Preview:  They wake him up to explain, but how is Kaminari suppose to explain when he doesn't even know why he is cutting, himself?

Warning: Self harm, Bullying

Ship: ShinKamiBaku (never wrote this relationship before and I enjoyed writing it)

"Kaminari... you need to wake up."

I lazy open my eyes to find that I'm now in Shinso's bedroom with Bakugou sitting on a chair. One look at the clock tells me 20 minutes have passed.

He hesitates before talking. "I need to know why."

"We need to know why." Bakugou corrects. I look down.

Do I even know why?

I mean, I know why I started. Some people said I was so dumb that I should slit my wrist, I got curious and tried it. But why did I continue? It calming, sure but that's not it. It's like I have a weird longing for cutting.

"Kaminari..." I feel Shinso rub my leg and I hear the mattress creak when Bakugou sits down next to me. "I know this is hard but we need to understand so we can help you."

"But what if I don't want help?" I speak without thinking and as soon as the words leave my mouth I regret it.

Bakugou lets out a noise that's sounds like a choked back sob. "I-I don't fucking care if you don't want help. You are getting it." His words don't contain his usual bite. He sounds too weak to be the Bakugou I know.

I stay silent.

Shinso lets out a shaky breath. "How about this, we try to figure out why and you tell us if we are right or wrong. Can you do that?"

I weakly nod my head.

Bakugou starts. "Are you depressed?"

I shake my head. I don't think I am.

"Do," Shinso hesitates. "Does someone at home hurt you?"

My eyes widen. "What?! No!"

He lets out a breath. "I'm sorry for asking but I just had to make sure."

I nod my head again and look back down.

"Is it for a weird form of control?" Bakugou asks only to get a glare from Shinso for calling it weird.

I shake my head. No.

Shinso's voice softens. "Are you doing it to cope with something?"

"Eh- Kinda?" I reply, trying to be honest.

Bakugou frowns. "Cope with what?"

I shake my head and lower my voice to a quiet whisper. "Nothing. Just every day stress. I think that's what it became after a while."

I see them both tense. "A while." They both know this wasn't a one time thing for sure now.

"Did some fucking extra tell you to cut? Is that why you started?" Bakugou hits it on the dot.

"I w.. ......." I mumble.

Shinso rubs my leg comfortingly. "Speak up please."

I take a shaky breath in then out. "T..They said it so much. I-I just wondered what if felt like."

"WHO?! TELL ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW WHO SAID THAT TO YOU!!" Bakugou yells standing up. I let out a whimper.

Shinso talks with a firm voice. "Sit back down. Right now. You're scaring him."

"LIKE HELL IM GOING TO SIT DOWN AFTER HEARING SOMEONE FUCKING TOLD KAMINARI TO CUT HIS WRIST!" He shouts back.

Fear consumes my heart and I quickly crawl into Shinso's lap for protection. I let out a sob and hold his shoulders with a firm grip. He wraps his arms around me protectively.

"You can leave if your not going to calm down. Kaminari is literally shaking because of you!" He raises his voice towards the end and I somehow manage not to flinch. He is right, I'm shaking.

I hear the sound of someone flopping on to the bed in a sitting position. I flinch and Shinso rubs my back comfortingly. Eventually I calm down enough to crawl back off his lap but grab his hand so I'm still touching him. I grab Bakugou's too.

"Now that we know why we need to know how long." Shinso says in a sweet voice.

I shake my head. "P..Please no. You'll be m-m..mad!"

He squeezes my hand and gives me a sad smile. "No I won't. I'm proud of you for telling us what you have so far and I'll only be more proud when you tell me this too."

"I don't say it enough but you are strong Kaminari. And you telling us this only proves how fucking strong you are." Bakugou adds.

I look down at the bed sheets. "Please don't be mad."

"I promise." Shinso and Bakugou both say together and I weakly nod my head.

"The c..comments started at the beginning of high school. L-Last year." I see a look of devastation cross both there faces. "I..I ignored them but after that small break in November t-they seemed to be more persistent. I-I was only going g to try it once! I..I promise!" Sobs start to leave my lips towards the end and I'm brought into a hug with Bakugou.

Shinso stands up. "I need to go check your room Kaminari. I promise to be right back."

I shake my head. "N..Nothing is in th-here."

Bakugou hugs me closer to my chest. "We can't trust that right now. We need to make sure you are safe."

A sob exits my lips as I hear the door open then shut. They don't believe me. "It's not that we don't trust you, because we still fucking do, we just don't want you to be hurt anymore, okay? We'll look after you from now-fucking-on. If you want to cut, come to one of us instead. Please." The last part comes off borderline desperate but he doesn't care.

I nod my head as sobs continue to exit my lip. Bakugou shifted our position so we can lay down and started to brush through my hair. I leaned into him and slowly calmed down. Once I was halfway asleep I heard the sound of Shinso coming back in to the room but was too tired to focus on it. I slowly fall asleep to the sound of my boyfriends quietly talking. My two loving boyfriends.