whisper of her didi made her to open her eyes and she run toward her Ananya.

Ananya: What happen baby..why you're crying..? Khushi broke the hug and wipe the sweat from her face, pointing to the person who is standing behind her.

Kya hua mera bachha..hmm? Khushi tugged her tightly not letting her to leave her.

Khushi: Did...uu..woh..he..is here..(She pointed toward the direction and look back at her di nervously) he..is there..he came to kill me didu..please sa..vve..me..didi..

Ananya: Who? There is no one here..see..! She shook her head and keep holding her tightly, not having courage to meet his dangerous eyes, whose eyes is threatening to punish her anytime..

Khushi: He..is...there..to..kill...me..Hamare.. Arnavji..hamse..pyaar..nahi..karte..(He don' love me) Tell him na..don't.. punish ..me..i.. don't want to dance in his marriage..I don't like his wife..she is very bad..she snatch my Arnavji..I don't like her.. Is she really beautiful that my arnavji left me for her..tell na didi..why he left me?)

Ananya with widen eyes, look at her. A guilt rushed her veins. She gulped in pain. She have no idea what to say. Her words clenched her heart. She get speechless while Khushi continue glaring into her eyes. For a moment she thought, she recognize me. But no, may be she don't. But what if she does, will she deject me, question me why i did so injustice to her. She don't want to imagine the sight of her own sister to hate her. Thankfully, Khushi said nothing, just hugged her warmly. It relaxed her mind and she smiled affectionately and hugged her back.

But how long? How long this truth be veil. One day Khushi will face the truth. How i will make defend myself then?

Ananya(Breaking the hug): Khushi, promise me, you won't leave your Didi..

A sudden fear arises in her and she extended her hand to her.

Khushi: Of fo..my cutiepie didu..Where i will go leaving you. (She carried her hand to place it over her but then take it back as someone interrupted her. Fearfully, she move behind her Di thinking it might be Arnavji. To her relaxation, it's not him.

After sometime, Ananya diverted her mind by taking her to the different kinds of rides. Both sisters enjoy each other company but her words disturbed Ananya. She get lost in deep thought.

All she can do is to pray to DM to keep blessing on Khushi and her little baby. She just wanted to be with her, nothing else matter to her. She can't able to look into her eyes directly. Her one mistake spoil her sister's life. For that, certainly she never forgive herself. Whenever she met her innocent eyes, it made her guiltier than ever. She asked her heart why she did not trusted her that night.

''Didi..this is so exiting..'' She said after coming out from riding session and then they made their way toward food section. After filling her stomach, they sat in a park where few families giggling and gossiping about something.

Ananya smiled in tears looking at Khushi who is over-flowing with happiness receiving all the love and care she was deprived off.

Her eyes sparkled glancing at the butterflies creeping here and there. She jumped slightly up in air in order to catch them.

Ananya: Careful! Her voice made her to loose her balance. She immediately held her back and scolded her.

Ananya: Why you become so stubborn. I said sit down..RIGHT NOW! You will get tired.. Khushi wriggle in denial. But Ananya halted her act and worn her not to do any stunt.

Khushi: But i want to play. She insisted to go to kids who were playing hide and seek.

Ananya: You can't play with them.

Khushi: But why? She pouted sadly.

Because you..[She paused not knowing how to make her understand she is not in school. Somewhere she need to start. This cannot go on like this. ) Listen Khushi..You become young now and the girl of your age won't play with small kids. Khushi scratch her head not getting anything. She stubbornly insisted her to let her go. Other side, Ananya not wanted to anyone to insult her sister. However, she try to stop her. But all went in vain. Other side, the mother of those kids shrugged her away as she was trying to be friendly with them. They pass nasty comment at her, few pass disgusting glances at her seeing her swell stomach.

Seeing all that, Ananya call her.

Just 5 minutes Didi..I promise i won't trouble you..

I said no! Come back to Di. She said in a strict tone, marched to her. Grabbing her hand, she forcefully took her away and made her sit in a chair putting finger to her lips and shut her up. But Khushi is Khushi. She burst into crying, crawling on the floor .

Khushi: I want to play more..You bad..bad.. Bad..very bad..

Ananya: Sweetheart..Why don't you listen to your Di..your little one will get hurt by your antics.. (Caressing her stomach)

Khushi: Little one? Her eyes narrowed. She got up with a jerk and stop her crying session hearing that. For the first time, she sense felt something inside her. It's quite unusual and strange which fill her minds with plenty of doubts.

Khushi: What is inside there, jiji? She asked innocently placing her palm over swell.

Ananya went tongue tied. She breathe sharply and look into her questioning eyes. She is so fragile and innocent, don't know what will be her reaction to know about her pregnancy. Is it a right time to tell her? Most importantly Will she understand this? Probably not!

Khushi: Bolo na di..Why my tummy is so heavy and big? Look your belly is so flat and slim..then why god ji make me so fat and heavy..look everyone is only staring at me..ae aunty why you looking at me..i will not share my ice cream to you.. (She show her tongue out and everyone out there started laughing at her.)

