Hello my lovelies!

So I hope you all are happy with the previous ending chapter? I had planned a sad ending but than I was like no, my readers has already suffered enough with Shawn and Sana. So "happy" ending it is! <3

You know after updating chapter 27, I cried. Like really cried. It felt like I was losing a piece of myself. I don't even know why I am sharing this with you guys but yeah <3

This is a bonus chapter as I wanted to give you a piece of Shawns mind! Here you go! Lots and lots of love to each one of you! <3

I am as always short of words when thanking you so just know that you all have given a girl a lot of happiness! I wish you all the best in life <3

P.S. Anyone who can label the people in the pictures? :$

Love
Shona <3

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I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

- Uknown

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I guess you're wondering how life is after marriage? How things are going for me and Sana? Well, I guess you already know that we adopted Adam soon after our big fat wedding.

Then around a week after we flew to Maldives for our honeymoon, Adam stayed with his grandparents even though Sana insisted on bringing him with us. Rolling my eyes with a small smirk playing on my lips, as if that wouldn't be awkward.

Living with Sana is very different. Home is now actually filled with laughter and love. Which is a huge contrast to how our life used to be, quite and dull.

I will always remember the time when I flew back to the states with Adam, it was one hell of a painful year. When I visited my sister at the graveyard I completely broke down as my life had literally fallen apart. I had lost everything, my parents and my sister. Adding to that Sana rejected me, I felt so empty, lost and alone. The only thing that kept me going was Adam and the little bit of hope left inside of me for a future with Sana.

After retiring early and not wanting to get into a dispute with my department I draw myself back from the world. That's also when I started to research and study Islam. I only dropped Sana a message once a month. That as I wanted to fulfill my promise made to her to keep in touch and mainly as I needed to know how she was, even though I was supposed to keep myself away from her. It drove me crazy every single day to not be able to pick up the phone to just call her, to restrain and let her go was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I was always worried and afraid about her, she is a living problem magnet.

With Sana I have gained a family that I so long craved for. I used to miss my parents and Mia so badly. Now mom and dad, Sanas parents, compensate for the love I was deprived from for so long. I love them as my own parents and I do my best to be a good son to them. I also try being a good brother to Aaliya and Aahil, who fills my life with colors.

Furthermore, there is not a single day that passes without me getting scolded and Adam getting pampered. Even though I love Sanas playful scolding's I sometimes envy Adam for the unconditional love he receives from her.

I am not even sure if Sana loves me which occasionally makes me feel guilty, it sometimes feels like I forcefully married her. There are times that I am sure that she do love me as her innocent gestures hints at that but she has never verbalized those words that I am longing to hear.

Don't get me wrong, I know that Sana cares for me but care and love is two different things. Care, affection and attraction can all be seen from her side but love, I don't know. She drives me crazy by her mere presence while I don't know how she feels about me. Her one touch, her one hug and her one smile makes me want to hold her in my arms forever.

I can't explain how addicting her hugs are. When she hugs, she hugs with all her heart and strength which makes one feel special. Her hugs fills my heart with peace and joy while I feel at home in her arms. I love to interrupt her in the middle of a sentence, or more like lecture, by kissing her luscious pink lips and how annoyed she even act I love how I can always feel her smile in the middle of it.

My days fortunately starts and ends with her. There's no other way I would like it to be. I have never felt such strong and raw emotions for anyone in my life which actually scares me. She has become my oxygen and I can't imagine a life without her. The rigid and emotionless Shawn has changed so much that it is sometimes hard for me to recognize myself.

With Sana, I want to change. I still am a introvert so I always try to make sure that my actions speaks louder than my words. I try to make sure to convey to her that I love her at least once a week. It can be as simple as buying her some flowers or taking her out on a walk and just wrap my arms around her while declaring my love for her.

She has also made me grow spiritually due to her I desired to know more about religions, particularly Islam. It is a overwhelming feeling to pray side by side with my beloved wife. During Ramadan, which is the holy month in Islam, fasting and holding back from food as well as water is a piece of cake when observing it along with her. The hard part is to restrain from my temptation to touch and be with Sana inappropriately while we are fasting.

