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chapter thirteen: "I still appreciate how you think that way of me, Ally, you know you love me."

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The next day I arrived to school just in time as always. As I was walking over the parking lot I heard someone call my name. I turned around, searching for the person who could have yelled my name. And there he stood, the one and only Justin Bieber. He was jogging towards me, a grin spread across his face. I couldn't help but smile at the sight of him. He was wearing some black leather pants and a white t-shirt which really was showing off not only his muscles but his tattoos too. As he reached me he pulled me in a big hug which was totally unexpected. I was stunned for a second, but quickly hugged back.

"Hey Ally." Justin said his grin even wider, as we pulled away from the hug. I smiled at him, looking at his face, the shades once again covering his eyes. I must admit, that still annoyed me cause in fact I like seeing his eyes and not those stupid shades. I mean no one knew what he was looking at with those shades on. He could be looking at anything. Justin chuckled and wrapped his arm around me as we began walking towards the school building together. He had this familiar amused expression on his face, from which I knew he had read my thoughts. Just like always.

"Hey Justin, I probably should go find Hannah, so um... See you in class?" I asked, keeping my stare on him.

Justin nodded, although his expression seemed to sadden a bit - judging by the way his lips twitched downwards for a second or two. However, he let go of my waist and just as I was walking away, he leaned down to plant a quick kiss on my cheek. I felt my cheeks flush and I quickly turned away from him.

"See you in class, shawty." Justin said and then I could hear him walking away from he. Jesus Christ the effect he has on me, you could think that I like him or something. I shook my head at my thoughts, as I began to look for Hannah. I hadn't talked much to her yesterday, thanks to Justin. Although I did have great fun with him yesterday - except for the part of him yelling at me that is. He is a sweet guy though, although at first he does seem to be an annoying, self-centered player.

"I still do appreciate how you think that way of me Ally, you know you love me.' Justin's voice was heard from somewhere, but he was nowhere near me. So I guess he spoke into my mind or some shit like that. How does he even hear my thoughts if he's nowhere near me? There's so much about him that I want to know, so much more to find out.

After a few minutes I spotted Hannah at her locker, stuffing her back in it. Her hair was up in a messy bun and she was wearing white jeans and a blue sweatshirt. She didn't notice me cause her back was facing me. I walked over to her and then flung my arms around her, hugging her from behind. She screamed slightly and swatted my arms away. But as soon as she turned around, a smile appeared on her face.

"Hey girl, haven't heard of you since two days ago!" She exclaimed, now pulling me in a hug.

"Yeah..... I've been doing some stuff" I said, smiling at her. She playfully wiggled her eyebrows at me, grinning in a knowing way.

"Oh with that Bieber kid, huh?" She smirked at me - which only reminded me of Justin because he's always smirking. Jeez, everything seems to remind me of him. I just can't keep him out of my mind which is bad because he knows that and will think I like him and I don't even know if I do.

"Umm... Yeah." I said, biting the inside of my cheek nervously. Hannah winked at me, and that just made me more nervous. God now she's thinking that there's something going on between Justin and I.

"Is there something going on between the two of you? I mean I've seen the way you look at him." Hannah said, once again wiggling her eyebrows in such a silly way it only made me laugh. She had a point though - I do look at Justin quite a lot and it seemed to always be a admiring way. But hey you would too because he is the hottest thing that's ever walked on earth.

"Nope, nothing going on between us two. Just doing this project together and we're sort of.. friends I guess." I said, but Hannah didn't look too convinced. She eyed me suspiciously and I tried to hide the slight blush that was creeping onto my cheeks.

"You know, I wouldn't be so sure about that. And you know why? Cause you're head over heels for that boy, Ally." Hannah stated, and I think that part of it may be true. But only part of it.

"No really. There's nothing going on between us." I said, and then heard the bell ring. I had to go, because I couldn't be late for class. That would result in detention - and that would result in my parents being mad at me for being late. And I'd probably get grounded. Hannah didn't have this class with me - history - so we said our bye's and agreed to see each others again at some point during school. I hurriedly ran to history class, only to see Justin leaning against the door frame, waiting for me with a small smile on his face. He had his shades on like he always did at school, and as soon as my footsteps - or in Justin's case my thoughts - were heard. He turned to look at me.

"Oh hey, shawty." He smirked. I rolled my eyes, playfully glaring at him. He shook his head chuckling, and in the blink of an eye he had wrapped his arm around my waist. I felt my cheeks heat up a little as I felt his arm around me, pulling me closer to him. And like that we walked into class, girls immediately staring at me jealousy all over their faces. I bit my lip nervously, as Justin led us to the very back of the class, where were two empty seats. As we both sat down, Justin released his arm from around my waist. I looked at him, with a puzzled look on my face.

"Why'd you do that?" I asked, causing Justin to smirk. Oh lord Jesus, what could he have on his mind.

"I gotta show them guys that you're my girl right?" Justin's words caused me to blush more than I ever had.

What did he mean his girl? I mean we aren't dating, he doesn't like me - I don't like him. I don't know what goes on in his mind but in a way I like- Stop Ally, remember - he can read your thoughts.

Justin looked at me, his head tilted a bit to the left. He bit his lip, and his eyebrows were furrowed. He never took those shades off though. Such a shame, I'd want to see his eyes for once. Not those shades.

