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Damon's P.O.V

"Is it painful?" Will asks, his eyes flicking between my canines and my eyes. "It looks painful."

I retract my canines, happy to put them away after sating his curiosity once more. His head tilts from side to side on my chest, chin resting on his hands as he looks up at me, awaiting an answer.

"It doesn't hurt after the first couple of times," I reply as I continue combing his hair with my fingers. "It may sting every now and then as I grow but nothing unbearable."

Will's expression turns at this, in that way it did every time I shared something about wolves that hinted towards pain.

He'd been curious these last few days, asking every question he could possibly think of. Some were expected, others hadn't even crossed my mind, but I answered them all with unbound honesty.

I didn't have anything to hide from Will.

Not because we were mates, but because it was Will. The only person to ever stay instead of running, listen instead of blaming and seeing instead of believing.

Will chose to try and understand parts of me I was yet to completely understand, so I couldn't lie to the only person who saw me in a light greater than the shadow I deserved.

I never thought I could be so completely open with another person, never dreamt that I could share my thoughts, my past, my habits without fearing judgment or retribution of some kind. But Will defied all my previously constructed fears, listening to everything I had to share with interest and an unprecedented level of understanding that honestly scared me.

Will... confused me.

I couldn't, yet, wrap my head around the way he tried to take it all in, his seemingly neverending acceptance to all things foreign to him. It went beyond the mate bond, his ability to calm the storms in me, to listen and act accordingly.

They were qualities I'd seen in betas, the calm reassurance of their presence for an alpha but also qualities which were said to shine through in lunas, the need to comfort.

Theo marked these moments as a build to the metaphorical wolf that rested within him, development to a strength that laid in him if he chose to follow the path that waited for him with me.

Will would be an amazing leader to our people, I didn't doubt that for a single moment. If he chose to take the role alongside me, he would be cherished by all, I knew he had it in him, even if he didn't know it himself.

"Were you born with them or they just appeared one day?" He continues when his discomfort as transparent as his eyes.

"Do you have a teeth fetish I should know about?" I tease, raising a questioning brow that makes him roll his eyes as he pulls my hand from his hair to bite a finger in warning. "You're more of a wolf than I am."

"Maybe I am." Will teases making me snort. "I could be, you said there are dormant bloodlines!"

"They are." I admit with a nod, trying not to laugh in his face as he watched me expectantly. "But the stench of human in literally soaked into your bones babe, there's no way you're mixed with anything outside of your species."

"You're hatred for 'my species' is both understandable and annoying." Will replies slowly as he bends my finger back to the point that I was wincing. "And stench?"

"No." I groan as he continues his attempt to breaking my index finger. "Stop, for fuck sake."

He lets go with a proud smile, pressing a kiss to the pulsing finger before resting his face into my palm.

My mate is a little psycho.

"You don't smell like them, you smell better," I admit making his eyebrows pull a little. Before he could question me on the area I was avoiding with maximum effort, I answer his earlier question. "The teeth grow in after a wolf's first shift, along with talons. Shifting usually happens at fifteen or sixteen."

Will, like Theo predicted, did not take to the talons. He freaked out and begged me to put them away, finding them troubling to look at. I couldn't really blame him though, they weren't the most pleasant to look at for a wolf, so I could only imagine what they looked like to a human.

"Why do I get the feeling that you were different in that aspect?" He asks, quirking a brow that makes me smile widely.

"Because I was," I admit, unable to hide the pride from my voice as I tilted my chin upwards a little. "I shifted at twelve, youngest shifter recorded in history."

"Boosting your ego another step up." He states while rolling his eyes, despite the smile that was tugging at his lips. "How was it? Doing it for the first time?"

I'd already covered the topic of shifting with Will but hadn't shown him yet, unwilling to overwhelm or scare him with something like a huge, white wolf in his kitchen. Will was intrigued the most by the shift, unable to understand how a human body could break itself down to take on a second form that was purely animalistic.

He had many questions about the shift and I answered them as best as I could, relying on Theo to answer the ones I couldn't possibly hope to.

I hadn't told Will about Theo yet, per his request. He wanted me to share that part of us after I told him we were mates.

I hadn't done that either...

"Well, it hurt like a bitch," I admit as I lean back a little, eyes casting themselves towards the ceiling as memories tossel themselves around my mind. "We didn't expect it at that age, so my parents hadn't thought to begin preparing for it. I was playing with Levi one second and the next, I was screaming on the floor."

