Issues - Julia Michaels

"You fucked up."

"I know."

"You do realize it'll be hard for him to even be nice to you now, right?"

"Yup."

"Good," And a set of pills is extended out, "Then start being more responsible."

Jimin stares at the pills on Yoongi's hand, his frown deepening even more than it already was but this time he didn't fight it. He takes it from his hand and one by one, gulping them down - including the eye drops.

Tonight Jimin can't even begin to explain what happened to him.

He doesn't even know himself.

When Jeongguk was holding him, he was regaining consciousness because he was passed out cold. His thoughts were heading in darker directions with flashbacks in a mix of a nightmare or some type of past reality, so when he woke up, it took almost everything in him to not beat Jeongguk up at that moment when he saw him holding him.

He didn't see him as Jeongguk, not until he met his eyes.

So holding back his anxiety, which was triggering his anger, Jeongguk showing him the food was like a direct strike to a sensitive nerve to those dark thoughts. He was holding himself back so badly, but when Jeongguk said those words to eat, he just exploded.

From there he just didn't know what happen anymore, it was like everything faded away and he just blacked out.

He kept saying things, his mind no longer being connected with his consciousness, and it was like he was fighting with himself. So in reality, all those things he screamed out was him saying it to his own self, and just took it out on Jeongguk.

It wasn't until Jeongguk left the room that he realized what has happened, and he just couldn't control himself from the tantrum to the feeling as though he lost something. Even as Felix and Minho tried to calm him down, Jimin just couldn't snap out of it.

Not until Yoongi arrived, sending everyone out of the room and looking the door shut behind him.

He injected him with a calming sedative, not knocking him out, but just relaxing him from his episode. It's the same substance as his medication, so it fueled down his aggression and anxiety to just feel loopy.

But that still wasn't enough, and he still needs to take more medication.

Like right now.

His body is calm as the medication take it's effect, only left feeling that guilt while flashes from that moment cruised his mind; The food all over Jeongguk's body, his hysterical eyes; just so afraid of him.

He always has to fuck something up doesn't he?

Yoongi sighs as he rises to his feet, packing up his things, "Don't worry, I've sent a message to the team to not mention anything to Taemin or Jihyo," And he turns to looks at Jimin, see how hollow his eyes are growing to the effects, "I might have to consult with your doctor on getting new meds-"

"Just.... Go," Jimin manages to bellow, eyes feeling like they're dropping along with his body, "Get out."

"Jimin just listen to me!" His lips sealed, not bothering to look at Yoongi's stressed features as the man runs a hand through his hair in distress before looking at him, "First of all, I know you've been starving yourself. You need to eat or seek a counselor to help yourself. Second, your meds, you have to start taking them regularly unless you want to go through another withdrawal effect. Lastly, I would recommend you start planning out your resignation letters. You know you won't be skating or dancing for long either way-"

"Don't fucking say that!" Jimin snaps, his voice low and soft despite how it did fire him up with a spike of rage, "I will not give up either of them, not until I'm finished."

Yoongi glares, "Or it'll finish you," He snatches his bag and shakes his head, "Just know that you owe Jungkook anapology, and best believe a simple bitter sorry won't cut it."

This made Jimin return to feeling cold, sneering away from his eyes, "I don't know what to do."

"The truth," Jimin's heart coated in ice, his fist clenching tightly, "Tell him...... The truth. He's your partner. He needs an explanation as to why you behave the way you do before he does leave the program."

As much as it makes sense, Jimin only shakes his head with lips wobbling that he's fighting to hold back, "I can't."

Yoongi stares at Jimin's sullen expression and turns around, "Then I don't know what to tell you, but if he does ask me then I will say something," Was all he said before moving forward and walking out of the room, leaving Jimin to his despair on his own.

It almost felt like he was drowning, yet he couldn't move. The medicine is calming down his every cell from acting up, even if he wanted to scream and grip his hair until his roots burned from his fingertips. In his head he's doing that; crying and sobbing while kicking the air and punching the wall.

Now he just holds it in.

That's all he can do really.

Only letting the silent tears stream down his cheeks, unable to even scream even if he wanted to.













Can't Pretend - Tom Odell

"You okay Bambi?"

Jeongguk is still sniffling, not moving a muscle as Woosung gently combs his wet hair after his shower. Ten is sitting beside him, not saying anything as per usual but he does hold his hand and gently caresses his knuckles in his usual physical contact to comfort him

Everyone right now is in Woosung's dorm, setting themselves up for a circle meeting. Minho is trying to help Karma calm down from not pulsating a punch at Jimin again, Felix and Hongjoong are arranging a few chairs, while Seokjin is laying on Woosung's bed with heavy eyes to Jeongguk.

Not saying anything.

Jeongguk just barely heard what Woosung said since he didn't have his hearing aids, but he heard enough to nod while using a napkin to wipe off his tears.

