CHAPTER - I

"You don't deserve to be a father."
"You both are not capable of being parents."
"You and your wife are useless."
"Both of you are sterile, who cannot conceive kids."
"Your dream of having a family will only be a dream that'll never happen."
"Just die and leave this world."

* Sinister laugh erupts *

JIMIN'S POV.

I woke up abruptly, cold sweat beads glazing down my face, hands trembling, I closed my eyes realizing that it was a dream. Trying hard to catch breath. All of a sudden my room filled with soft sounds of cries. I turned my face to the side to see my wife Park Kyung Mi weeping hard, face red and swollen. I pulled her closely, filling up the gap between us and turned her around to see my face.

"Hey Honey, what happened ?" I glazed my fingers down her face wiping her tears, that held lot's of pain.

"Everything that's happening now is because of me Jimin ah. You don't deserve me. I don't deserve you. You are too precious for me. It's because of me that we are not having kids. I can't take it anymore. It's better to die rather than to live in this kind of society."

"Honey, don't think like that. Don't blame yourself for everything. I'm equally responsible too. Fuck this judgemental society. They are bitches, who don't understand our situation until that happens to them. They might say everything easily like.."

"Omo you don't have kids, what kind of woman you are ?"

"They also say..."

"Tell your husband to take test's and check whether he is capable of getting you conceived."

"Even the worst as..."

"She's sterile, ditch her and get someone, start your life and have a family of your own."

"Hearing these things will make things harder and pisses me off to the core honey. I just want to tell them that, it'd be better, if they mind their own business. Not only to the society, but to everyone, who butt into our problems."

"The society should understand that it's our personal problem. They should not interfere in that. And should not mock the shit out of us."

"Ok Jimin ah, let's not listen to the society talks. But, what if the same kind of questions comes from our own family ? Do you think we can escape it ?"

"We cannot escape it honey. We might think they'll understand us and help us with it. But, Because of this our families will quarrel saying that the problem is with me and I cannot get you pregnant. They'll blame you for not getting conceived. Sometimes these kind of fights between our families will ruin our relationship and make us to separate our ways. But that's not gonna happen honey. I'll never leave you. I love you."

"With having PCOS (Poly cystic ovary syndrome) I completely lost my hopes on getting pregnant Jimin ah. I don't get my periods regularly. I've gained weight. I've thyroid problems. With all this...I don't think we'll be pregnant and have a family of our own Jimin ah..."

She lost her hopes of getting pregnant during her teenage, when her doctor said, not to expect kids in the future. It was very hard for her to accept. She lived with that burden for years. She was happy when I was with her. I've never judged her for having PCOS, thyroid problems. That's why she was so comfortable with me. She was free with me.

But then, after marriage things didn't turn out well. My family pressurized her. Making her to go crazy. She's so broken that she cannot have children. I hate my family for doing this to her.

"Honey...don't worry...let's hope for the best. Sleep now. Things will get better."

I tried putting her to sleep, I caressed her face and softly ruffled her locks. Giving soothing effect for her to sleep. I nuzzled closer to her. She placed her head on my chest and dozed off. She cries until she sleeps. It breaks me to see her so pale and weak.

"I love you honey". I whispered, placing soft kisses on her temple. I held her tightly in my embrace, securing her from getting broken.

I wish things could be normal..

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