Shanice in MM

C H A P T E R
T H I R T Y - T W O

Kissing her deeply and roughly as he stroked her walls causing moans to leave out of her mouth loudly. Ahmad bit her lip the deeper he went loving the way she felt, it had been two months of no sex or anything and his body was lowkey craving it at this point.

They both knew having sex wasn't going to fix none of their issues but for the moment this was something they needed as a way to distract them so they could just ignore what is going on in their lives for a second.

Stoking her deeply hitting that certain spot, she threw her head back and clawed at his back not ever wanting the pleasure she was recieving to end. The sound of the headboard hitting against the wall could be heard throughout the room, and the sounds of pleasure leaving their mouths was like music to their ears.

Sliding out of her just when she was about to reach her climax, Ahmad trailed kisses down her body starting at her neck and down to her stomach. She looked down at him with lustful eyes feeling the heat rise in her body the lower he got and when his tongue came in contact with her clit, she bit her lip to surpress the moan that wanted to escape and clutched the back of his head.

With her hand on rested on her head as he devoured her other set of lips, she cried out begging for him to stop although that was the last thing she wanted him to do. He had her body feeling all types of good and she knew he was the only man who could ever make her feel this way.

The moment their lips touched and they fell back on the bed, it was no stopping what was about to happen nor did the two actually want to.

When he replaced his tongue with his fingers and started sliding them in and out while he made love to her clit with his mouth, she closed her eyes tightly and gripped the sheets on the bed trying to run from the feeling and him.

When he felt her trying to escape he used his free hand to lock her in and continued his assault, loving the taste of her.

Feeling that pressure build up in her stomach, she soon released and came all over his fingers as a ear piercing moan and scream of his name escaped her mouth.

Sliding his fingers out of her he put his fingers in her mouth wanting her to taste herself, while he slid back in and slowly stroked her insides wanting her to feel every inch of what he had to offer.

It felt as if they where making love for the first time all over again, and Cali couldn't stop the tears that started to fall from her eyes. It had been two months since Ahmad touched or even looked at her in a way of desire of love.

When he showed up at her doorstep she assumed he was coming over for the kids, but when he stepped forward and pressed his lips against hers it shocked the hell out of her. She didn't even expect it to go this far but the moment he lifted her up and carried her to their room, she knew exactly why he came over and she wasn't going to stop him.

When Ahmad noticed the tears falling from her eyes, he began to tear up as well. Here he was making love to the woman he loved more than his damnself and although they've made love to each other a million times, this time just felt different.

It felt good, but due to their circumstances it didn't feel the same. Each time she would moan or cry out, Ahmad couldn't help but think if this was what she did with Reggie. It made him think if Reggie had her feeling just like this, and he hated thinking about it which was why he kept his distance from Cali. But he loved her too much to stay away, and their time apart was killing him.

After he released inside of her he pulled out and rolled over onto his back and just stared up at the ceiling as she did same. No words where spoken just the sound of their breathing could be heard.

Cali wasn't sure what to say, whilst Ahmad had a lot to say but just didn't know how to put his words together at the moment.

Not being able to deal with the awkward silence Cali went to get up to clean herself up, but Ahmad stopped her by grabbing her arm. Turning towards him she looked at him with a questioning look wondering what he had to say.

"I almost fucked up and made a big mistake that I wouldn't be able to live with tonight." He blurted out.

Looking at him crazy, she hoped like hell he wasn't finna say what she was thinking. "You tried to kill Reggie!?"

Sitting up, he smacked his lips. "Hell nah, if I could kill that nigga and get away with it I would but no. I almost had sex with Justin's sister Shanice tonight, and look I know we're separated but what I did and what I almost did wasn't right. We didn't have sex, but we kissed and it almost lead to that but I stopped it before it could go any further but at the end of the day I was wrong."

Cali couldn't lie and say she wasn't hurt by the news, but she knew she had no right to be upset whatsoever. "It was just a kiss though Ahmad, I can't be mad at that especially after what I did."

"Yeah but still, at the end of the day I'm still legally married to you and despite what we got going on no other woman should have me in the way that you do." He admitted. "I initially came over here to just tell you about what happened because I felt guilty, but I ain't gon' front and act as if I don't miss you man and these two months of no sex or nothing from you .. was really breaking a nigga."

Staring at him for a second Cali blinked one good time and a tear fell causing a river flow to fall from her eyes. Using her hands to wipe away the tears, she shook her head at herself knowing she did not deserve this man.

