staring at a wall

as my mind races on

thought after thought floods in

like cars racing through my mind

faster and faster they go

leaving me deaf to all but the screams and sounds

trapped in a mind going on and on

screaming inside

breaking down

needing free

smiling 

laughing all on the outside

happy i seem

not

hiding who i am 

for what?

her sanity,fear of knowing i will be rejected

who i am not valid 

trapped in a cage

behind a mask of who i have to be

not who i am

all this flowing through my mind as thoughts race by

breaking me until all that is left is a shell of the one i use to be