some slash their wrists,

ingest a bottle of pills,

jump off a high rise building,

hang themselves

or blow their brains out.

and in that moment

when they are bleeding to death,

closing their eyes for the last time,

hanging loose in the air,

about to let their weight drop,

and let that bullet peirce through their skull,

are moments , they feel most alive.

mabye suicide 

is meant for that

so very 'special moment'.

to feel alive, 

just once, before

you cease to exist