Islam was a religion of hate and terror for me but when I finally studied it, I was captivated. Of course I still have a long way to go to get familiar with each part of it and need to gain more knowledge. In Sha Allah aka if God will, I will increase in wisdom with time. However for now Islam is actually a religion of peace and what matters is what you carry in your heart, that's all I have to say about it.

Taking a quick glance at the time I make two cups of tea, Sana should be home any moment now from her class. Adam is at our parents place to play with Aahil and Aaliya. The door opens and as always I hold my breath when my beautiful wife smiles at me. "Hey." She greets me and I can immediately sense that something's wrong.

"Hi, how was your day?" I inquire alert while analyzing her.

Her hypnotic big brown eyes are not smiling or shining as usual. Her hands are slightly shaking and she is biting her lower lip nervously. She sighs while walking towards me and I know that something is bothering her. I encircle my arms around her protectively as soon as she hugs me and plant a kiss on top of her head.

"The day was good, I am just a bit tired." She tells me hesitantly and I know she is hiding something but I keep quiet as I don't want her to stress. "I'll just go and freshen up." She pulls away and smiles towards me.

I nod with a smile of my own. She can't be hiding the reason for her anxiety for long, I won't let her. Taking out a tray I place the two cups of tea and a box of ice cream along with two spoons on it before taking it to our bedroom. Placing the tray on the bedside table I sit down on the bed with my legs spread.

Sana is taking awfully lot of a time today. When she finally twenty minutes later comes out in a casual short white dress, looking breathtaking, she still seem nervous. She smiles seeing me and places herself in my arms on the bed, as always I immediately inhale her flowery fragrance.

Wrapping her warm arms around my torso she snuggles in to my chest, not having a clue of how much our proximity affects me. Holding her silky body close to mine I find myself at peace while I can feel her heart beating violently.

"How was your day?" She asks me and I raise a eyebrow.

"Fine, you know the usual. Go through all kind of files with different cases and decide which one to shut down or go further with." I enlighten her, I am working at the police headquarters for the moment just to keep myself a bit occupied.

"Any interesting cases?" She continues to ask absent minded and I kiss her head while stroking her arm.

"No, nothing special." I honestly tell her, common Sana speak your mind.

She keeps quiet for a moment before turning her head to look straight into my eyes. Her dark chocolate eyes spellbinds me and I lean in to place a tender kiss on her pink lips, she instantly closes her eyes while kissing me back.

I pull away and she slowly opens her captivating brown eyes. I gaze at her astonished when noticing tears in them which she is doing her best to hold back. "Sana? What's wrong babe?" I question her worriedly and she shakes her head with a small smile.

"Nothing." Her next words makes me frown. "Shawn, do you love me?" She questions and I stare at her in disbelief.

"Of course I do, you should know that by now. You're my everything and I love you more than life." I openly share my feelings with her and her eyes analyzes me. "What is this all about?" I softly inquire to push her to speak her mind while I make circles on her back with my thumb to calm her down.

"Promise me to not leave me if I turn unattractive." She says and I stare at her dumbfound, what is she going on about?

I shift my hand and caress her soft cheek. "I won't ever leave you and you'll never be unattractive in my eyes." I assure her and she doesn't seem convinced.

"Shawn, promise me." she pushes and I sigh inaudible, I thought our wedding vows was enough for her to be assured but I guess no.

"I promise!" She sighs in relief hearing that and bores her face into the crock of my neck. "Mind to share what this is all about?" I ask her now trying hard to breathe regularly.

She sits up straight and runs a hand down her hair before quickly glancing my way. Without any words she walks to the bathroom and I stand up to walk after her but she is out in a matter of seconds. I frown confused at her while she shyly shows me a small rectangular packet in her hand. Taking a few steps towards her I take the pink packet from her and read the label.

Sana tucks her hair behind her ears shakily in a swift move. "Pregnancy test." I read out aloud but it doesn't register in my brain and I look at her perplexed.