What she did was unforgivable and stupid, but yet here he was still being everything she has ever asked for in a man and she took that for granted.

"Ahmad, I don't know how many times I can say that I am sorry for what I did. From the bottom of my heart I feel so stupid for cheating on you when you have been nothing but good to me and the kids. You are literally the perfect husband and I really took you for granted, I know we'll probably never be the same due to this and I'm not even sure if we'll ever get back together but just know that I do love you and that I'm sorry for all the hurt and pain I have caused you within' the last few months. You didn't deserve any of that and I don't deserve you." She sniffled.

Reaching over he wiped away her tears and placed a kiss on her lips shushing her. "I just need time, I can't picture myself with anybody else but you .. but right now I just need time. I wanted to hate you, hell I wanted to just cut you out of my life but I can't. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for you, you made me a father, you gave me love that I didn't even believe that I needed and for that I will always love you. I don't know what the future may hold but in the end together or not I'ma always love and be there for you through whatever."

Nodding her head tears continued to fall from her eyes, "I love you so much." She sniffled.

"I love you more, but come on so we can shower."

Getting out of the bed, Ahmad got up behind her and followed her into the bathroom. Deciding to take a bath together instead, Ahmad ran the water for them while she took a seat on the counter and waited.

Once the water was hot and ready and filled with bubbles, he helped her step inside before stepping in behind her and wrapping his arms securely around her.

Rubbing her growing belly, the two sat in complete silence enjoying the feeling of being back in each other's arms. Placing kisses on her shoulder blade, Cali leaned back more into him not ever wanting to get up and leave from this spot.

She missed this man more than words could explain, everynight she dreamed of him and longed for his touch. No man could ever make Cali feel as good as Ahmad can, he knew exactly what to do and how to do it perfectly for her to be satisfied.

Looking down at his big hands placed on her pretruding belly, she smiled to herself missing moments like this between them and mentally hating herself for taking it all for granted.

She couldn't have been blessed with a better man than Ahmad, he wasn't perfect by any means and had his flaws but despite his issues the good in him always overweighed the bad.

After sitting in the tub in silence for a while, Cali decided to spark up conversation and explain and update him on some new decisions she has made to benefit the family in a good way.

"I been thinking about signing Marquette up for therapy." She randomly stated.

"You should, what he experienced was traumatizing and I'm sure its a lot he hasn't told us due to fear but maybe he'll open up to Derek and we can find out more. I probably wouldn't be as fucked as I am today if I went to therapy sooner."

Cali nodded, "Yeah, he's been really quiet lately and its hearbreaking seeing him shut down the way he is. At school they were explaining to me how he's not real interactive with his classmates besides Dave's daughter Blessing. They say the only way to get him to talk or to participate in class activities is if he's working with Blessing other than that, he does nothing."

Ahmad sighed hating that Marquette was going through the same shit he had to go through as a kid. But the fact that Cali was really considering therapy for Marquette made him happy, because being able to open up to someone about personal issues and they know exactly what to say helps a lot in the end.

"I'll even talk with Dave and see if Blessing has ever told him anything."

"Okay, and I'm also filing for full custody for him with no visitations from Reggie. I already got a lawyer and we've been meeting up and getting everything in order."

"That's good, have you talked to Jada? Did she know about any of this going on in their home?"

Cali shook her head no, "Nope, but she's divorcing him. She didn't know about a lot of things that he has done and she honestly doesn't even deserve a man like Reggie."

Ahmad nodded agreeing with her statement. Reggie was a piece of shit, Ahmad never hated someone as much as he hated Reggie. He really wanted to touch that nigga and that bitch Melissa for what they did, but Ahmad knew approaching them with his anger being this fresh that shit wouldn't end so good.

Letting his mind wonder off a question that Ahmad had been dying to ask popped up in his mind and he felt this was the perfect time to reveal this question he has been holding onto and trying to figure out.

"Cali .. can you explain to me why you did it? Like explain why you chose him over me and what lead to this shit? At first, I ain't wanna know cause I didn't really wanna hear about you two fucking but this shit fucking with my head. I can't even fuck you without thinking of you and him together, him pleasing you in ways that I should only be doing .. like why? Why him?" He questioned voiced laced and full of curiousity.

Letting out a sigh, Cali closed her eyes knowing this question was gonna eventually come to surface but if she had to admit she didn't even know why her damn self.

