The day I was planning on doing it.

We were ending at the same time, that was for sure. The day before, we were too but that was a pure coincidence. I didn't know about the fact I'd get to finish it all already.

However, that day... he didn't come.

"Hey," I whispered, leaning to the two boys in front of me, eyes on the teacher not to piss her off.

"What?" Minho turned around, mad as always.

"Where's Seungmin?"

Changbin turned to me too. "He went to the hospital. You know, because of the hand."

I nodded my head. "Right, I forgot. Thanks."

Minho scoffs, looking back to the front as Changbin gives me last glance before doing the same.

I felt happy for him not being by my side as I was nervous of seeing him, my hands trembling since I'd woken up that morning. However, I was also upset. He didn't tell me anything and now I was disappointed that I'd have to be stuck in that messed up thing that I had to call "relationship" even though I was so sure he didn't want it to be that way anymore.

Just like me.

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"And are you sure you want to do it? Based on what you're saying, I don't think he sees it as a relationship either. Maybe it'll just fall apart eventually."

"No. Because I need answers. How long has this been going on? And if anything, I just want to be sure. Or else he might still come back one day and pretend like nothing happened, you know?"

"Does he do that?"

"He just did last Friday," I sigh in frustration, cheek mushed on my hand as I lean my head on it.

My mom hums. "That's just weird, you know."

"Ah, you can be sure I oh so do," I respond, poison dripping off my lips with every word.

"Let's just hope you'll get to do it as soon as possible then."

A while after I left my mom with her work again, a message popped up in the group chat.

"Fucking amazing," I growl, putting my phone to the side.

Seungmin wasn't going to come to school till Christmas - he was sick.

And there was no way I was going to text him about it again.

The times we had were bittersweet.

I miss the days we used to love and heal.

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yooooOOO IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY I'M TWENTY NOW AIN'T THAT SO DAMN COOL :D

no but like really, for some reason, I'm happy to be this age now. at first, it felt weird as I'm stepping out if my "last teen" but I'm actually excited about my twenties now ^^

also sorry, I know I've said I'd update this story "in a few minutes" right after midnight and it's 6am already but on my defense - I was texting my mom at that very same time and started calling her right after and we kept talking until like 5.30am so I think it's understandable that I had to put this story aside for a while [:

also remember how I had a boyfriend? the one I broke up with? I was talking about him with my mom too and she said something that made me laugh a lot until my sickness made me start coughing aggressively again lol
so, I was just telling her about how my ex called me late at night after I was exhausted from work and just made myself some food for the next day and went straight to bed. and I was like "now, tell me, mom - if you call someone at half past two in the morning, asking if everything's alright and they say that no, because you have just woken them up... what do you say?" and she literally responded with: "well, now that you're awake..." and I swear it was so accurate and also so her that I just bursted out laughing xd

anyways, this is starting to get longer than the chapter itself so let's continue...

because I'm giving you guys a double update today! <3