Ray's POV - Two Days Later

Katsu continues to ignore me and it really starts to bother me.

In class, Dad pulls up a video.

"Ray, that was very unprofessional of you." Dad says as he plays the video of me yelling at the two skanks for how they talked to my boyfriend.

I tch quietly, "they're lucky I didn't beat their asses." I say to Dad and Katsu is just in shock at the video.

I watch the video quietly and a news caster lady, says that I was not the woman they were expecting, she calls me vile and a bad person.

I just take it quietly, my anxiety starting to bubble.

Everyone watches me, not sure how I'm gonna react.

"I suppose I can't leave class, can I?" I ask Dad as I sit back.

"No." Dad says to me.

"Thought so." I say softly. "Whatever, it's not like I don't hear people say that about me all the time anyways." I say as I put my head in my arms. "Just let it roll off my back, people can have their opinions on me, it's not my business." I say and everyone is shocked.

"We thought you'd get pissed off at what she said, this is unlike you Ray." Mina says to me worried.

"I don't care anymore." I say and when classes end, I go see the school therapist and she's not helping me get through my issues at all.

"Hun, you just need to calm down and get a clear mind." She says to me.

I get fed up. "You know what, you aren't helping me, your not listening either, so fuck this and fuck off." I say to her and I leave the room, our session nowhere close to done, but she wasn't helping.

"You can't just storm out of a session, it's not gonna help you if you do that." Dad says to me.

"She wasn't helping to begin with. She wasn't listening and kept interrupting me while I was trying to vent, and I really want my old therapist back because at least I was getting somewhere, now I'm going in circles and actually back tracking too, because a lot of what my old therapist did, is starting to unwind after the week I've been having, and going to that lady, she's not helping me, and no one sees that. So either fuck off about me storming out, or try to see this in my view." I say to Dad and I head to the dorm house.

I go take a hot shower, just trying to relax and it's not working.

"Ray? Are you alright?" Mina asks worried as I sit on the bathroom counter in a sink, brushing my curly hair.

"No, but I can't cry, so it doesn't matter." I say to her and she hugs me tightly.

"I know you and Bakugou haven't been having a good few days, and I wish I could fix it, you two are amazing for each other, everyone can tell that you two did major growing these past few months since you've been around each other." Mina whispers, she's crying quietly.

I sigh softly and I turn around and I hug her tightly, her head on my chest as she cries softly. "It's ok Mina, don't worry too much, it's gonna be ok, it's not ok now, but I'm trying to fix it, it may not be working out well for me, but it'll get better. So don't worry on my behalf, everything eventually works out." I say to Mina gently.

"Your so nice." Mina whimpers softly.

I smile softly at that and I get her to cheer up and then I go back to brushing my hair.

When I'm done, I get changed into a pair of black leggings and a t-shirt with a running jacket.

I run for a while, hoping it'll clear my head a little, I don't stop for hours. I only go back to my dorm house when it's getting dark.

I head to my room, bypassing everyone, not really wanting to small talk.

"She's handling this, uncommonly quiet, I'm getting worried." Kiri whispers.

"Ray!" Izu calls as he follows me. I stop and wait for him. "Do you want to talk about what's going on with you and Kacchan?" Izu asks me.

I look at him, softer, since I know he just wants to help me, but I don't feel like talking about this, unless it's to Katsu and working things out with him.

I pet his head gently. "No. I'd rather talk about it with Katsu if he'd ever stop ignoring me, I've tried to talk about how I'm feeling, but this new therapist doesn't listen to me, so unless I'm talking about it with Katsu to work things out, I'd rather keep to myself about it, ok Izu?" I ask him gently.

Izu smiles at that. "Your a lot more honest about how you feel about things now Ray. I'll let you keep it to yourself." Izu says to me and he hugs me tightly.

I relax and I bury my face in his shoulder, hugging him tightly, I needed this from him. Just his acceptance in general was relieving to me.

After a bit, I step back and Izu grins and pets my head, which makes me smile softly. "If you ever want to talk to me Ray, then come find me and we'll talk." Izu says to me gently.

"Thanks Izu." I say to him softly and he grins.

I head up to my room and I feed Eve and I get her some fresh water. Eve purrs and she eats.

I get hunger pains and I realize I haven't eaten in a few days.

I try to snack on something, but I don't have an appetite. I just drink water and I do my homework.

I end up staying up all night, playing video games after I finished my homework.

I just keep my mind distracted from my thoughts as I go about my Friday.

I attend my classes and Katsu is watching me, but doesn't say anything to me.

After classes are over, I do training with Shinso and Dad and after that, I do my homework in my room and I go on another 4 hour long run.

When I get back, I take a hot shower and I brush my hair on the counter.

I then change into a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt.

I head up to my room and I get Eve her food and water.

I sit against my bed and I curl into myself.

