Preview: Ondine's Curse really sucks. β𝐫𝐄ᵃ𝕥𝓱ᵉ

Warning: Manual breathing, depressed Kami, real illness, some erasermic, and made me feel bad

Hello, my name is Denki Kaminari.

Breathe

I'm a sixteen year old boy just trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

𝐵𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉𝒽𝑒

I try to be a happy person but honestly it gets hard. My depression doesn't this help any.

𝔹𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕙𝕖

Oh, yeah. I almost forgot to add something.

Ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ

I have something called Ondine's Curse.

ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ

It means that my body won't automaticity take in breaths like a normal person. I have to constantly remind myself to take in a breath or else I'll die.

B⃣ r⃣ e⃣ a⃣ t⃣ h⃣ e⃣

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I play with the neckless around my throat. My dad doesn't like that I wear it because I already have a hard enough time with my oxygen supply but to me it's a reminder.

🄱🅁🄴🄰🅃🄷🄴

I'm laying down in my bed waiting for my fathers to come home. It's boring when I'm alone.

🅱🆁🅴🅰🆃🅷🅴

I'm not really alone. I have a special needs cat so that way if I forget to breathe he can remind me. His name is thunder.

Bᵣₑₐₜₕₑ

I'm a medical miracle really. I should be dead. Most people with my condition do die. I'm lucky to be alive although it isn't much of a life.

B R E A T H E

I sit in a room all day and can't focus on anything but my breathing. I have a heart monitor attached to me along with several other machines. The only people I ever see is my doctor and my parents with the occasional nurse or two.

ᴮʳᵉᵃᵗʰᵉ

I wish I could meet someone other then them. Don't get me wrong, I love papa and dad it's just...

B⃞    r⃞    e⃞    a⃞    t⃞    h⃞    e⃞

I want to have a friend that isn't my family. I want someone to care about me because they want to. Because they like me for me.

Ⓑⓡⓔⓐⓣⓗⓔ

I hear the door open downstairs and my papa calls out to me. "Denki! We are home!"

A smile slips on to my face.

Shit. I forgot to breathe.

B̶̡̹͕̯̝͇̰̗̭̚r̸̛̺̓̒̓̌͑͂̕͝͠é̴̟̝̥̩̐̿͗͗̌̕a̷̢͖̙̖̜̺͆̈̏̍͐̊̅͝t̵̛̘͇̬͔̟̘͈̝̂̈́ẖ̸̛̞͗̓̉̽̓̏̆̀e̵̡̢̡̙̦͉̻͋̈̇͝ͅ

I cough but get in my breath. Good. That was scary.

Bɾҽαƚԋҽ

Within seconds my fathers are upstairs and at my door. I smile at them as papa comes to sit next to me and dad checks the machines.

乃尺乇卂ㄒ卄乇

"How was your day?" Papa asks me.

Ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ

Breathe "It was okay." Breathe

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He opens his mouth to reply but dad cuts him off. "Has this been off all day?!"

B♥r♥e♥a♥t♥h♥e

I look over to see one of the most important machines off. The one that helps me breathe with out thinking about it. Thank goodness I didn't fall asleep today like I almost did.

вＲ𝓔𝐀ŦђＥ

He fixes it and I test it.

It's not as strong as a breath but it's good enough for me to be able to breathe when I'm asleep but it's best if I keep manuals breathing.

B͓̽r͓̽e͓̽a͓̽t͓̽h͓̽e͓̽

Breathe "I'm sorry." Breathe

𝕓𝕣εค𝔱нᵉ

"It's okay. It just scared me." He says with a smile before sitting down beside me.

Ｂ𝐫Ⓔ卂ｔħ𝑒

I smile at my fathers. They are both high school teachers. Something I will never be able to go to. I don't even know most simple math since it takes too much of my focus to do.

вяⒺ𝒶ⓣ𝔥ᗴ

"You hungry?" Papa asks after a while of silence. I stiffen up.

仮嵐艶

It's not that I'm not hungry, I'm starving. It's that I have to have a feeding tube and those are awful. It also is hard to focus on my breathing since I can only breath through my nose durning that time.

вяєαтнє

Breathe "Do I have to?" Breathe

B̶r̶e̶a̶t̶h̶e̶

Dad stands up and starts grabbing the stuff for the feeding tub and papa grabs my hand. "It won't be that bad. I promise."

ᗷᖇEᗩTᕼE

But the thing is that it is that bad. I feel tears start to prick my eyes and papa places a gentle kiss on my forehead.

𝔟𝓻𝕖αтℍ乇

I can't cry because when I cry I can't breathe and when I can't breathe I panic and- Shit. I'm crying.

ǝɥʇɐǝɹᙠ

A small sob passes my lips and I feel my throat close up. The ripple affect I was afraid of happens.

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"Shh, it's okay. Your okay." Papa says while leaning his hand on my chest. He does this when ever I freak out so he can feel my breaths since it's harder to see them.

乃尺乇ﾑｲん乇

Dad comes back with the tube. He frowns at my tears. He hates when I'm upset like every parent is.

BЯΣΛƬΉΣ

"Just breathe through your nose. The quicker I get this in the quicker I can get it out." Dad say. The doctors trained him how to use the tube so they didn't have to come everyday.

B̷r̷e̷a̷t̷h̷e̷

He sticks it down my throat and I freak out even more.

"Your okay."

I can't breathe.

"You are doing so well."

I can't breathe!

"You need to take a breath trough your nose Kaminari."

I CAN'T BREATHE!

B̶̡̹͕̯̝͇̰̗̭̚r̸̛̺̓̒̓̌͑͂̕͝͠é̴̟̝̥̩̐̿͗͗̌̕a̷̢͖̙̖̜̺͆̈̏̍͐̊̅͝t̵̛̘͇̬͔̟̘͈̝̂̈́ẖ̸̛̞͗̓̉̽̓̏̆̀e̵̡̢̡̙̦͉̻͋̈̇͝ͅ

I close my eyes right as the buzzing sound fills the room. I force myself to breathe through my nose.

ᏰᏒᏋᏗᏖᏂᏋ

I hate this.

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I hate my life.

Ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ

Then why don't you just stop breathing?

B̶̡̹͕̯̝͇̰̗̭̚r̸̛̺̓̒̓̌͑͂̕͝͠é̴̟̝̥̩̐̿͗͗̌̕a̷̢͖̙̖̜̺͆̈̏̍͐̊̅͝t̵̛̘͇̬͔̟̘͈̝̂̈́ẖ̸̛̞͗̓̉̽̓̏̆̀e̵̡̢̡̙̦͉̻͋̈̇͝ͅ

I take in a frantic breath trough my nose. Like I said, my depression doesn't make anything easier for me.

（仮嵐艶）

They finally take it out after telling me how proud they are of me. How strong I am.

฿ⱤɆ₳₮ⱧË

But it's hard to feel strong when you can't even

B R E A T H E

Poor KAMI!!! This made me sad.

I don't know much about this disease so don't quote me on anything! I just saw something about it in a book (a "real" one aka hard copy) and decided to write Kami with the disease because my baby can never be happy if I'm the writer.

Till Next Time
Meowz~