Yaya have been really disturbing me and it is really getting on my head,am so annoyed right now.

Nobody did anything wrong to me, I just want to be alone,me and my thoughts only.You know the kind of moment that you are sad and you don't even know the reason but you are just feeling down?

That is how am feeling right now.

Letting out a sigh I looked up at him "Carry the whole phone and go with it." I said passing my phone to him and he refused to collect it "I didn't ask for your phone Daya. I want the both of us to talk,I have been feeling somehow for the past two days, I just feel like something bad is coming pretty soon." He sigh and I roll my eyes feeling more annoyed.

"Then what should I do?" I asked eyeing him and he seemed taken aback by my reply.

"You said you will always be there,I should come to you if I have a problem." He replied accusingly.

"I said that,but for crying out loud you are not a baby,you are an adult so learn to solve your problems by yourself." I shouted and he nod his head.

"Thank you for always being there." He replied sarcastically.

"You are not the only one who have problems,I also do so please let me be." I said angrily and he let his mouth hang for a minute before he scoffed angrily and walked out of the room.

Annoying human being!

I slumped back on the bed and carried my phone but I didn't feel like doing anything with it so I threw it away,well kept it aside to be precise.

I love my phone no matter what.

Tears started rolling from my eyes and I was feeling my heart ache "Why on earth am I crying?" I asked myself but no one could answer me, I had absolutely no one to talk to.

Am alone!

I have many people around me and yet I still feel alone.Du'a tries to be there but she cannot always be there right?

She also have her own problems to worry about.

I cried and cried for a reason am yet to know but it felt good though.

A message came through my phone and I smiled.

"Hey besty"           

Du'a just know when to message,I was about to reply when A called and I picked it up.

"Are you okay?" That was the first thing he asked "Yes am fine,why did you ask?" I ask "It proved me right,your voice is cracky,you cried right?" I groaned and heard him chuckle "Am fine, I just felt like crying." I replied truly.

"You cannot just cry without a reason.Their most be a reason,your tears are precious precious." Gosh that english got me laughing "Which kind of english is that?" I asked muffling my laughter.

"Stop diverting the topic." I wasn't trying to,sometimes people think they know you when they really don't.Like you don't even know yourself and then someone will come and start claiming that they know you,a person can change anytime and people still go on saying that they can read someone like a book.

"A penny for your thought." Oh I just forgot that I was on a phone call "What is the hardest question in the world?" I asked curiously "Just so you know_" I didn't let him finish "Curiosity kills the cat." I finished for him "And just so you know,am not a cat." I emphasized laughing "The hardest question is when you are asked to describe yourself.You change everyday,the yesterday you is not the same as the today you.Somethings remain unchanged but some do overtime." He let out a breath before he continued "We are human beings and Ervin Goffman said that the whole work is a stage,all of us are trying to maintain an impression,it is either verbal or gestural. We are all trying to maintain the impression a person have on us.Have you ever wondered why some marriages don't last?" Of course I do "I do." I replied.

"Well that is because they really didn't show their real self before the wedding,the other person will start thinking that they have changed but no...they were always like that,you just didn't know." This is absolutely correct "You will not know that person until you live together for a long time." It made me smile,the way he explained everything to me.

"You know am afraid of being real infront of people,what if they leave me? What if they think am too childish? What if they think am too crazy?" I said out loud "If they find me annoying then they are leaving me." I have this fear of losing people in my life "They should leave,they are not worth all this precious." A silent pause and he continued "If they can't love  you the way you are then they should leave,even if they leave that doesn't mean you are going to die,let them leave you will find people that are better than them.

I broke into tears "I feel like am not enough, I feel like I need to maintain myself. I need to act accordingly." It is so annoying that I get worried over small things "God! You are so emotional." He said laughing.

"By the way I didn't ask you questions." I smiled as I fix my scarf.

I smile too much now adays.

"Hudaya!" Mama called "Am coming." I answered "So I have to go,just like those questions aren't on our side,we always get cut of in between." I said laughing "We didn't even start this one." He whined and his voice was cute.

Knowing that mama hates it when she calls and you take time before going,I quickly hang up the calk and went to the parlor.

"You have been inside that room since when you came back." She said rolling her eyes "Why did you call me?" I asked and she smiled at me "I wanted you out of that room." She replied and we just continued comversing.

After watching all the series we watch I went to my room and changed to sleep.Sleep was starting to envelop me when mama knocked on my door sounding worried.

"Mama?" I questioned.

"Bashir is still not back and his phone is unreachable." Came her distressed tone "Calm down,I will just call his friends." She nod her head,stupid yaya I will deal with him for staying out late when he comes back.

I called all his friends and to my surprise they all didn't have any idea of where he is "He have never been this late,it is already 12:00 Hudaya." I was also getting worried so I got my long hijab from my room "Let's go to the police station and file a missing complaint." I suggested and mama didn't argue.

We went to the police station and filed a missing complaint and thank God they payed attention to us,they asked for his car name,the color and the plate number.

"Am very worried about him Hudaya." Mama sobbed out and I patted her back "Am sure he is fine Mama,stop worrying yourself." I assured her but I needed that assurance myself.

I just hope yaya is fine.

After nearly two hours two police men came and picked us up in the car saying that they are going to show us something.

We reached The outskirt of the city and Yaya's car was there "It doesn't look like an accident,the car is totally fine."One of the police men said.

Tears pricked down from my eyes without permission,it wasn't an accident so it can only mean one thing.

My brother.

My yaya who I snapped at earlier.

My brother have been kidnapped.