"I can't explain why I did it Ahmad, I mean it started off with us just talking about his new potential job and just life in general like the old days. Because despite all the bullshit that man has done in the beginning Reggie was like my best friend and at one point in my life him and Marquette where really all that had, so I kinda will always have a soft spot for that man. That was why I went so hard for him because I knew this wasn't the Reggie I knew before, I honestly don't know who the man he is today is. He's changed so much and somedays I just be hoping and praying that he will go back to that." She expressed.

"But anyways we where literally just talking about life and yeah I fucked up and told him about Adrian but it wasn't to be messy it was really just for advice since he has brother who is autistic. I was just asking for tips on how to deal and handle a child with that and that was all it was. Yes, I should have came to you and that was wrong on my part but I didn't think he would throw the shit in your face the way he did. But I know he only felt that entitlement because of what happened between us. And I honestly don't know how it got to us having sex, shit just happened so fast."

"But it didn't even last long, he got like two strokes in before I pushed him off of me and left. What happened was fucked up and I wanted to tell you but so much was already going on at the time and I didn't want to add on anymore stress and hurt you. That was mainly why I was so depressed and down so much, that guilt was eating me alive everyday and everyday I looked at you I just felt so bad for what I did to you."

Ahmad just sat there, he didn't say anything and that sorta worried Cali. When he removed his arms from around her she closed her eyes feeling as if that confession put them back even more, but when she heard him sniffle she looked back to see him using his hands to wipe away his tears.

"Ahmad—"

"Nah, I wanted the truth and I got it. Shit hurt like a muthafucka' but I wanted to know." He shrugged with a half smile although it was obvious it was forced.

After sitting in the tub for another fifteen minutes or so in silence they both began to bath and clean themselves before getting out all together.

Drying off and throwing on their undergarments the two got back in bed after changing the sheets and covers then just cuddled up together just like old times and eventually drifted off to sleep in each other's arms not wanting to be anywhere else in the world.

          The following morning Ahmad woke up to a small foot in his face and frowned when he realized the foot belonged to Armoni due to the pink fingernail polish on her toes.

Pushing her foot off his face, he yawned and sat up to see all three of their kids asleep in their bed but Cali was nowhere in sight. Carefully moving Armoni off of him so she wouldn't wake up, he checked the time on the clock then slipped out of the bed so he could get dressed for work.

Walking into their closet he grabbed a pair of his sweats in the midst of all his clothes that he hadn't brung to his new apartment and put them on along with a t-shirt before grabbing his shoes and socks. Taking a seat at the edge of the bed he put them on one by one then got up to grab his keys to leave.

Kissing each of his kids on the head, he left out the room and instantly the smell of food hit his nose.

Heading towards the front of the house he smiled when he saw Cali in the kitchen cooking breakfast and took a seat at the bar catching her attention. "I'm finna head to work but after work I'll come back here to take the kids out."

Nodding her head, Cali started making his plate with the food she was already done with before going back to finish frying other pieces of bacon and french toast for herself and the kids.

"When did they come into the room?" He asked curiously.

She shrugged. "I'm guessing last night because when I woke up they where all in the bed so I'm not sure. You know they love sneaking in the bed with us thank god we didn't sleep naked." She laughed.

Sitting his plate in front of him he thanked her and did a small prayer before diggin' in. "Yeah, whenever they come to my apartment they climb in bed with me rather than sleeping in their room together. But I love it so I don't complain." He smiled eating some of his eggs.

"Yeah they really miss having you around, Armoni literally asks for you everyday." She sighed.

"All you gotta do is call me Cal and I'll answer or come by and drop them off to me." He stated.

"I will."

"Good, but another thing I been wanting to discuss about us is how we fell off with is going to church and letting god be a main factor in our lives. It's a lot we both need to work on as a couple and I was thinking about setting up a meeting with our pastor to discuss with him about our situation and how we can use god as the way to help us figure out what we're gonna do and what we need to do to get back on track."

"Yeah we have slacked off with that, when did you want to go?"

"Whenever we both free, but let me get going. Can you wrap this up for me?" Standing up, he handed her his plate then walked around the bar to give her a hug and a kiss.

After she wrapped his plate in foil she handed it back to him then went to turn back to the food but he stopped her and pulled her into him as he stared down at her.

"Just give what we got going time, at the end of the day its gon' always be me and you, but we gotta get back right first before I move back in and everything. I'm willing to work things out and fight for my marriage but you really gotta show me this marriage is worth fighting for baby."

Nodding her head, she kissed him on the lips one last time before walking him to the door and letting him out.