Lady 1: Yeh toh vahi rakhel hain na..jiski photo newspaper mein ayi thi.. (Is she that mistress whose photo came to newspaper?)

Lady 2: Oh ya. The one who is doing that business of selling her body and making money by trapping rich men. But whose child is she carrying?

Lady 1: God knows. Lagta hain pagal ho gayi.. (Look like she have gone mad)

Khushi: Pagal kisko bola..(To whom you call mad?) She took the stone and throw toward her direction. Ananya get hold of her hand dragging her backward. ) Didi see what that buddhi aunty is saying.. And that chudail Aunty..she call me pagal..do I really look ugly and mad? She is on the verge of crying.

Ananya: No my doll..You are the most beautiful girl in the world.

Khushi: Sachi? She nodded and kiss her eyes lovingly. Somehow she control her by handling a candy to her and convince her to leave.

She keep her head on her chest and started licking candy. Unaware to her, people still passing abusing comments to her as they walking past from there.

Khushi really wanted to go back and eat them alive but Ananya console her to ignore them and they continue walking back.

Lady 2: dekho besharam kaise maze kar rahi hain..ise toh maar jana chahiye.. (See how that shameful lady having fun..she should have died)

Lady 3: And that lady accompany her..If i am not wrong, She is Arnav singh raizada, ex fiancee, isn't she?

Lady 2: Sautan bani saheli.. (Their laughter echoed to everywhere in the park.

Ananya unable to breathe a second there hearing this shameful words. Khushi is busy in her own world do not give attention to what they were saying, when she heard her di's soft cry.

What happen Didi..(She drop her candy and pull her face near her.) Why you are crying.. She raise her chin and stare her with narrowing eyes. Worry is clearly visible to her.

Ananya silently stare at Khushi shedding tears. She is asking apology to her through her eyes.

Khushi: Tell na didu..Who hurt you? Did that khadoos aunties say anything..wait i will go and punch each of them.. (She stamp her foot and dash to them once again. )

Ananya try to stop her but she is foul mood.

Khushi: Ae you greedy dayan aunty..How dare you made my didu cry.. (She fumed as they are again laughing at her staring her from head to toe) you don't know me..my angry is very bad..

Lady: Everyone know you very well so does your famous business of earning money. You are a popular face in our city..

Khushi: Chudail aunty keep your pale teeth inside..your mouth is stinking..auuueee. She made a yukky face closing her nose. Lady's little kid clap her hand in joy enjoying her face which become red in anger.

Lady: Shut up you Bit**

Haww mujhe Bit** bola..shame shame puppy shame..You are kuttiya..maha kuttiya..

Flaring her nose, She move to her and grab her hair. lady winced loudly making everyone out their started laughing. Then Khushi drop her in the sea of mud, Children enjoyed the scene and wristle looking at her face which is filled with dirt by now. While the other ladies who were earlier gossiping ran away seeing the pregnant lady new avtar.

Arnav who just came there get shocked seeing this side of khushi. He has no clue what is happening around and what made Khushi so hyper. So he just went to ananya and she narrated to him briefly how bravely Khushi shut their mouth and unconscious took stand for her self respect and honor.

Her action put a proud smile on his face. At the same time, his heart burn in pain for making her go through all this.

Khushi: Aur haso hehehhehe..Next time don't mess with me.. She laughed cheerfully holding her tummy and then turned around to go back to her Di. There she saw a man standing with her di whose back facing her.

Khushi: Didi..dekha kaise bhaga diya..now smile.. (She said while walking toward her)

Ananya: Arnav she is coming here..you please go before she see your face..

Arnav: Then let her come..

Ananya: No..are you crazy..

Arnav: Yes I am.. (He smirk and turn to face her.)

Khushi with a huge smile, heading to Ananya, but the moment she met his gaze, her legs halted. She get terrified. Her feet trembled so does her voice, coming face to face to her biggest fear that again came into reality.

Arn..av..ji..

Arnav: ''Khushi..'' He smiled. It's like he met her after ages. He took slow and predator steps to her.

Ananya block him but his menmerized gaze only fixed to a women who meant world to him..

Arnav: Not this time..

On reaching her, he clasp Khushi's hand before she dare to again run away from him.

Arnav: Today you have to face me...

Ananya: Do you know what you are doing..you are scaring her..please let her go..

You go from here, Ananya..Today no one is allowed to come between us.. (He pushed off Ananya hand off her and approaches to Khushi while she move backward.

Arnav: Won't you play with me.. (Terrified, She shook her head in no..)

''Khushi..'' She collide with the nearest wall and tilted her head being so near to him while he trapped her into his cage like arms.

Arnav: Look at me..

Without breaking eye contact, he reached her face and stare her closely.

Arnav: How long you will run away from me..

She felt ground slipping under her feet by every single second.