I fucking hate this, so much. I hate myself right now, I hate my whole situation. I can't eat and I can't sleep. At this rate I'm gonna pass out unwillingly and I really wish I could get over this.

I look through my phone contacts and I still have Nora's number, I look at it for a moment before I decide to call Aunt may.

"Ray? Are you alright?" Aunt May asks me worried.

"Are you busy?" I ask her.

"Not at all, I was just reading." Aunt May says to me.

"I feel like shit." I say to her as I rub my eyes.

"Why? What's wrong?" Aunt May asks me.

"I can't eat and I can't sleep, I've been running for hours for the past two days, trying to clear my head. Katsu is really upset with me, and I tried to talk to him but he's not helping me fix our problem, I don't know what to do about the issue and I've been feeling like a shitty person. Everyone's negative words towards me are starting to get into my head I really don't know what to do. I'm sorry if I'm bugging you, but my current therapist doesn't listen to me." I say to Aunt May.

"Hey, it's ok to need to talk to someone Ray." Aunt May reassures me. "You need some good food Ray, but for now, try to eat something, tomorrow, come on over and I'll cook something for you and we can talk as you eat." Aunt May says to me. "Just keep talking to me Ray, I know your in pain." Aunt May says to me gently.

I keep talking to her and I tell her everything. From what happened between those skanks at the mall, to my invasive thoughts.

Aunt May gets me to relax and be able to breath and eat, even if it's just a sandwich.

"Thanks Aunt May, sorry for troubling you this late." I say to her softly.

"It's ok Ray, come on over tomorrow, we'll talk more. For now, try to get some rest." Aunt May says to me gently.

"Ok, goodnight." I say to her and she tells.me goodnight and I hang up.

I rub my face, just done with everything.

"I'll go talk to him, one more time, maybe it'll end different." I say to myself as I get up and I leave my room.

I head down to Katsu's room and I knock.

"Piss off Ray!" Katsu yells at me through the door.

"Just tell me what you want me to do, to fix things Katsu." I say to him as my forehead rests on his door.

The door opens and I look up at him and he looks majorly pissed off.

"I want you to fuck off, stop being so fucking naggy about this and just piss off for once in your life." Katsu growls quietly.

I feel genuinely hurt by that. "Ok, then I'll mind my own fucking business! If you want me to stop giving a shit about you, then fine! I'll stop! Just like before we became official, your problems, are no longer my business, I said it before, that this time, I won't care. I just thought I'd try in this relationship to fix things." I say to Katsu, just done now.

"Good. Piss off." Katsu growls and I take my promise ring off and I drop it.

"You can give this back to me, when you decide to stop being an asshole to me and work things out with me." I say to Katsu who glares at the ring and I leave.

I get to my room and I shut and lock the door.

"Tell me why I'm such a fucking idiot Eve?" I ask her as I sit on the floor. "I knew better than to trust my feelings in the beginning, I always knew better. I should have just locked away my feelings and distanced myself." I say to Eve quietly.

Eve sits on my lap as I cry.

"I ruin everything I get involved in Eve, everything." I whisper. "I need to stop being so fucking selfish. So many things probably would have been so much better, had I just died when Mom died Eve. Izu probably would have been better off, I wouldn't have fucked things up with Katsu this bad, hell he'd probably be better off too. Nora wouldn't have to constantly be protected from the league of villains. Dad wouldn't have the responsibility of a daughter, Izu probably could have helped Shinso a lot more than I ever will. Endeavor and his agency would have been so much better off without me." I whisper quietly.

Eve licks my cheek as I cry softly.

"That's a fucking lie!" Katsu yells as he slams something on my table.

I jump, spooked. "How'd you get in here?" I ask him, scared.

"Your balcony was unlocked." Katsu says annoyed and he sits in front of me, and he looks majorly pissed off.

"I'm sorry I fuck everything up." I whisper as I curl into my self as Eve hides in her cat tree. "You'd be a heck of a ton happier right now, had I just died a long time ago." I whisper.

Katsu grabs my shoulders and forces me to look at him. "No I wouldn't Ray. You know that somewhere deep down in your. These few months have been some of the greatest fucking months in my life." Katsu says to me pissed.

"And had I died a long time ago, you'd have a different girlfriend who wouldn't have fucked up so bad and you wouldn't have been so fucking pissed at her." I say to Katsu.

