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Hey hey everybody!

Oml, I had such a writing block for some of these requests and like, I'm so sorry for that haha.

Another thing is that if you like Susie, you can check out my other book if you like haha. Thank you all for being patient haha-

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When you moved into town, you looked around. Everyone was happy. Too happy, that it kind of hurt your eyes. You couldn't see what they were so happy about, they lived in a small town, everybody knew eachother, it was basically hell for you.

Well, atleast there were trees when you felt like ending what had caused you to be sad in the first place.

Yourself.

Your father smiles at you, your poor father. Having to deal with you. Having to live with you and your worthlessness. You know that he was sad also, but you didn't know why for.

Of course you did, stupid. It was you. You're the reason why every one is sad.

"Y/N, you have to take your antidepressants before you go. Your lunch is in your bag already. Did you do your homework?" Your father empties out two pills from the brown see through bottle, and with a glass of water, he gives it to you.

You didn't want to take it, but you did anyway, your father watching you carefully so you actually take them. Your E/C eyes look down at the glass, watching the water disappear, feeling the pills go down your throat in a swift motion. You shudder, your eyes closed tight for a quick second, taking in the antidepressant aftertaste because you can never seem to take them before they melt on your tounge.

Your father smiles a soft smile and takes the glass from you and pets your head. "I'll drop you off to school. Come on now, dear." You follow him, your eyes looking down at your feet. Your eyes dizzy, but yet focused. You feel droused in sadness, but you also revelled in it. You smiled to the ground, giving yourself some sort of hope.

The winter air seeped into your hoodie that you were wearing, so you put up the hood, hoping that it would somehow shield you from the cold. It did, for some time. The trees were all maple, so their leaves had left them for the season, not yet did you see any evergreen trees. The footpath, grey and untouched, yet etched with a light coating of snow.

You look up at the sky as your father walks you to school. You feel a type of energy, and then a sharp pull on your wrist. You look down.

The string you see disappears, and leaves an acute cut, cutting deep into your forearm. You look at it, wondering why that happened, but never questioned it. You know that you'd get the answer soon enough. It's how the world worked, and you hated it.

After your father hugging you for a good long time, and then talking to the teachers and giving them the pill bottle, explaining what to do. He leaves, and you wave at him, kind of pissed off that you couldn't lie to your teachers that you don't need the pills. Ms: Toriel and Dr: Alphys smile at you, their features showing signs of deep concern. Your arm stung, but they would think wrong if you told them, so you didn't.

You never cut on your forearm, but how were you supposed to explain that? Nobody would believe that. And even if they did, they wouldn't care enough to show it.

You were shown to your locker by Ms Toriel. She then smiles and tells you that you can come to her if you need to talk about anything. You smiled and thanked her for the offer you knew damn well you would never take. As you put away the books you don't need for your first class, you feel the sharp sensation again.

"Ah, shit!" You hear someone else say. You feel the sharp motion of the strong string on your wrist and you yelp in pain. You look back and see her. Susie.

The school bully and monster that you somehow respect in this hollowed out town. She looks at you, her wrist also cut deep. Well, you didn't know whether she was looking at you since her eyes was covered by her long dark brown bangs, but like, she was facing your direction, so it was a wild guess.

As she wipes away her fringe to show her surprised eyes, Your wild guess was deemed correct. " Hey, you felt that too, didn't you Y/N?" You were kinda surprised that she knew your name. But you didn't show how flattered you were on your face. You juat stood there, and nodded slowly. "Yeah, I've been feeling that for some time."

"Same here. I don't even cut but now this. I can't explain it to anyone." Susie says, looking at you. She looks up at the time, and looks back at you. "Hey, have you taken your pill for 12:00?"

And you stand there and smile at Susie. A sincere smile. So sincere and raw that it even scared you that you could accomplish something like that. You shook your head.

You shook away the question of how she knew of the time to take anti's, but you were thankful nonetheless.

She holds on to your non affected wrist, and takes you to class, so you could take your pill.

Maybe for once you had a reason to take them.