It's sad when Alot of ppl say to me... "Are u Ok?" I just fake smile at them and say "Im fine..." but I want them to look at me and hug me saying...

"Im know ur not...." and I would just stay quiet but no...no one don't even gives a fuking dam about my feelingz....

It's just sad... I would like them to see if they would miss me...if I was gone

But everytime I see one of my friends irl....I just don't look at dem...n look down.

If I see my elementry school.... I start to cry...it's hard for me to leave my fav school I've been deir since I was in 1st grade...

I'm loosing my smile....And laugh...will I remember how to smile and laugh real....instead of a fake smile and laugh....who knows..

I may have a bad ending....or a happy ending...