Suddenly Karma storms off right towards Jeongguk, all the while Minho trails back in distress for him to not explode, but Karma only slaps the soft touches on Jeongguk's body and grabs him by the wrist to yank him up.

And he wraps his arms around his body like a protective shield, forcing the breathe out of Jeongguk's lips.

Karma...... Being affectionate?

That's.... New?

"I promise you that we won't be late again," He says, making sure it was loud enough for Jeongguk to hear it and not be triggering him, "I won't let anyone hurt you, not while I'm around."

If Karma could be words, this would exactly be it. Protective over the people he cares about, even if he doesn't often show it, but when he does it's something brief and serious like now.

Jeongguk's own Karma.

It was enough to make Jeongguk weakly smile and hug him back with eyes closed. Karma's arms felt like a reliable shield, and that's ironic that Jeongguk feels that way from the teammate he fights the most often. Not like fist fighting but just regular bickers here and there, some sibling type of shit.

And now Jeongguk drops his entire weight onto his body with his exhale, letting Karma hold him as much as he wants to while feeling their friendship grow bit by bit. They don't usually share moments like this, and this is probably the first time Karma has even held someone for this long period of a time.

It felt nice.

"Alright everyone, let's start our circle meeting," The two pull away to Hongjoong's voice, sending each other small reassuring smiles before sitting down to their accommodated seats.

Everyone slowly got into a circle, the vibes definitely different from last time. Woosung was still like a pillar beside Jeongguk on the bed, to which the ravenette leaned his head in his shoulder.

"Alright, so a lot has been going on for this week and I believe this would be a good time to let out some frustrating energy-"

There's a knock suddenly hitting the door, catching all of their attention. Clearly no one wanted to get up and get it, but Hongjoong rolls his eyes and lazily gets up and opens the door.

It happened so fast that Hongjoong was shoved aside and Taemin storms in with Jihyo and Lalisa in tail. Everyone grew tense, and it wasn't because of the fact that they just came in barging into their meeting or how Lalisa is holding Jihyo back but the girl only slaps her hands off her.

It was by Taemin's boiling and collected facial features glaring at every single one of them, slowly.

With fists clenched to his sides.

"I'm going to be brief," Taemin mutters, making Jeongguk nearly squirm on the spot by his informal language, "I get Jimin has attitude problems and he can be hard to handle, but triggering him with things is not going to help anyone at all."

"Triggering him? Come on," Karma scoffs and shoots to his feet, striding directly towards him, "Instead of scolding us, why don't you ask your little bitch what he did instead-"

Both of Taemin's hands found Karma's neck, glaring murderously to his frantic stare with teeth grinding together.

Everyone is on their feet now but Jihyo stands in the way with a hard stare, "And also heard the fact that one of you punched him too? Ha, man up and punch me if you have the balls!"

"We didn't do anything to him!" Felix squeaks, looking at the scene with cautious eyes, "He was the one who threw the food to Jeongguk! We came in and Jeongguk was a triggered mess-"

"Food?" Taemin bellows, still holding Karma with his dark expression, "Did you try to force him to eat?"

All eyes are on Jeongguk now, who is a quivering mess but he slowly shakes his head, "Umm..... S-said no...... Tried a-again-"

Jihyo marches up to Jeongguk but Lalisa holds her back, "Stop it Jihyo! He was just trying to get him to eat-"

"You don't fucking know anything!" Jihyo whirls around, pushing Lalisa back, "Don't get fucking involved where you don't belong!"

Taemin's grip tightens around Karma in frustration to the situation but he had to use every single restrain to let him go, making him drop on his knees to the ground. Just picturing how they all saw Jimin like that, in his worse, was like a fire burning in his soul.

No one was on his side. No one saw his struggle or bothered to empathize with him.

Only Yoongi, who sent him and Jihyo a message about what happened.

They tried going to Jimin but he wouldn't open his door, most likely drowning in his own self doubt and guilt for what he did.

This feels like a knife turning brutally in his chest, glaring at Jeongguk now, "If you don't want to get triggered by Jimin's temper, I suggest you stop doing things that'll piss him off."

"Oh fuck off, he just got him food- OW!" Jihyo snags a fist full of Lalisa's hair, glaring now murderously at her.

"Talk like that to Taemin and I will snap your damn neck in half," And she aggressively lets her go, sneering her gaze to Jeongguk, "I get you were trying to be nice, but if you pressure him to do things - like eating - you will be left disappointed if you don't understand his roots."

And with that she walks away, taking Taemin by the wrist and yanking him out of the room with his final glare to the team while slamming the door shut behind them.

Karma is still choking on the ground, heavy teary eyes snapping to the door while clearing his throat, "F-Fucking asshole."

Jeongguk was paralyzed, staring at the door with nothing but a heavy heart.

He doesn't know what to fucking do anymore.

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A/N:

Well.....

This got really tense.

Let's see how this is solved within time.

I PURPLE YOU! <3