Sana seem nervous and looks at me with hope filled eyes. "Shawn, I." She trails of and takes a deep breath before boring her eyes into mine with a soft smile. "I am pregnant." It still doesn't register in my mind and I stare at her idiotically. "Shawn, you're going to be a father and I am going to be a mother to a second child." She adds slowly and finally my brain starts to function.

Her words reruns in my mind and my eyes widen. A huge grin spreads across my face and a sudden warmth flows through my veins. "You mean you're pregnant?" I slowly inquire and she chuckles.

"Yeah." She smiles widely and without thinking I lift her up from the ground and spin her around. "Shawn!" She giggles while I scream my lungs out in happiness.

"Oh my god! Adam is going to be a brother!" I yell while putting her down and instantly pull her to grace her lips.

While kissing her I can feel her lips curl into a smile. Pulling away a few minutes later I stand there breathless and she hugs me tightly while shyly snuggling into my chest. Wrapping my arms around her I feel overwhelmed, we are going to be parents again.

"Shall we inform mom and dad?" Sana inquires and I frantically nod.

"Of course! Allhamdullillah, thank god." I claim while Sana shakes her head at my behavior and smiles.

I take her hand and plant a kiss on it before taking a step towards my phone on the bed but Sana holds me back. I look back at her and her brown eyes is gleaming. Taking a step towards her I cup her face with my hands. I kiss her forehead and then rest my forehead on hers with closed eyes savoring the moment. "Shawn." She whispers making me giddy while placing her hands on my chest and grabbing my shirt.

"Hmm?" I murmur.

"I love you." I hear her say timidly and my eyes snaps open.

"Come again?" I say astonished, believing that my ears are playing games with me.

She looks down shyly before looking at me again. "I really love you." She repeats the words I have been craving to hear for so long.

"I love you so much more." I verbalize while tears prick my eyelids.

"No, I love you the most." She says confidently this time while boring her eyes into mine and I just shake my head with a smile while pulling her into a bone crushing hug.

She wraps her arms around my neck and hugs me back with all her strength. The feeling of being fully accepted and loved by the person you love is overwhelming. I am the happiest man alive right now and this moment is the most cherished moment in my life.

Nine months later, Sana gives birth to a beautiful baby girl. MashAllah, praise the lord. I don't want to go into the details of the struggle Sana went through while giving birth or how scared I was to lose her, I don't know how woman can be so strong. Woman deserves more respect! I was literally a wreck seeing Sana in pain while giving birth and while holding her hands it was more like she comforted me than the other way around. Allhamdullilah, thank god, it all went fine and ended well.

I can guarantee that my love and respect for Sana increased if possible even more after giving birth to our adorable princess, who we by the way named Shawna. My promise to Sana is that I'll try my best to be the best husband and father I can possibly be.

I can't help to stare in awe at the sight in front of me. Sana, still on the hospital bed, with Shawna in one arm and Adam beside her in her other. Our small family is complete and I can't stop beaming.

Having two kids is a fulltime duty and I do my best to spend some quality time with Sana whenever finding the chance. Sharing a bit of affection then and now strengthens a relationship immensely. Love should come naturally. You can't force someone to love you but you can always try to win over someone with your love and good qualities. Always find time to show your spouse your love and be loved.

Looking back I can't believe how our journey started. Not that I knew back than, but I freaking kidnapped my future wife and was horrible towards her. In my defense, Sana used to get on my nerves as annoying as she was.

My temperament has always been bad and short, adding a bubbly Sana to that equaled to stress. I needed to learn immense self control to keep myself calm around her. Where I got my patience around, and for, her is still a mystery to me. She could practically never keep quiet and never follow orders, on top of that trouble was always close behind her.

The same girl who drove me crazy is the same girl that drives me crazy but now in a different way. How would I have known that this girl crossed my path as a mercy from above, she is my life's biggest blessing. A single day without her makes me restless. I love her and every single thing about her.

What this journey has taught me is that human beings should always be judged by their actions and what's in their heart. Nothing else matters, literally nothing. Also a second chance should be given to people who wants to change or mend and become a better human.

One last thing, during my spare time I have also started to work on a memoir to honor my and Sanas journey. I hope you'll read it, it is named Defining a Terrorist.