Preview: Some quirks have a side effect that causes pain. Some more then others.

Warning: Panic attack, being used

Ship: ShinKami

"TWO MILLION VOLTS!" I shout as I let the electricity travel through my entire body. Every place it touches pain flows through but I ignore it. I need to do this so I can show my classmates that I deserve to be in this class as much as them.

My head feels blurry and I hear laughter. I overused my quirk again. Great.

"Whey~" I say as I give my classmates a thumbs up so they know I'm alright. I feel a light zap but ignore it. Whenever I go into "Whey Mode" as Jirou likes to call it, I can't really control my quirk so I just repeatedly use it against myself as if it's my last defense mechanism.

"How did he even get into this class?"

"He's so stupid."

"If he wasn't stupid him being a pervert wouldn't be so funny."

"I wish he could get traded out for someone better."

"Even when he's not like this he's just as dumb."

Everyone thinks because I'm in this mode that I can't hear them or remember anything when I'm back to normal but I can. It hurts to hear them say all this negative stuff but it's all true so it doesn't mater. I wish that they didn't think of me like this but like I said, it doesn't mater.

After about an hour I'm back to normal in class, cracking jokes, playfully flirting, acting dumber then I am, and acting happy.

"Hey Kami, charge my phone." Mina says. I open my mouth to reply but she just sticks he charger in my mouth and I hear a little ding telling me her phones charging. Sure she didn't ask but I'm fine with it. After her the whole squad does the same thing along with a few others like Jirou and Uraraka. It hurts to move the wats through my body, especially when phones sometimes give a little feed back of the electricity and I am charging so many at once but it's fine. I can handle it.

By lunch over half the phones are fully charged because I pushed my self. I feel drained and my quirk keeps zapping me with more and more force but it's fine.

"The hell Dunce Face! My phones only at eighty six!" Bakugou yells at me.

I finch. "I-I'm sorry. It's hard to charge them all-"

Sero interrupts, "Don't do a stupid excuse Kami. We all know that you can easily charge our phones and it's not like it takes anything out of you." At least that's what you think.

"Ha ha, your right. Sorry." I rub the back of my neck just as a bolt passes though my fingers. I hide my reaction.

We head to lunch and we all grab food. When I grab mine I accidentally brush the finger of the cook and zap him. I give him an apologetic look as he glares at me. Another person to hate me, oh well. The more and more into lunch we get I find it harder to hide the pain I'm going though and keep up the smile. There making fun of me like always but today it seems like I can't take it. After another person make a joke about me being a pervert I snap.

"I have to go. See you later." I say through gritted teeth and walk away before anyone could reply. I'm not a pervert, I know the difference between flirting and forcing myself onto someone.

I walk upstairs as everything that they ever said about me comes to my head.

Stupid.

Ugly.

Useless.

Annoying.

Pervert.

Never going to be a hero.

Bad friend.

I wipe the tears that are flowing from my eyes as my breathing quickens. Even with the rapid pace I feel as if I can't breathe. I open the door to the roof and walk out with my fingers digging into my scull. I pace across the roof trying to breathe but not being able to.

"Hey! What are you doing up here?" I freeze and wipe away the tears and force on a smile to hide my pain. I still can't breathe but I'll act like I can.

"Hey!" I say with the fakest smile I have but I didn't really have time to prepare for someone to see me.

"What are you doing up here? Aren't class 1A suppose to be down stairs showing off how 'heroic' their quirks are to everyone." Hitoshi Shinso, a student from class 1C, asks with clear annoyance.

Look, even someone you have never talked to thinks your annoying and useless.

With out warning I break and let out a loud sob. My knees buckle and I fall to the floor. My breathing worsens as my quirk acts up and continually shocks and hurts me making my sobs grow louder. I just want everything to stop. I need everything to stop. Please.

"Oh my god! I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean-" I cut him off by shaking my head. I just need it to stop. He should just turn around and leave me like everyone else does.

I hear the sound of his feet scratching the gravel but not because he walked away. He crouched down in front of me with concerned eyes and gently places a hand on my cheek in hopes of making me look at him. My quirk goes off causing pain to go from me to him and he yanks his hand away. I sob louder.

"I'm sorry!" I shout as another round of colts go through me.

He smiles understandingly. "It's fine, I'm fine. But what's wrong with you?"

I shake my head and place a smile on my lips. I look up at him with pain in my eyes and tears streaming down my face. "I'm f-fine." My voice cracks and I start sobbing all over again.

He quickly pulls me towards him and I panic. I feel him wince ever time a shock I can't control goes through my body. He has me in his lap with his arms wrapped around my body rocking me slowly.

I attempt to push him away. "N-No! I'll hurt you!"

He just places a hand on the back of my head and directs it to his shoulder. "Shh, it's okay. I'll be fine. Just let it out." I push him repeatedly but give up. Once I do I wrap my arms around his body and let it out.

All the pain from my quirk. All the pain from my friends judgement. All the pain from my own judgement. All the pain. I let it all out.