Friday - another tutoring session, another early waking up. I wasn't even feeling alive anymore, I was just walking around, bags under my eyes, not even the slightest flame of Enjoyment in my chest. Its oposite burned me down already - that rival walking around, named Tiredness.

I didn't know how many surprises would that day give me.

Firstly, I missed my bus and was a bit late for the tutoring thanks to that. The lesson went on well though, as always.

Secondly, Seungmin was nice to me. He greeted me, sat closer to me and even talked to me. That feeling was just oh so bittersweet. Because when I was leaving school later that evening, I was holding tight on the straps of my bag, hope burning in my chest again.

Maybe he still does like me.

I smiled at that as I was walking through the empty halls, feeling his presence next to me. I felt his touch, his hand, his smell, I heard his voice and I was happy...

...and confused.

And maybe even partially mad.

Thirdly, the teachers decided to keep on trying to ruin my mood all the time. One was her usual self - all mad. The other, who's okay, was suddenly really scary and almost started arguing with me after I asked her a simple question.

And then my German teacher walked up to me and said something I apparently should've known already. "You'll have to write an essay in German to graduate."

I could feel all air being kicked out of my chest. "Excuse me... but what?"

She started explaining it, looking surprised that I didn't know. She then walked away and I went into the classroom, it being almost epmty since the seminar that took place in there has ended already.

"What's going on?" Changbin perked up after seeing me. I guess I looked truly terrible for him to ask.

I quickly explained the situation to him and Seungmin who were the only ones left by now.

"Just... Why wouldn't she tell me right away? I'll now have to change the subject last minute."

Seungmin frowned. "That's not nice of her. I didn't even think she'd be like that. Thought she was the better teacher."

Changbin nodded his head. "Yeah..." He looked at me again as I was staring... somewhere across the room. "You sure you're okay, Jin?"

"Yeah... Guess I have to be, right? The tutoring session starts in half an hour so I shouldn't be mad and mean."

"You still have another lesson?" Seungmin looked shocked - that was understandable though, it was my first afternoon lesson.

"Yes, that's why I was waiting for the seminar to end."

They picked their bags, swinging them around their shoulders. "Well... Good luck then."

We bid goodbyes and they left.

Silence... and my quick heartbeat and short, quiet breaths.

My eyes went back up to the clock hanging above the entrance into the room.

Damn, they'll be here after so long. What should I do...

I got up and closed the door, not being in the mood to be asked any question by any of the teachers since their offices were all around our classroom and they loved asking stuff like: "Why are you still here?" or "Oh I see... And how is the tutoring going? It's tough, right?"

I slumped back into my chair, looking at the little Christmas tree in front of me, its bright lights and...

Tears started pricking my eyes. I tried to take a deep breath to calm down but couldn't. My nostrils only flattered before the first drop went down my cheek, next one following.

Not only is my relationship falling apart... now I have to choose a new subject to be graduating from. Nice. Just... Just so fucking nice.

Thankfully, I calmed down fast, blew my nose and started thinking of every possibility to replace German for.

I got okay again and the time of the lesson came near. I opened the door again - just to see the boys there. They just walked up the stares, looking around.

"Hi," I smiled.

They waved at me. "Hi."

We started and went on but I had such troubles to keep my thoughts in line. I was stumbling over my words all the time, had to apologise to the boys a few times but they were alright with it, giving me understanding smiles - maybe they did see my bad state after all.

As I was leaving school, I was emotionally exhausted. From Seungmin being nice and making it look like nothing was wrong, like we were alright all the time. From that teacher bringing up such shocking news out of nowhere. From sleep deprivation. And simply from... the whole week.

I was so happy weekend was finally in front of me.

You made me feel as if we were complete.