Dear reader,

I'm not fine.....I use to be a happy lil girl...
Why am I still here again?
Because I don't wanna leave my friends behind....
I have 11 words..."look at me now are u proud of ur precious Friend?"
I hope u are.....a suicidal friend....and daughter...
Heh....It's sad that I was a disgrace...misplace...born in the wrong place....
When will I be gone?
Who knows....
Will I survive through this hell?
Maybe....Maybe not...
I just want to be gone.......
I don't want to live anymore...
Heh....I'm actually smiling....but not from happyness.....it's from Depression
I can feel Ppl feelings but....around me...some friends hate me....Annoyed by me...Bullied me....Happy with me...Even worried about me.
Im....not ok.....
Im....Sad.....Angry...betrayed....And.........fear
I don't feel like posting.....anymore.....those...cruel...words... that she said to me.... "U CAN'T EVEN WRITE GOOD STORIES!?" I dont know if she knew that she hurt me....but...I wanted to say the her....T-thank u....F-for being me-mean t-to me...
I'm happy.....ohh the hate.....so wonderful...So...cruel....oh I wish the darkness would of killed me from those cruel words....
And plz don't say sorry.......Lilly I understand....I understand that u know that I can't write Good stories.....but plz....leave all the sadness to me....
I would be happy if u felt the pain I felt when u said that to me....but I guess not...
But don't say sorry....Sorry is not an option....
I want to delete the pain I felt through All these years...or maybe....dissappear from this pain....
Don't say sorry lilly.....u made the pain worse with those words of urs....
Pisces are delicate....Their emotinal...be gentle with us....we hate those hateful words.....cuz....we cant stop the words repeating from our minds.....I'm believing them lilly....are u happy that I'm believing those words? I hope u are.....
Are u going to be happy that ur reading this?
I hope u are......
It's like I'm lucy.....funny...ha.....ha...
Thank u for making my life worse Lilly.....I'm More depressed but the words u said.... 'U can't even write good stories' sounded like u were actually saying 'I have everything all about u'
Im already losing words to write in this book....but I don't know if I'm going to keep writing because of u....I'm not mad....just...Very depressed...those words hurt so much that I frozed.....
I though I was going to survive but no....because those words to txt to me....I failed....I couldn't think any ideas because if u....I'm trapped with the words repeating louder and louder...
I don't know....if I should keep writting....it doesn't matter how many followers u have.....it only matters that u like and wat u like to read and write about a book.....
I guess I've already lost words...
I hope ur happy that I believed those words lilly I hope u are...

From the most depressed girl and use to be happy girl .....Iris H.A.....Or.....Ashley ML.K

Oh how beatiful.....those picz I put dem...da first, sec and third pic....those are mine....but the last pic shows wat it means by think....