"Soulmates don't work like that Ray. When one dies, no one just instantly fills in for that spot and become their soulmate." Katsu says to me, gentler than before. "Your brother probably would have killed himself with all the bullying I probably would have put him through, your Aunt and Uncle, wouldn't have a new son without you, Hugo would have been left to rot in the foster system without a home if it weren't for you. Our class would be a lot more divided if it weren't for you. I'd be a hella of a lot more of an asshole right now if it wasn't for you, Endeavor probably wouldn't have survived that Black Nomu fight, Eri would have died, you Dad would have gone the rest of his life wondering what happened to you, your old therapist would have died from some other student's issue, you knew when to back off. You've turned that lazy purple bastard into a healthier, more active person. That old Lady you got her purse back from those robbers, she probably hasn't had anyone our age talk to her since she was our age, she's be a hell of a lot more lonely, that groundskeeper enjoyed talking to you, you have so many fans that agree with what you stand for Ray, don't you see any of that?" Katsu asks me.

I'm quiet. "Why are you here? I thought you hated me?" I ask him quietly.

"Goddamn it Ray!" Katsu yells as he gets up and I just curl into myself again. "I can't hate you Ray! You spent too much time in my head for that! I've been pissed off at you, yeah, but that's not your fault! None of this is, it's my fault because I hate pity! You bought me dinner when I was supposed to pay, you tried to talk to me and I hated that you made the first move on that end, all you do is try to help, that's all you do, everyday, all day, your constantly trying to help someone and it pisses me off." Katsu says to me.

I curl into myself even further and Katsu looks at my room.

"Have you even eaten? Your room should be more trashed than this after how long I haven't talked to you." Katsu asks me.

"I had a sandwich, earlier before I came to talk to you, Aunt May forced me to eat while I was talking to her." I say to him quietly.

I look up at Katsu and he looks worried. "Ray." Katsu whispers softly. "Is that the only thing you've eaten in the past week?" Katsu asks me.

"I tried to eat my dinner that I bought for me and you, because it was date night and I wanted to eat dinner with you at least, but that didn't work out, I didn't eat much of it." I say to him softly as I feel ashamed of my self, so I just stare at the ground.

Katsu stares at me and he sits next to me and he pulls me into his arms and holds me tightly. "God Ray, you look like you haven't slept in days either. I didn't realize I'd put you through so much emotionally stress to the point where you couldn't eat or sleep." Katsu says to me.

"I'm sorry." I whisper.

"I told you to stop apologizing to me a long time ago. It's not your fault. I was being the asshole, you just wanted to fix things." Katsu whispers. "Though your therapist should have been helping you." Katsu says to me gently.

"She doesn't listen to me. She won't let me vent without interrupting me and then she'll say things that I don't want or need to hear." I say to Katsu whose hold on me tightens.

"You need a new therapist then." Katsu whispers. "Just relax with me Ray, I'm not gonna blow up on you again." Katsu says to me gently and I hesitantly relax in his arms, burying my face in his chest, just hiding as he holds me. "Will you take my promise ring back Ray?" Katsu asks me quietly.

"Is that why you followed me?" I ask him quietly.

"I couldn't lose you Ray, I can't lose you, I saw how dangerously close I was to losing you forever based on my selfish actions. Had you not said what you had said, I would have taken that as you leaving me for good." Katsu whispers. "I'm sorry I've been such an asshole to you Ray. Please take my ring back." Katsu says to me.

I look up at him finally and he's crying. I take the ring and I slip it on my finger.

"I almost lost you." Katsu whispers as he holds me, he's crying into my shoulder.

"Hey, you know I'm always around." I whisper as I try to comfort him.

I put my hands on Katsu's cheeks, pulling his face up to look at me and I wipe his tears as I move in his lap, so that I'm straddling him. Katsu rests his head in my hands and he looks exhausted. "You haven't slept well, have you Baby?" I ask softly.

"No." Katsu admits softly. "I'm so sorry Ray for being such an asshole to you. I can't lose you. You make me whole. You make me feel like I can become the hero I dream of. You give me purpose." Katsu says to me.

"I'm not that amazing. I can barely take care of myself without you." I whisper.

"You were telling yourself that you'd be better off dead Ray because of how I've been treating you." Katsu says to me as he cries softly. "I got scared when you talked like that, because you don't talk like that, I knew I caused that to come out and it scared me. Because I don't know if you'd actually commit and kill yourself to hope things get better, or if you were just wishing you were dead." Katsu whispers.

I look at him softly. "I don't know either." I say softly and he looks up at me as tears fall down his cheeks. "Had you not interrupted me, I don't know where it would have gone." I admit softly. "I probably would have called Nora, and tell her to convince me to think different." I whisper.

Katsu rests his head on my shoulder and cries. "Please don't talk like that again. I don't want to lose you." Katsu whimpers softly.

I run my hand through Katsu's hair as I hold him. "Ok." I say softly and Katsu cries for a while and I end up breaking down when he starts whispering I Love You's to me, he just keeps whispering them as I cry quietly as he cries softly. "I don't want to lose you either Katsu." I whimper softly.

Katsu holds me tightly. "Then from now on, we talk through our issues instead of it progressing to this point again." Katsu whispers.

"Ok." I whisper quietly as I hold onto him tightly.
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