I think I figured out why I say that I'll be forever alone. It's because I'm afraid to love. I'm afraid that whatever promises that are made to me won't be kept. I'm scared that when I do find love, it won't be real. I'm scared of when I find things that they'll be fake. I'm terrified to love because in the end, it's not gonna be real and I'll just be left in the dust, crying my heart out as people tell me to suck it up and deal with it. I can't deal with fake promises. I may have thick skin and not get offended easily, but the emotional abuse that I've gone through has changed me from a normal, healthy girl into a girl who is terrified of love and promises, fearing that I'll never be loved, because I know that if and when I do fall in love, it's not gonna be healthy. I want to fall in love when I'm older, but at the same time, I can't for fear of psychological abuse...