Helloo~ I know it might be out of character but I just LOVE depressive!matsu for a reason? And I've always thought that Depressive!Jyushimatsu would be rather sad. I hope you enjoy the fanfiction~

Osomatsu's POV

Me and my brothers were talking around a table, as usual. Wondering if we would ever get a job..
Only me and Choromatsu were talking. Karamatsu was busy fixing his eyebrows, Ichimatsu was playing with some cats and Satan-... Toty was busy reading fanfictions about him and literally any other boy he managed to get money out of.
Suddenly Choromatsu looks around and starts to speak.
''Guys?.. Do you know where Jyushimatsu is?'' He asked, confused.
We start to look around and realize, he is missing.
''Ah, I do not know buraza.'' Karamatsu said while pushing back his painful black sunglasses.

Jyushimatsu's POV

I was walking around the street. I never told my brothers but I wanted to go get a job.. I wanted to prove I wasn't useless or dumb.. I wanted my parents to be proud of me but.. I got refused, again. I held the paper in my hands tightly. I was almost to the house but I sat down  on a bench that was in a park. I placed the paper down and hid my face in my hands as I started to cry.
Will I never be able to do something right?
This thought kept coming back into my head. But.. I'm fine. It's okay.
Is what I needed to remember. A fake smile appeared on my face and I stood up.
I always did those.. Faking a smile when I came back home. Faking a smile when the bullies hit me. Faking a smile so that I wouldn't bother my brothers with my idiotic sadness. I walked to the house.

''I'm home! Hustle, hustle! Muscle, muscle!'' I exclaimed, with as much enthusiasm as I could.

''Jyushimatsu! If your going to come late at least tell us, don't do like Todomatsu..'' Choromatsu said while sighing.

The next night.

Choromatsu's POV

''Jyushimatsu! Stop being late, your seriously scaring all of us-.. Your wearing pants in summer?.. And a scarf.. That's over your head?..''

''A-ahh.. I'm just cold Niisan!'' He exclaimed.

''Okay then.. We're going to sleep, goodnight.'' I said while waking towards our bedroom.

Jyushimatsu's POV
I nodded and ran to the bathroom.
I closed the door and locked it.
I sat on the floor and removed my pants to change with shorts. I removed the scarf and started crying again. My legs, filled with bruises from the bullies. My face was also bruised. I couldn't show that to my brothers..
I got my brother's (Toty) razor and rolled up my sleeve. I cut my arm deep enough to make blood drool down, I flinched a bit and started crying even more. I threw the razor and sat on the floor. I buried my face in my knees and cried for about 5 minutes nonstop. I weakly stood up and rolled bandages around my arms to hide the wounds. I grabbed a towel to clean the blood that was still in the sink. I grabbed some baggy sweatpants and placed them on. I used my brother's (Totty. Again) fondation to cover the wounds on my face and walked to the bedroom. I layed down and went to sleep.

Morning timeskip
The morning finally arrived. They all woke up and I did too. Or I made a good makeup job or they were too sleepy to notice my bruised face. I made a fake smiled again and stood up. I ran to the dining room but suddenly, the bruises on my legs start to burn and hurt and I flinch and stop running. The smile on my face looks more and more fake.

''J-Jyushimatsu?.. Are you okay?..'' Choromatsu asks, worried.

''Y-yeah.. I'm fine.'' I say while carefully siting down.
''Why aren't you wearing shorts.. Like usual?..'' Osomatsu asks.

Ichimatsu's POV
I actually did notice that Jyushimatsu was acting strange lately. Suddenly it hit me. His actions.. Strangely related to mine when I cut myself. Well, obviously I cut myself. I'm an awful trash that doesn't deserve to live.. But Jyushimatsu? I stood up and was going to grab his arm but I remembered again. ''Jyushimatsu.. Can you follow me for a second?'' I say while walking towards the door that leads to outside
Jyushimatsu nods and follows me.

Jyushimatsu's POV
I followed Ichimatsu.
I was rather confused on why he wanted to talk to me.
Did he had another suicide thought and he want to talk to me about it?

''Roll up your sleeves.'' He said coldly with a scary look on his face.
''What?.. Why?.. No..'' I said without even thinking of what would happen if I said no.
Ichimatsu pushed me to a wall and grabbed my arms.
He forcefully rolled up my sleeves and removed the bandages.
I stared at Ichimatsu. Tears started rolling down my face.
IChimatsu stared at me and letted go of my arm. He wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me tightly.
I hugged him back, even if my arms hurted.
''Why.. Why would you cut yourself Jyushimatsu..'' Ichimatsu said while breaking the hug. He had a serious look on his face.
''What did you expect.. I'm..'' I took a deep breath and stopped faking a smile. ''I'm always called a fucking idiot, I'm still bullied, I can't do anything right, it's the 20th fucking job I'm refused to! D-do you really think I'm happy with my life?!'' I exclaimed, angrily with more tears rolling down my face.
Ichimatsu stayed quiet and hugged me. ''I.. I didn't know..
I'm sorry.

Jyushimatsu.''

AHHH! I hope you liked it? I did it early in the morning because of a dream I had that gave me the inspiration. I hope you liked it and there will be more parts!