"Why didn't anyone help you?" Will asks sounding pained by my words alone. "Couldn't they make it easier?"

"Touching a wolf during their first shift can stunt the process," I explain looking back to him. "Each bone is being broken down to something fine enough, like dust, to spread it and morph them into the bones of a wolf. To touch a wolf during that can alter that natural process, potentially distorting the form of the wolf after it carries on. There's also the possibility of stopping the process altogether and leaving a wolf unable to shift."

"That's so stupid," Will grumbles as if it were him facing such a fate.

"Yeah, it is." I agree with a chuckle. "That's why wolves are prepared beforehand on how to speed up the process and there's medication one can take in the coming days to ease some of the pain. I didn't get any of that, so I just had to push through it."

Will's face falls once more as he looks at me as if he were imaging the event in his mind and clearly, hating the result.

"It wasn't all bad, I had my parents there and my family around me supporting me." I offer in attempts to ease his pain only to spark my own. The memory a sharp reminder that things weren't the same as they once were. "When it was done, I came out with a white coat... just like my dad. He was really happy that we were the same, it was something for us to share because white coats are rare for wolves."

I feel myself sink into the memory, a smile pulling from me as I remember the way dad pounced on me the moment I'd stood up on four legs for the first time. Remembered the way he'd shifted and circled me over and over, helping me stand when my legs trembled beneath me.

Remembered the way he looked at me...

"Anyway, it wasn't all that bad," I say pulling myself angrily from a memory that never sparked agony through me as much as it did now. "I shift all the time now without any pain so don't worry."

Will studies me with sad eyes, the translucent greens fixed on me, somehow hearing the words I hadn't shared. He sits up them, resting his arms on either side of me to help him crawl his way up my body. Once we're face to face, his eyes hold mine for a moment longer before he hugs me.

The position was a little awkward, his body dragged behind him like a dead thing as he laid on top of me. His smaller arms circling my neck to hold me to him as he tucked his head beside my own. I smile nevertheless, wrapping my arms around his small waist as the scent of honeysuckle envelops me in a loving warmth that made the past's sting dulled enough for me to breath.

"You don't have to go back if you don't want to," Will whispers against me. "If it hurts this much, you don't have to go back."

I didn't even know how to begin to tell Will that that was not an option for me.

Will didn't understand that things weren't so simple as to never go back. For one, there was my family to consider. It hurt to go each day without seeing them, something I didn't think I could continue for much longer, no matter how much more it hurts to go back to what I ran from. And even if I could, I didn't want to... I missed my family even with the pain that awaited me by going to them.

Being alpha wasn't something I could run from and it definitely wasn't something I wanted to run from. I always wanted to be alpha of our pack, carry on the things my parents built and further them, that would never change.

"I know," I reply gently.

Will pulls back to see me, his eyes full with worry as he looks to me. Desperate to erase it, I lean forward to kiss him. He stops me, pressing his fingers to my lips as he watches me carefully.

"You said you were going back soon." He whispers, voice fragile as if it'd crack if he spoke any louder. "Do you know when?"

Will didn't want me to go.

I'd picked up on that fact easily since the record I'd made for him where I'd admitted to needing to go home, now that he understood the situation a bit more, he especially didn't want me to leave.

He saw my family as people who hurt me and didn't seem to favor them much in his mind, though this was subtle as he knew I loved them unconditionally. I appreciated the sentiment, but I didn't want him to see my parents the way he saw his. Or at least the way I assumed he did due to his lack of mentioning them ever.

"When you're ready to come with me," I reveal, struggling not to laugh at the shellshocked look he cast my way, jaw hanging at my words. I close his mouth with a finger below his chin, kissing him briefly when his face heated at the action.

"You want me to meet your family?" Will asks unsurely, both doubt and awe to be found in his tone.

"Yeah," I reply, letting my thumb brush his cheek as I studied him. "They'll love you and so will the pack, so when you're ready then we'll go."

"Okay." He mumbles, nibbling on his lip to try and stop his growing smile.

Unable to help it, I lean into him taking his lips in a kiss that makes him tremble within my grasp. He melts into me, pressing his lips to mine with a soft whimper as I let my fingers run up his back.

I groan angrily when he pulls back with a deep frown, eyes on fire with a level of anger that made me wince slightly.

"No teasing Damon." He groans, the reminder making me whine internally and a little externally. "If you're not going to carry it on, then don't you dare tease me."

"I didn't know that kissing counted as teasing," I reply only to receive another glare.

"Damon," Will basically growls making me raise my hands in surrender.