"You want me to take these off?" Justin asked, pointing at his shades. I nodded and right at that moment Justin took his shades off, leaning closer to me. His eyes were a dark brown as they began to gaze into mine, his lips were parted slightly. I could feel his breath against my lips as his lips were just inches away from mine. We were so close, so damn close. But right then Justin blinked his eyes, and pulled away from me, putting his shades back on. I furrowed my eyebrows, wondering why he pulled away so suddenly. Justin didn't look at me for a while, he just stared straight ahead at the teacher. I tried talking to him multiple time during the class, but he wouldn't respond at all or even look at me. And to be honest, as I sat there, waiting for the last five minutes of class to be over I felt nothing but hurt. I was hurt by the way Justin was treating me today. At first he's all nice and friendly and then, out of the blue, he completely ignores me like I'm some stranger.

Class finally ended, and I felt like I had to get out of there as quick as possible. I needed some time to myself so I could think of what just happened between Justin and I. He still hadn't even looked at me and the fact he was ignoring me like this hurt me like hell. I thought I actually was being nice to him, and that we were even some kind of friends. But there he goes treating me all nice and the next second acting like I'm not around like I'm just a stranger, someone meaningless to him. I stood up from my seat, gulping down the lump that had formed in my throat and grabbed my bag. I didn't even know why I was so hurt about his situation. I mean I haven't even known Justin for that long. But somehow him ignoring me hurt me a whole lot. And that is because I care for him - a lot. I guess he doesn't care for me then as much as I thought he does.

I bit my lip and slung my bag over my shoulder, about to start walking. I shoot Justin a quick glance, he was still in his seat, gathering his stuff together. And just like during the whole class, he didn't look at me even once. I sighed and turned my heel, about to leave the classroom as I felt someone grab my wrist. I turned around, seeing Justin there, holding onto my wrist.

"What do you want Justin?" I asked, sighing. Justin looked at me, and he pulled me out of the classroom and through the school halls. He finally stopped, as we were at a empty part of the hallway. He pinned me to the wall, and at that moment I couldn't help but feel a little scared. But what I mostly felt was sadness and hurt. I was hurt about him ignoring me the way he did and I felt sad about it too. I don't even know what I did wrong back there, but I want to find out. Justin kept me pinned to the wall, I was unable to move. I watched his every movement, while biting my lip nervously. I wanted to ask him so badly why he was ignoring me in class. Why he at first leaned so close, like he was going to kiss me and why he ignored me after that. I wanted to ask him why he was acting like this. But I didn't dare. I was afraid I'd anger him - I probably did anyways in class because he was ignoring me like the way he was.

"Ally, look... I.. I'm sorry." Justin finally whispered, pulling his shades off. What I saw next shocked me completely. His eyes were not dark brown or bloody red. They were a light honey brown color. And those eyes were filled with regret and sorrow.

I gulped, knowing that I was probably the cause of that. Then again - I think he regrets the way he acted towards me in class. At least that's what seems most likely. Justin ran a hand through his hair, seeming clearly nervous. I didn't dare move, cause he clearly had something else to say.

"Justin... Why did you ignore me back in class?" I asked quietly, looking past Justin to the window. Outside it was a beautiful day; the sun was shining and the sky was clear blue.

Justin didn't speak anything for a while, all I could hear was students yelling from somewhere far away and Justin's steady breathing. I looked down, fiddling with my fingers nervously. Justin sighed, before finally speaking:

"I'm sorry. I just- I can't do this. I can't be around you Ally."

I looked at him shocked, what did he even mean by that? Earlier today and at the beginning of class he seemed perfectly fine. He even told me that 'he has to show them guys that I'm his girl'. I don't get him and in all honesty the words he just said hurt me more than any words that have been said to me ever before.

"W-What do you mean?" I whispered, my voice shaky. I felt my eyes sting. No, I'm not going to cry. Why am I even acting like this? It's not like I like him or that we're together or anything like that. But what he just said hurts me more than anything has ever hurt me.

"I mean, that we wouldn't hang anymore - and we should do the project here, in the library. I can't be seen with you." Justin spoke, and I found my eyes filling with tears. I can't be seen with you.

Can't be seen with you.

I can't be seen with you.

Those words kept repeating in my mind over and over again and I could feel my heart break more and more each time those hurtful words repeated in my mind.

"F-Fine." I managed to croak out, almost choking on my own words. I tried my very best to hold the tears back- I didn't want to cry in front of him. Justin sighed heavily, stepping aside from in front of me. I was quick to get my feet into movement. I had to get away from him as quick as possible. Before the tears would start falling. But it was no use. As I was starting to walk away, a single tear trickled down my cheek. As I shot Justin one last glance, I saw his lips parted, his light brown eyes filled with sadness and sorrow. But who am I kidding? He doesn't care. He never did. He just hung out with me to make it seem like he actually cared only to tell me he can't be seen with me or be around me in the next. He did it to break me - to hurt me.

"Ally.... I'm sorry." Justin spoke, his voice quiet and a bit raspy. I just shook my head.

"Forget it Justin, you told it to me yourself. You can't be seen with me." I let out a strangled whimper as another tear fell down my cheek. I tried to stop crying, but it was already too late. I couldn't help it anymore - tears were endlessly streaming down my face, as I pushed Justin aside and ran off. I couldn't believe him. I thought he was different - well, despite the fact that he was a demon - I thought he actually cared and that he wasn't just some dick. I actually thought he wasn't a player. But I guess I was dead wrong. He was just like everyone else, he hurt me just like every other guy in the past. I ran out of school. At this point, I didn't care about anything. I'll just say that I didn't feel so well or something - which would be true.

I felt completely heartbroken. And what was odd about it, was that we weren't together. We aren't even friends for that matter. But the way he was nice to me at first made it seem like we were. Like I meant something to him. All that 'you're so different Ally' talk was probably what he tells every girl. I hiccuped, wiping my eyes, although it was no use. New tears kept falling constantly and my vision blurred.

He made me feel special, only to shut me out and make me feel like nothing.

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