When she shut and locked the door behind her, she turned and pressed her back up against the door thanking the lord that he was granting her a second chance with her baby, and she was going to do everything in her power to make things right and get her family back on track.

         Walking inside the shop Marcus, Travis and his friends, along with Dave where the only ones there so far. Glancing up at Ahmad when they heard him enter they all immediately looked at the plate of food he was holding wondering where they plate was. "You ain't bring us nothing?" Raheem asked with a look of disgust on his face.

Laughing Ahmad held up the plate, "She ain't make enough for everybody."

"She!?" Marcus questioned before hopping up and following Ahmad into his office. "Who is she? And if Cali name don't roll off yo tongue you gotta run me my round."

Sitting at his desk, Ahmad sat his plate of food down then turned on his tv before focusing on his aggy ass friend. "Yes, I'm talking bout Cali. Who else would I be talking about?"

Marcus shrugged, "Hell I don't know, I know you and her ain't on good terms so shit I thought maybe yo ass was fucking around or some shit."

"I almost did, I'm not even gon' lie and say I didn't want to but I couldn't do that Cali. Last night I went to my brother house to spend the night cause I ain't wanna be alone, but apparently Justin sister lives there and man when I say shawty was bad, she was bad but thats besides the point. Anyways, so Justin and Amir leave to go out so its just me and her."

Marcus sighed as he took a seat, "I can already see where this is going, but continue."

"Nah man listen, we literally just got similar stories. Like her husband fucked a bitch on her and we was just venting to each other and the shit felt good to vent to someone who actually understands your hurt and doubts and it felt good to be reassurred that it wasn't my fault. Like overall ole' girl was cool and I honestly needed that talk with her. But I don't know emotions was just all over the place and next thing you know we kissing and you know I just don't be kissing everybody so that was even crazier in my head. But anyways so we started undressing each other and I'm like hard as fuck ready to give this girl the best dick of her life, but the minute we hit the bed it was like reality snapped back instantly and I stopped it. I apologized, grabbed my shit and left." He explained.

Marcus scratched his head, "This some crazy shit here, but alright good you stopped it before it got too far. So now explain to me how you get a breakfast plate from Cali then?"

"When I left Amir house, I went back home paced my apartment for a bit tryna get my head together cause that guilt was eating my ass up. So the longer I was there I was just thinking in my head like you gotta tell her, she still your wife at the end of the day and she deserves to know. So I grabbed my keys left and hit the road and drove to our home. My intentions was to only tell her about me and Shanice, but shit the moment she opened that door just dressed in some booty shorts and a tank top all that shit went out the window and I ended up fucking the shit out of her."

"Those two weeks without touching her and being in her was driving me insane and I let out all that built up tension last night on her. I'm still tired to be honest witcha." He laughed causing Marcus to do the same.

"Did you ever get to tell her about Shanice?"

"Yeah after we finished, I just opened up to her about it then we took a bath and had a much needed talk. Cried a little bit and shit, but we good." He shrugged as he took another bite of his french toast.

Marcus started to smile at the last thing he said, "Y'all good? Like y'all good good? Or just good?"

"We just good for now, but I told her I was willing to work this shit out but she gotta give me some time. I love that girl and I can't imagine life without her, call me dumb, stupid or whatever but it is what it is." He stated not really caring if Marcus liked his decision or not.

"It ain't dumb, I mean she yo wife and you two got a bond that is out of this world. Hell seeing y'all go through this shit was hurting everybody, we all was affected by it because we used to seeing you two on good terms. And I honestly believe there isn't no woman out there better for you other than Cali, she's it man. Yeah, she fucked up big time but you know if your back was against the wall and the whole world was on your shoulders she would be right there holding you up." Marcus expressed being totally honestly about how he felt.

Ahmad listened to what he said and nodded agreeing, Cali showed her loyalty in more ways than he could count on his fingers and compared to all the good she has don' for him and the kids it outweighed this situation and he wasn't sure if he was really willing to let go of what they built so far behind Reggie.

"You right, but I told her at the end of the day its gon' always be me and her. But right now I know I'm not ready mentally and emotionally so its gon' take time because if we jumped back in it right now, the way my trust is set up with her it might really ruin the relationship and we might not ever get back to where we need to be. You get what I'm saying?"

Marcus stood up and nodded, "Yeah I understand exactly what you mean and I feel that is smart. But you know that with whatever happens between you and her, I'ma be here every step of the way along with everybody else who riding for you."