Will had tried on several occasions to take us further in this aspect of our relationship. Attempts that drove me absolutely mad with need and lust, making it that much harder to stop him every type.

I tried telling Will that I just wanted him to better adjust to the things I was sharing with him, about what I was and the world that came with that, before we went down that road. But Will didn't give a single fuck about any of that. Protesting that he was adjusted to the concept of me being a wolf and was 'tired of adjusting himself elsewhere'.

"It's not that I don't want to." I clarify yet again, trying not to die under his angry gaze. Everything inside of me twisting with discomfort knowing I was the cause of my mate's anger. "It's that I want you to know everything before we take that step forward."

Will's expression softens then, his anger slipping away for a moment as he began pouting without knowing that he was.

"It's physically impossible to cover every detail about a species," Will complains as more of a whine, his eyes holding mine seriously. "So why don't you stop being the perfect man and let me touch you."

Why do I get the feeling that he'll have more stamina than you in this department? - Theo questions wryly his tone playful enough for me to let the subtle jab slide.

"You know I want to, but not right now okay?" I reply making the light in his eye slip away before me, the sight making my heart drop instantly. "Will."

He drops his gaze, pulling his eyes from mine as he slides off of me and rolls onto the other side. He pulls onto his side, turning his back to me, his anger a physical thing that was tearing at my heart along with the sudden separation.

"Baby," I call pulling myself against him, I look over his shoulder but he just looks away. "I didn't mean to make you mad."

"I'm not mad." He grinds out, eyes still focused elsewhere.

He is clearly mad - Theo whispers

"I just don't want to rush things," I whisper, pressing a kiss to his shoulder, hands caressing his hips gently.

"I know." He replies softly, his eyes closing as he curls into himself.

Okay, operation Make Mate Happy Again, commence - Theo instructs seriously, pressing into me to fix it.

How? How do I explain to him without telling him that we're mates? We agreed to wait a few more days for him to accept the rest - I argue making him sigh in agreement.

Mates.

It wasn't easy to tell someone that they were your other half. That your soul was the other side to theirs and that you belonged together, supposed to live that fairytale life with the fucking happily, ever after too.

It wasn't something that could be overlooked or ignored.

It was something I always treasured as a wolf, my mate someone I loved before I even knew who they were. Now that I knew Will, I couldn't even dream of living a life without him. I couldn't even fathom rejecting him and didn't want to consider him doing the same.

I hoped that he wouldn't and knew him well enough to know that he wouldn't.

It didn't worry me as much as telling him about my world had, it was supposed to be the happy ending to everything I had to share with him. So I wanted to leave the mate stuff as the last thing to tell him. Wanted to tell him everything else first, so that he could make decisions on his own without worrying if he accepted or rejected them because we were mated. I wanted him to be honest with himself, to accept all parts of me and my world because he wanted to and not because he knew that we were mates.

I just wanted him to want us because he truly did, not out of obligation.

"Do you remember that time when w-we were...um.. ya know..." I start, words failing to rescue me as I recapped the moment my control slipped a fraction at the sight of Will on my bed.

"Made out and both spent the night with blue balls?" Wil deadpans, I groan at his bashfulness and bury my face into his shoulder to hide my oncoming blush. Will laughs a little at my reaction, taking pleasure as he always did at my inability to be as open as he was when speaking about sex.

"Anyway, remember how I asked you to take things slow?" I ask against his skin, carrying on, refusing to acknowledge my little hiccup. Will hums a little and I could just picture the smirk I knew he was wearing. "I asked for time because I almost lost control at that moment. It's hard for me sometimes to not use all my strength with you. As a wolf, I'm stronger than you and when we do things like that, my instincts push for me to take you in a more.... uncontrolled manner than I should."

"Sounds fun," Will replies with a shrug.

I pull up to look at Will, leaning over him so that he had to look at me.

"I'm being serious here," I say and his smile loosens a little. "I could hurt you if I'm not careful."

Will studies me for a long moment, eyes piercing mine with intent before he pushes me back. Sitting up completely before climbing up onto his knees to climb on top of me, I hold him to me as he sinks himself into my lap, straddling me without a second thought. Trying not to swallow my tongue at the feel of my mate in my grasp, I look up at Will as he keeps a tight grip on my shoulders.

"Are you going to have more control in a couple of days or weeks?" He asks with a raised brow. "Will you be able to ignore your strength in a month if we wait?"

Fuck.

"Not necessarily," I admit making his lips flatten. "But I just want to be careful."