Khushi: I..I.. (she stammered.) Let..me..go.. She whispered feeling the dizziness and look at her di for help.

Arnav: Do i look monster to you..Tell me Khushi..why you so fear from me..I never harm you. TRUST ME. His last two words filled her heart unknowingly. Tears started slipping from her face making her drastic. He trace his finger to her innocent angelic face, urging her to look at him just once.

She shook her head, begging him to let her go. Her denial brought him to edge of insanity. He rose up in anger.

Arnav: WHY YOU FEAR OF ME GOT DAMMIT..With harsh voice, he spoke out and bang his hand against the wall making her tremble more. TODAY I WILL FULFILL MY DESIRE.. She could feel darkness in front of her eyes.

He pinned her against the wall commanding her one last time to look at him.

Arnav: You won't escape from me, no matter how much you try.

Her breathe pick up in terror. By next moment she fainted into his arms.

~~~

Taking a deep breathe, he look away for a moment before casting his gaze to a man who is standing next to him in a boxing chamber. He throw money on his face and order him to start.

Ananya: Arnav No!..please do this..have you gone mad..

She try everything to convince, but he is determine to get back his lost love at any cost who is laying uncobscious on opposite end.

Even if it will cost his life, he is ready to die for her.

Khushi breathe hard as a loud freaking sound hit her really hard leading her to open her eyes instantly. The scene in front of her widen her eyes in shock. A man is beating her arnavji left and right without any mercy. Blood pool from his face.

She started to cry like a baby and scream out for him. But her voice did not reach him because his heart already died when he witnessed those fear and insecurity in those eyes instead of love for him. Moreover, he wanted to punish himself as he deserved it so that her mind get peace and she get rid off her past that cage her into a deep shell.

Arnav..ji.. Within a blink of second, a man in front of him started giving him numerous punches on his face, bleeding him to death.

Arnav: Why did you stop..i said punch me harder.. (He commanded with a sharp glare.)

Teri mohabbat se mujhe inkar nahi

Kaun kehta hain mujhe tujhse pyar nahi

Tujhse vada hain saath nibhane ka

Par mujhe apni sasson par aitbaar nahi

Lashing out his hand, the man caught arnav by his shoulder, smash his face, nearly knocking him off his face. His mouth bleed but no pain is evident to him, but the person standing on opposite end is dying every single moment seeing his condition.

Her face drenched with tears. At this moment, nothing matters to her. All she wanted is to be with her arnavji. Unable to bear this torture, she entered the chamber, rushed to him, pushed the man away knocking him down before glancing at injured Arnav who is laying on the floor finding difficult to breathe.

Khushi(With anger filled voice): You kutta kamina..how dare you touch my arnavji..i will kill you..She wanted to kick his ass off but her arnavji stop her. She held his hand and kissed them on the places where he got hurt.

He look at her lovingly and say.

I love you, khushi. (He meant each and every word he spoke.)

He remember last time he confessed his heart out, that was probably fake or out of his revenge but now he really loves her.

Khushi: You love that chudail na..

Arnav: No..I never loved her..i love you..i really do..

Khushi: Sachi.. He nodded and she laid his head lay on her lap wiping his blood with her frock.

Arnav: I never leave you..I promise i will be there with you and our ba.. He stopped abruptly, but her queries have no end.

Khushi: But yeh love shove hota kya hain..[He paused to look at her. Her innocent query brought tears to his eyes. 'Boliye na..'

Arnav: I will tell you when right time come..

Khushi: Okay i will wait. But you Don't cry..don't cry..pleezzz..and how dare that rakshas uncle beat you..where he gone..

He chuckled by her pronunciation by which he earn glare from her. Slowly he raised his hand to touch her face.She lean down, blow air to his wounds. For an instant, Arnav lay frozen just watched her, the woman in his life. Why she is so innocent? He had gave her boundless pain yet there is no stint of realization in those eyes.

How badly I treated her. Inspite of knowing he rejected her for other women, how will she not question me or reject me. Her love is so pure and unconditional, just like her. This time, he would fight with god, he wouldn't let anything happen to her.

Arnav: Khushi..i will manage.. (She held him)

Khushi: Chup bilkul chup.. She scolded him and balance him, placing his hand around her shoulder and began walking toward her di's car.

Arnav: You are very careless, arnavji..I will not talk to you.

Khushi..won't you scare of me? His question made her to hugged him tightly.

I am scared of your anger, but my Arnavji never hurt me. Due to your wife, you hurt me na.. He stopped in his track hearing that and look back at ananya who is standing in a corner, showing her disapproval.

Arnav: Khushi..i want to tell you something.. She stop her on reaching the car and wait for him to say further. Ananya get panic,not really wanted truth to be out in open like this and most importantly, she don't want to loose her sister.

To be continued!

Here is the next update. Sorry guys yesterday i cannot able to give more updates as you know i m in holiday so did not get time to post chapters. Today also my mobile not with me. I will try to give more updates of other stories too if i can.

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