A/N: pic of ariana's outfit when going to Xavier's on side. And a  video of francisco lachowski bc he's hot af. He plays the character Xavier.

Songs:

unkiss me: maroon 5

sugar: maroon 5

reflection: fifth harmony

ariana's pov

I slowly got up from the bed, not wanting to disturb Justin. I walked into the bathroom. My curls were everywhere, I don't remember taking off my wig, or bald cap. I decide to let it go and continue with my morning routine. You know brush teeth, wash face , shower, use mouthwash.

I change in the bathroom everyday since I can't change in front of Justin. I apply final touches to my face. And exit the bathroom. I stare at a sleeping Justin for a few minutes. Until I realize I don't need him addressing the kiss last night.

"Where are you going?" he said in his soothing morning voice.

"To class," I said putting on a sweater just in case I got cold.

"A hour early?"

"Yea, I like to be early," I said slamming the door behind me.

I walked to the bathroom. Stressing out, pacing back and forth. I really don't want Justin to ask me about it. Me kissing him, is falling. Falling leads to trusting. I can't trust anyone. I would be living in denial. I have trust issues okay. It's a long story but it started in third grade. I didn't realize I was in the bathroom for so long until. My five minute reminder went off. It comes in handy to never want to be late.

I pushed the door walking out into a hallway, crowded of kids. I fastened my pace when I got shoved a few times, in my boob. And even though I don't have a big chest. It's still very, very painful.

Finally making it to my classroom, I took a seat in the back. Not partically caring to learn about who invented what.

"Ariana," Mr. Hartway said.

"Yes," I said my heart beat getting faster. Not just because he is gorgeous, but because I wasn't paying attention.

"Would you care to teach the class?"

"No sir," I said gulping, hearing a few chuckles from my peers. Causing me to slouch in my seat.

I waited for Mr. Hartway to turn his back on the class. His ass looked mighty fine in his khakis. I know I'm not the only one who stares at a boy's butt. The bell rang just in time, I think he caught me staring at him. In my opioion they shouldn't be hiring hot teachers. Because of distractions like this. But I bet he be a good one if you know what I mean.

It was finally lunch, then I realized I had no friends. I could care less at this point I was straving. I made my way to the lunch line, that basically was a mile long. Justin wrapped his arms around my waist, I ninja chop his hands not realizing it was him. Till I hear him groan.

"Sorry," I say feeling guilty.

"No worries," he said running his hand through his hair.

"Ariana," he whined.

"What," I say rolling my eyes in annoyance.

"I crave your lips," he said biting his.

"What?!" I blushed.

"You heard me," he said looking at my brown orbs.

My cheeks were as red as a rose now. I looked down at the floor, so he couldn't see the effect he had on me.

He placed his hand on my chin. "They're asking what you want for lunch?"

Was I daydreaming? Even though I prefer not, it'd be better if it was just a daydream.

"I'll kiss you later," he whispered in my ear. Grabbing his lunch tray and walking away.

***

Justin wouldn't be back the dorm for hours so I decided to go out for some fresh air. I took out my white dress from my suitcase. Taking my long grey coat out of our closet. It sucks sharing a closet because I'll never be able to unpack my suitcase fully.

I put my hair in a messy bun to easily put on a hat. Then slipping my arms in my coat. Struggling with the right arm. Putting on my black checkerboard converse. Turning the knob, I gently close the door behind me. Opening the lobby door the cold air hits me. Some don't like the snow but I love it. Making snow angels, hitting people with snowballs. Sorry my violent side came out.

I decide to visit my best friend Xavier. I really want to marry a man named Xavier. I adore that name. Which is why we clicked right away.

I knocked on his maghonany door. He's rich, but we became friends before I knew this. He's so freaking cute. He's weird but in a good way I promise. The door swings open pulling me from my thoughts.

"Hey Ari," he said kissing my cheek.

"Hey Xav," I said kissing his cheek back.

We have nicknames for each other get over it.

I followed him inside his house. Taking my coat off and hanging it on the coat rack by the door.

"Ari baby is that you," Xavier's mom said.

"Yes it is Mrs.King."

"I told you to call me Crystal."

"Sorr-," I said getting cut off by Xavier's mom giving a bear hug.

"Mom I think you're suffocating her," he said chuckling.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean to," she said guilt in her eyes.

"It's fine I'm not used to bear hugs."

"Do you want some of your favorite white hot coco.?"

"Ofc."

"What?" she said raising her eyebrow.

"It means of fucking course mom," he replied.

Earning a slap from his mom. Causing me to giggle. Until he glared at me.