"Which I appreciate," He starts as he pulls himself a little closer. "But we've been together for almost two months Damon and I'm at the point of not being able to look at you without getting hard."

My eyes dart between his parted lips and eyes as he breaths against me, the feel of his arousal pressing into me as he brought himself closer yet again. Electricity ripples through me as he rubs his ass against my erection, his small intake of air making my eyes glow as he grips on my shoulder tightens.

"We can start slow," Will suggests breathlessly, his lips hovering over mine enough to brush them teasingly. He continues to torture me as I pant against him, the scent and heat of his clouding my mind with need. "Let me make you feel good Damon."

"Will," I breathe out as he continues to rock into me at an agonizingly slow pace that made my eyes roll back, an insatiable heat grappling me at the feel of him (A.N - nobody is in heat, calm down).

"I want you, Damon," He whispers as he holds my gaze, pushing me down slowly by my shoulders until I was laying down. "Please."

Goodbye patience and self-control, I fucking tried.

I pull Will in for a kiss, his body electric against me from the force of it as he kisses me back with a small moan. His lips working to claim mine, his actions rough and untamed in a manner that made my canines begin to descend.

Will swipes his tongue alone the length of them, pulling a groan from my lips as I grip his hips. I push him down while I thrust upwards, his moans flowing easily as I grind our erections together, he rocks himself to match my movement as we chased the pleasure.

I bite at Will's lip, demanding entrance which he gives easily as he melts into me, parting his lips to allow our tongues to meet. He whimpers at the intrusion but doesn't pull away, body shivering as I licked my way into him, tasting all of him as I caress his hip with my fingers.

Digging them under his shirt to touch his soft skin, the contact passing shockwaves through me as I run my hand up his back, his reactions making my control waver.

Will pulls away from me all too soon, eliciting a groan of frustration which is immediately replaced by a moan as he begins kissing my jaw. Closing my eyes, I keep a tight grip on his waist with one hand, pushing him down to meet my thrusts as he made his way down my neck.

Will's mouth leaves hot, wet bruises across my skin as he kisses and licks at my heated flesh, sucking and biting every inch of me he had access to.

"Fuck." I groan as he sucks on my neck, nibbling on the area for a mate's mark, an unconscious act that pulled at the wolf in me.

Will moves down slowly, swiping his tongue over every dip and muscle that clothing didn't block, sucking my skin into his lips with small moans as he claimed my body with his lips.

My mind blurs as I let myself sink into the pleasure, the feel of him marking me in his own way blending perfectly with the feel of him grinding against me. The scent of his arousal thick in the room, he was wet with lust, his cock dripping with pleasure as he moaned into me.

I swipe my tongue across the open plain of skin he left open for me, the action making him moan as his hips jerked roughly into me. I smile and repeat the action, loving the taste of him alongside he intoxicating scent.

"Damon." Will moans as he trembles in my hold, his hands gripping me tightly as he met my movements with need.

My name on his tongue never sounded so fucking good, the sound almost completely coveting my thoughts as I bite down angrily on my lip, forcing myself not to flip us and drown him with as much pleasure as I could.

"You're so wet." I whisper, feeling his pants growing wetter against me.

"Ahhh!" Will moans as I thrust upwards, my grip on him rougher as I gave friction to us both, his cock hard and full against mine.

The thought alone made my mind go blank as I let myself be pulled further into Will's pleasure.

"I'm already close." Will admits making my pulse quicken. "Too close."

Will slows his motions suddenly, leaving me panting and lost as I stare at him. He sits up with a small smile that shouldn't have been nearly as innocent as it was.

"Want it to last a little longer." He explains after several breathes to calm himself, his voice managing to sound slightly apologetic.

Before I can gather my thoughts, Will slips his hand between us, palming my erection with his warm hand, making a shaky moan pull from my lips. I let one of my hands travel up his back, sweeping under his shirt to touch the skin there.

"Mhm." Will hums against me as I sweep my fingers over the skip, mapping out which areas made him shiver and which made him moan. Loving his every reaction as he began squeezing my length, groping me as if that belonged to him.

I guess it did now...

He adjusts his body slightly until he was straddling my left leg completely, letting him grind against me while he continued touching me with quick breathes.

I stiffen when he tugs at my zipper, pulling it down and unbuttoning me with ease, leaning down to pepper my neck with soft kisses to try and relax me a little.

"Is this too much?" Will asks against my ear, licking the shell while palming me through my underwear.

Goddess have mercy.

