TV and media would have you believe there's always hope for a happy ending. That no matter how unhappy and pitiful you are right now, everything will be okay in the end. Everyone will eventually see the errors of their ways and learn to love you for you, because holy fuck you're awesome.

But that's not reality.

Reality sucks ass. In real life nothing ever really gets better. From childhood you think everything is all fine and dandy. Then, one day you wake up and realize, "It's not...Shit." And it's all down hill from there. You start realizing that everyone around you is a real jerkwad, and everything you do in your stupid mundane existence is pointless. Nothing really matters. You don't matter.

There's no magical solution either. No fairy godmothers. No prince charming to sweep you off your feet. Just you and stupid realization that you're nothing more than a filthy waste of space.

It feels like your underwater, drowning. It feels like everyone else is completely fine and not even remotely worried about you and your goddamn issues. They don't give a fuck about anything or anyone, except themselves.

But they're drowning too.

Everyone in the whole goddamn world is drowning, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. It's just the way it is. But we've all got too much pride to recognize something's off. We just accept that this is the way things are. This is the way they're suppose to be.
This is normal. 

It's not normal.

The whole fucking world is drowning, and we're all too fucking scared to even try to swim to the surface. To lift our fucking heads out of the damn water. We'd much rather die than give up that pride. To admit that nothing has ever been right.

But you want to.

You want to admit, because holy hell, this shit fucking sucks. But where do you go? Who do you turn to, when the whole world is flooded with waters of agony and disaster​?

You're just wading through the soggy depths of shit, you know? There's nothing to save you. Your search is futile. Everything is too wet. Too damp to be of any use.

And you can't even swim.

The current sweeps you away, and your brain gets all turned upside down. You can't tell which way's right. Which is left.

Everything sucks.

And it's never getting any better.

So...you just allow yourself to be swept up in the current....and drown.