Reaching his hand out they both did their little handshake before Marcus left out to finish getting his station ready for his clients.

          Two hours passed and the shop was booming and full of business as always. Hazel and Shaun had arrived to work so the whole crew was there but the tension in the air was thick and awkward the moment Hazel came in.

She had dryly greeted everybody and had been at her desk majority of the day and hadn't said much of anything. The guys tried giving her the space she needed but they where still worried about what was bothering her and hoped everything was good.

Hazel was damn there like the baby sister of the shop and they all cared deeply about her. And so after learning about all the trauma she had experienced in her last marriage and the amount of miscarriages she had, they all just kinda tried to make sure she was always in good spirits and for the most part she usually was, so this was throwing them off big time.

Coming out of his station once his client left Ahmad walked up to Hazel desk and motioned for her to follow him.

Relunctantly getting up she did as he wanted and walked into his office shutting the door behind her since she knew he was about to ask her what was up and she was willing to tell it all since she needed to vent.

Sitting back in his chair, Ahmad stared at her. "You already know why I brought you back here, so tell me what's up? You ain't usually like this and the guys and I are concerned."

Tapping her foot and playing with her fingers tears started to fill up in her eyes. Grabbing a box of tissue he had he passed it over to her. Taking one out she wiped away her tears and let out a sigh, "I had to get an abortion a few months back due to my body not being strong enough to carry full term again, it was a good chance that I might could have possibly died so I had to make a choice. But I didn't tell Derek because I didn't want to hurt him, I know how bad he wants kids and I didn't want to get his hopes up on becoming a father again just to be let down. But apparently he found out and for two months he waited just to see if I was ever going to tell him and I didn't."

"During dinner last night he brought it up and he was calm about the situation but his face and the look of hurt told a different story and he hasn't said much of anything to me. When I explained to him why I got one, he told me he understood and that he wasn't upset but his actions are giving me other vibes."

Ahmad nodded, "I hate you had to make a choice like that cause that's hard, but I'm sure Derek understands and isn't mad but more so hurt. I mean yeah your intentions and heart was in the wrong place, but he deserved to know since that was his child that he lost too."

She sighed grabbing more tissues to wipe her face, "I know and I feel bad. I don't know what I can do to make this right, I fucked up for not telling him."

"Just have a sit down and just talk to him. Have him voice out all his feelings towards the situation and go from there, but mainly just give him time he'll get over it." Ahmad assured.

Standing up she nodded, "I'll try that, thanks for the talk and thanks for caring.

Leaving out of his office Hazel bumped into Shanice who was making her way down the hall. Politely excusing herself and going around her, Shanice entered his office causing Ahmad to freeze in place as if he was looking at a ghost.

"Well hello to you to sir." She laughed.

"Uh my bad," Standing up he walked around his desk to give her a hug. "Hey Shanice, whatchu doing here?"

"I just came to apologize and to clear the air about last night, I was wrong and I really don't want our new found friendship to end behind this." She expressed and he nodded agreeing.

"It's all good and I can't put the full blame on you when I played apart in this as well and I already told Cali what went down so everything is good."

Growing shocked, she frowned. "You told her already!? She's not gonna have a problem with me being around right? I don't want no beef."

Laughing Ahmad motioned for her to sit down, "Yeah but it's cool. Cali fucks with whoever I fuck with and she knows there are no feelings involved with us so she'll be alright."

"Okay, well was she mad about it?"

"I'm sure she was but it ain't like we fucked, just kissed and although it was wrong she understood why it happened and got over it." He explained to her and Shanice eventually nodded before taking a seat.

"Okay, I'm taking your word for it. But anyways I really came down here to see if you wanted to grab lunch or something. I was craving some seafood and wanted to know if you wanted to tag along." She offered.

Checking his schedule, he eventually stood up. "Can we go out tonight? I got a client at twelve and two so I won't be taking a lunch until about five."

"Yeah that's fine, just text me you got my number."

Getting up she gave him a hug before leaving out bumping into Travis who grew stunned at her beauty, waving at him she smiled and exited the building all together being sure to say bye to everyone.

Walking into Ahmad office, Ahmad motioned for him to sit down. "Who is that? She fine as hell."

"My friend Shanice,"

"Why we ain't never met this friend?"

"Because she's a new friend, nigga whatchu want? Besides asking me all these questions."

Snapping back into reality, he clapped his hands together. "Oh yeah, um Winter is pregnant."

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- Denise 💋