More of an author's note:

I almost killed myself tonight, but I couldn't do it. I cut at least 30 times and then lost count. I haven't cut on my arm in ages, but I had to. It gives me the best relief. My mom is going to kill me, but that's ok since I want dead anyway. I just can't believe I couldn't do it. I couldn't even try. I have no idea why though. I just couldn't. Then I actually cried. I haven't actually cried in forever. No tears ever came. Im upset to say that I'm at my lowest ever and actually in tears over it. My arm looks like a murder scene right now and I just want to bleed out, but I know that won't happen. Its not enough. I just can't handle life anymore.

Try to stay strong, I'll try too.

~Jordan~