Preview: Dear Therapist Man, I'll explain what happened but only if you grant me one thing...

Warning: Talks about a school shooting, people get hurt, and it's kinda a no quirks au (it never really says if there is quirks or not but in my head there weren't any)

Ship: ShinKami

Dear Therapist Man,

It started with all the lights in the building turning off. Not even the back up lights stayed on.

"Shinso..." I had said so fearfully. I always have hated the dark. I still do.

"It's fine Denki. The lights will be back on soon." He grabbed my hand to help ground me. They never ended up coming back on.

We continued our walk to class normally or semi normally. Shinso was like a cat, easily shifting to be able to see in the dark. I'm not like that so I had to drag my hand along the lockers making the locks jingle with each touch. I shouldn't have been so loud.

We had left the class because Bakugou had got in a fight and we were witnesses. Of course I covered for him the best I could during it as Shinso stayed impassive. The only reason he got in a fight was because of two reasons: Kirishima luckily didn't come to school that day and the person insulted us.

Shinso was humming a slight tune as we walked. I think it was an intro to a kid TV show because he was always watching them with Eri, his little sister.

Speaking of her, how's she doing? I know I'm suppose to stay on track but no one will let me talk to them anymore and I just want to know how she is handling everything.

It was relaxing in a way but like I said before we were being too loud. As soon as we rounded the corner they already were expecting us. I couldn't see anything but Shinso did. That's why he was the one to yell 'Run!' or 'Look out!' but it was too quick for me. Then there were the shots.

How do I describe what it was like? The amount of fear and shock and confusion was overwhelming. The gunshots abounded like fireworks and that's what I thought it was at first. I literally thought, Did someone set off fireworks inside? I know, dumb. Well you won't say (at least to me) that that was dumb because it's your job not to.

Anyways, they didn't hit us the first time. If I had ran with Shinso afterward neither of us would have gotten hurt. He was yelling at me and tugging on my wrist telling me to run but I stood still. My ears were still ringing and I was trying to see so I could have a better understanding of what was happening since I didn't see the sparks from the 'fireworks'.

They shot us again and I heard Shinso scream. That's when I finally realized what was happening or at least got an idea of what was going on. I turned around and started running while holding his hand for dear life. I didn't turn the corner to go back the way we came, instead I went straight. I heard more of the painful pops and felt like someone pinched the arm I was holding Shinso's hand with. I ignored the feeling and ran as fast as I could down the hall.

We ran for at least fifteen minutes before Shinso's leg gave out. I fell down with him but thought that the reason we fell was because they caught up to us. I started panicking, like as if I wasn't before, and swung my legs and arms around while letting out small yelps. Shinso ended up crawling over my body to put a hand over my mouth which only made me panic more.

"Denki," he took a deep breath, "calm down." Another breath. "If you don't," At this point I don't know how I didn't notice something was wrong. Deep Breath. "we will get caught." His breathing was so labored that it almost was as loud as my cry's and I could tell he was trying to keep them down.

I just grabbed his hand and made him wrap it around me. I was so scared that all I wanted before I died was one last hug.

We apparently were in the middle of the hallway and so he slowly moved us out of the way. Inch by inch. Every time he moved he warned me so I wouldn't freak out and after moving only a few centimeters he heaved out heavy breaths. I was so useless, just holding him tight and weighing him down when he was already close to passing out.

We ended up against the wall right next to a class room. Maybe if they let us in the end would have been different.

He knocked against the door only to be replied with silence. He tried again, this time speaking. "Hello? It's Shinso and Kaminari. Please let us in."

At the time I didn't know it but that was the class Mina and Bakugou both had at the time. Bakugou had to hold back a crying Mina from opening the door because they thought that the person was holding us hostage and saying that they would let us live if we went around to the classes knocking and asking for entry. He wasn't.

After knocking for a few more minutes he stoped. I thought that he gave up and was mad at him so I started to ask him why he stoped and tell him to continue. I don't know why I thought I had the right to say that to him when I was doing nothing. Only once I started to shove him and he fell limply did I realize that he passes out. I started to freak out, shaking him and yelling at him to wake back up. I was so loud again but thankful this time nothing happened because of it.

During my freak out session I must have figured out that both of us had gotten shot. Me in the arm and him on his hip and thigh. I don't know when though that part of my memory is blurred over like as if it never happened. I'm sure you have some doctory explanation for it but why it happened was because I was broken.

Correction: I am broken. Shinso was keeping me safe and sane and we both know that I wasn't very there even before he passed out. But once he passed out I lost all hope of living. I still feel like they are going to kill me. It's weird that I haven't had any nightmares about it but still wake up in a sweat. I know Kirishima has nightmares along with Bakugou and probably the rest of the squad.

Sometimes I wonder if Kirishima really was better if at home. He is dealing with the same stress as the rest of us but didn't go through what we did. He has the nightmares and panic attacks when ever he hears a loud noise but no reason for it. He feels guilty that he wasn't there, like survivors guilt or something. But when I think of it I'm happy he wasn't. He was sick and if he was out like Shinso and me were or even in a classroom he could have been caught coughing or sneezing.

I got off track, sorry. The next thing I remember during the blur, (Yeah, that's what I'm calling that memory loss time: The Blur.) we were in the janitors closet with all the flashlights in there on. There were six and honestly that was a stupid idea that I was lucky it didn't kill me.  I was hugging Shinso shirtless because, probably the only smart thing I did during that time, wrapped it around his leg to stop the bleeding. I could lie and say that's why I was hugging him, to have pressure on his hip but I once again needed a hug before I died.

I don't know how long I was in there for. I know people keep saying that the whole ordeal lasted seven hours but it was so short but long at the same time. Eventually someone opened the door and shined a flashlight on me since the lights were still out. The asshole (is it okay to curse? I really don't care because they were an asshole) cut the breaker and my flashlights were all out. I remember trying my best to cover Shinso's whole body so he wouldn't get shot again and started crying.

Before you say that that made me brave but the reason I did it was purely selfish. I couldn't let him get hurt because I needed, need him. You see how well that turned out.

The person who opened the door started talking to someone else and then introduced himself. His name was forgotten to me as soon as I figured out that he was a police officer. I wish I remembered it so I could send a thank you letter but there's not much I could do now.

The rest you know. You were there after all. We both were brought stretchers then carried out. They told be I couldn't go on the same stretcher as his to I opted for holding his hand as they dragged us out of the school. Mina started crying when she saw us and Bakugou told the police officers holding them back from running at us to "Back the fuck off and let is check on our friends!" I wish someone caught it on camera but no one did. He hasn't stoped saying friends instead of extras though so I guess no one needed to.

They weren't allowed to check on us but I made eye contact with him. I couldn't smile or even muster up the words 'I'm fine' because I wasn't. We just stared at each other as they loaded us into the ambulance and to the hospital. They have seen me every single day since visitors were allowed. Even when it was family only, but I shouldn't tell you that so they don't get in trouble. It doesn't mater anyways since I'm a foster and they are the closest thing I have to family. Screw that, they are my family.

So that's everything. Now can I please go to Shinso? He can't come to me because he's still unconscious and even if he was awake he doesn't have his left leg anymore. I know he would be able to be wheeled in but I want to be alone with him. Even if he's asleep. So please? I just want to see him and give him a hug so I can realize that everything will be okay.

Signed,
Kaminari Denki, The Survivor