To whoever the fuck this is,

I'm so fucking scared to loose you. No matter how hard I try, the world keeps us apart. I've never been one to find this feeling anywhere except my family. It's the feel of; I never want to leave your side, or, why the fuck do I feel like this? It's not normal to me, I feel like I'm on cloud nine when I'm with you. Can you tell me what this feeling is? I don't think it's romantic, but it's something...right? I guess it's my body talking, cause who'd want to love someone like me? I've never been one to think soul mates are real, but I know that I've met an angel, and I never want to let you go. Maybe you only exist in my head, but I want you to be real. I want to be able to touch your face as I gaze into your eyes, feel your warmth when the voices become unbearable, and I want to listen to your heartbeat as I fall asleep into a peaceful bliss. I know this is just a fantasy my head made up, but I want you to be real outside the walls of my head.

(not directed at a real person I don't think.) -Ash (12/31/19)