I lay awake crying.I fake asleep but never truly sleep. My hearts pounding I'M afraid it might be the end so i cry. I'm afraid of what awaits me in the dark so i fear it.I hear the voices forces me deeper and deeper away from my friends.I know i will never love and that does not bother me its the pain and heartache i go throw.So i lay awake thinking even tho i know that its not healthy to think about suicide but i cant help it.So i fall on my knees and cry out in pain.