I barely manage a no as I swallow and hum my approval, the response making Will chuckle lightly as he pecks my cheek gently.

"You're cute when you get like this." He whispers making my jaw tick. "We can do that next time."

I smile gratefully at my perfect mate, who somehow knew I wasn't ready for that despite my inability to admit so.

I watch as Will tugs down his own pants until he's in his underwear, sliding himself into a position both between my legs and above one he presses our lengths back together again.

"This okay?" I ask worriedly as he begins rocking slowly.

I didn't want to disappoint my mate or not fulfill his needs, the thought was torturous to even consider especially with the amount of late nights I'd been pulling exploring how to make a human male feel good.

A lot more complicated that I assumed it to be.

"Yeah." Will answers, his eyes heavy with lust as he directed my hands back to his hips. He pulls himself as close to my ears as he can before whispering. "I like grinding."

When he looks back to see me blushing again he smirks, and I knew I'd already fucked myself for more of his loose tongue.

"Feeling another cock rubbing against your own, doesn't that feel amazing." He groans as he pushes down on me. "The rougher it is, the better it feels."

I-

Mouth dry and mind blank, Will laughs gently as he directs my hands to his ass. His eyes finding mine as he swiped a tongue over his lips.

"Just cause I'm on top doesn't mean that I want to top." Will teases making me jaw tick slightly.

Snapping out of my daze, I grip his ass firmly and bring him down to meet my rolling hips. Will's eyes roll with pleasure at the rough touch as I fill my hands with him, squeeze him while bringing my cock grinding against his, giving us the friction we desperately wanted.

"Ahh!" Will moans against me as he sinks down against me, resting himself against my chest. "D-Don't...nghh, don't stop Damon."

I raise my hips to meet his as I pull him down, body shivering with absolute pleasure as I take my mate's pleasure in every form. My mind filled with nothing but him as his moans continued pouring into my ears as I kneaded his perfect ass.

Loving the way the simple touch made him unravel within my grasp, I bite at his ear and suck it into my mouth to drive him absolutely crazy.

"You're cute when you get like this." I mock, smirking when he pulls back for me to see his eyes heavy with need.

Will opens his mouth to reply but I squeeze again, the rough touch taking the breath from him as he moaned again, his precum creating a wet spot in the front of his underwear that was way hotter than it should've been.

Unable to stop myself, I slip my hands beneath the last remaining fabric and take hold of his ass within my grasp. The direct touch sending fireworks exploding through me at every angle while Will cock jutted more precum.

For once the thought of tasting that precum didn't scare me in the slightest.

"Close," I warn, meaning to slow him down but the word only made his movements grow faster.

"Damon." Will moans as he throws his head back exposing his neck for me. I drag him roughly against me as I lean in to suck his Adam's apple, taking it between my lips and feasting on the area while Will begged for more.

I could feel my canines poking free, scraping at his skin, making Will whimper with need as he rocked forth to drag us closer to the edge.

"Damon!" Will calls making the last of my control snap free.

I flip us over and hold myself over Will with my arms as I took him against the mattress. Growls pouring from me as everything inside of me begged me to claim my mate. I could feel my eyes glowing but couldn't stop myself as I enjoyed the feel of my mate's hard cock.

My mate.

Will's eyes roll as he wraps his legs around me, caging me into him as pushed against him with little restraint. Leaning down I take lick a path up his exposed neck making him moan my name in the most beautiful way. I suck and scratch my canines against his skin, claiming him the only way I could for now.

"Ah! Damon!" Will moans as he clings to me, his nails digging into my shoulder as I felt myself approach release. "Damon, I-I'm..nghh...I'm cumming."

Will unravels beneath me, his body going tensing all over as he releases with a loud cry. His cock jumping against mine as I kept going until I was over the edge of falling apart with him.

The first taste of pleasure with my mate so great that I couldn't stop myself from still moving against him as our orgasm carried on. A series of moans cascading from his lips as he rocked into me, hips jerking as he whimpered, our body heaving together as we descend together.

I roll myself off of Will and take him with me so he was plastered onto my chest like how we began. Trying to catch my breathe and sense, I keep my arms wrapped around him tight.

"Holy fuck." Will breaths, cheek still pressed into my chest. "If dry humping gave me one of my best orgasms, then fucking is going to wreck me."

Will shakes above me as I begin to laugh, my body rattling with no control as my chest fills with joy and happiness.

I think I may love you...

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But plz remember I said with the schedule that if I missed and update, something obviously happened which can be expected. From illness to obligations, shit happens.

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