I sit alone thank of all I have done I wish to pull the trigger and end all the pain I feel but instead I sit back kick my feet up and listen to youth of a nation. I haven't cut for months now and I have thought about hunting for a new blade, but I just cry and tell myself it ain't worth the time to try I have tried so much to leave the dark but i'm just pulled right back into it and i cant help to feel like this anymore.