Lying in my bed, the memory of what happened a few hours ago filled my mind again. All those moments would be playing in front of my eyes on repeat and I just couldn't stand the silence.

Not so long before I started waking up from my lovely euphoria, I discovered a song I really liked. The moment I heard it, it reminded me of Golden hour by JVKE and Glimpse of us by Joji. It immediately gained its special place in my breaking heart and now it came to the surface to hug me with it's melancholic warmth and sad peace.

The first words filled my ears as I recalled all those painful moments again. My eyes were getting more and more open, the curtain was raising higher and higher and my heart was finally accepting the truth.

The song continued as the realisation was hitting me harder and harder. There was a sting in my eyes, a dagger in my chest.

Please, stop this pain.

Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I recalled all the moments when I told myself: "It's okay," and made an excuse to defend him. I tried not to see him not treating me right.

If you hadn't changed.

Since he'd changed, I couldn't stay. I just couldn't keep pretending like this was okay.

Because it was hurting me.

And I needed to go...

And ghost me like you wanted me gone.

This was the end.

I'm sinking in the deep end.

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This was short but there's really not much else to say. The realisation just hurts and you spend the whole night crying, then two, three,... then you stop for one or two just to fall back again the next one... it's a painful circle but everybody gets out of it eventually

Oh and yeah, Deep end got released after that but I just wanted to put it into this scene since it fits it really well so yeah... idk why I'm saying this lmao