"Let's go watch netflix."

"Okay," I said following him.

"Ari Baby don't forget your white hot coco."

"Oh thanks Crystal," I said taking it from her hands.

"Don't do anything weird," she said in all seriousness.

Xavier playfully rolled his eyes. "We're not going to have sex Mom."

"Yea, I would never do that Mrs King."

"Good," she said walking to her bedroom.

Seeing Xavier had already disappeared. I ran up the long spiral staircase. Sweat beads already forming on my forehead. I deserve a gold medal for running up these stairs.

"How'd you get here so quickly," I said huffing in his doorway.

"I'm fit."

"I'm fit too."

"Whatever," he smirked, turning back to the tv screen.

I rolled my eyes. He doesn't think tennis counts as a sport. Because of the skirts we wear, and the 'tight shirts.' The shirt is loose on me thank goodness for my small chest. But I be filling up sweat buckets just 15 minutes in.

"It's a sport."

"Yea, yea."

"I want to watch the maze runner."

"No."

"Why not?" I pout.

"Because not everyone is a huge fan of Dylan O'Brien."

I put a hand over my heart highly offended. Dylan is hot af, how dare he.

"You better take that back," I said pinching his arm.

"Ow that was rude."

"Your such a hypocrite."

"Prove it."

"I don't need to prove anything to you."

He grinned while pressing play on the movie Lion King.

"No you didn't," I said smiling like a two year year old.

"Please don't sing along, is all I ask."

I folded my arms on his bed. Giving him my best puppy eyes.

"Fine but only kauna matata."

"Excellent choice," I said flashing my signature smile.

I sat in his lap as it started. Don't be hating we are very close. And we have never flirted or any of that stuff best friends of opposite sex tend to do. Don't take offense it's the cycle of love.
He starts twirling with my curled tips. I really like when people play with my hair. I nuzzle my head in his chest. I love Xavier he is like the only human being I can tolerate.
"You like that don't you," he said looking down at me.
I nod my head, staring back at Lion King.
I suddenly get this weird feeling in my stomach. I couldn't possibly have feelings for Xavier. Even though I have no idea what Justin and I are, I feel so guilty right now.

"Ariana," he says looking at me with lust in his eyes.

I grab his face and kiss him. He hesitates at first but starts kissing me back a few seconds later. He licks my lips asking for entrance. I pull away thinking of Justin when I shouldn't be.

"Sorry I shouldn't have done that."

"So, you regret kissing me," tears welling in his eyes.

"No, it's just-"

"Your sister."

"No why would you mention her."

"I'm sorry."

"You should be," I say unwrapping his arms from my torso.

"Ariana please stay."

"Don't you think it's too late for that," I said putting my converse back on.

He signs, running to the doorway to block me.

"Stop being childish let me through."

He signs again, letting me through. Probably to dig himself out of the hole he has created. But he's not getting out of it anytime soon.

I run down the spiral staircase. Quickly taking my coat off the rack, and putting it on my shoulders. Before his mom gets concerned. I look upstairs to see him looking down at me. My throat felt like it was closing looking back him. Tears at the brims of my eyes. I opened the door slamming it behind me. I seem to be doing that lately. Avoiding situations, and slamming doors. We all have our flaws I guess.

I turn on my radio. I blast it trying to drown my feelings.

"I'm hurting baby."

"I'm broken down."

"I need your loving."

"I need it now."

"When I'm without, I'm something weak."

I wiped my tears with my arm. Ruining my eyeliner. I tried holding the tears in to not look like there was a tsunami on my face.

"You got me begging."

"I'm on my knees."

"I don't want to be needing your love."

"I just wanna be deep in your love."

"And it's killing me when you're away."

This song is relating to me so much right now it's kind of scary. I turn the radio off parking in the only empty space in the very back. It's actually okay so I can fix my makeup, change, and put on my wig. Taking me 20 minutes to successfully do all of this. I start walking towards the school's campus.

Finally arriving at my dorm, I put the key in it's hole before gently opening the door.

"Where were you," he says looking at me frantically.

"Out."

"Where?"

"It doesn't concern you Justin. Just stay out of this,please," I say feeling a tear threatening to come out.

"Okay. If you want to talk about it let me know," he said smiling with sythmpathy in his eyes. I honestly don't know why he is being so nice to me.

"I'll let you know."

A/N: I hope this chapter was worth the wait. I feel like every kissing scene is so arkward. Please help me lmao. I did this chapter without Ileya, but without her this story wouldn't be possible. I hope this chapter was exciting like I said it would be :)