TaeYong had entered his office room having left the commotion of the party that was going on in his garden for a moment, to take a look at his lower lip that was aching him because of the small injury you had caused to him when he kissed you.

He knew that you wouldn't react well to it but he never thought that you would bite him that harshly even though he kinda deserved more than that for that action. It wasn't that he like dit either though so there was no need of you to be so defensive and bothered. It should have been a privilege that he even let you meet his lips even once in your lifetime.

"Does it hurt?" LeeGuk's voice was heard behind him as he had followed after his smooth exit and TaeYong just left down the small mirror he had grabbed and was checking the inside art of his lip, which was still bleeding making him savor the taste of iron.

"I am okay. It's a small sacrifice."He smiled a bit right before his phone started buzzing, taking his attention. He gave a glance at LeeGuk before answering so he will know to not speak a word and after a few seconds that he heard the man on the other side of the line, reporting to him of the situation at hand, he smirked in satisfaction and hanged up.

"I really don't like that facial expression. You are doing something that you shouldn't be, am I right?" LeeGuk asked him as he approached a bit more, his expression now serious as he had grew bothered by the thought and only that his brother might be doing actions that will later cost him emotionally.

"It was a must. I can no longer wait. I need something to protect me and I need it now." His eyes lowered to the floor for a moment before he went and took a seat at his chair, turning his back at his friend.

"Please tell me what is exactly that you did" LeeGuk exhaled before questioning him as he felt raged at him after a long time.

"You don't need to know. I told you this time you can trust me. This time I will solve my problems right." TaeYong looked out the window with an uncertain gaze even though his voice sounded rather confident, inside he was far from that.

His solution was the best possible one as it could solve both the issues he had looming over his head as well as enabled him to save a life. Your life. If LeeGuk had been right about Jimin possibly having taken a liking on you and that was why he was dragging so long his job and knowing you that were a quiet difficult individual especially when it comes to men. If Jimin was to accomplish his mission tonight after he had made sure to pressure him right through the man whom he was in debt to and hand to him by tomorrow the evidence of your treason as a wife in order to take the money that he needed from him. Then he will have the ticket to his divorce which if time was to tick at his favor would also get you out of life danger.

"I have been by your side since you can remember yourself and now you tell me that I don't need to know? I have been by your side, I have got you out of trouble more times than I have drunk water and you are telling me! To stay in the dark and just leave you to do whatever?!" TaeYong noticed clearly the anger on  LeeGuk's tone thing that was rare for him to display because even in the most stressful of times he always tended to make things light however it seems that this time he didn't want to make them light because in some way he had offended him.

TaeYong stayed quiet at his small outburst because he had no intention to really hurt his feelings. In reality he was just guilty over him and all the years of life he had wasted looking after him and his wrongdoings. He was the bigger brother he never had even though he never talked to him with the respect he would have been obligated to talk to an older person than him. He was the only friend that endured his arrogance and rudeness, the only one he could really defend on and trusted more than anyone because LeeGuk had simply won that and for once he had decided to not involve him in things that could possibly weigh in his heart as his actions weren't the kindest someone would do. But when the need arises no matter how much you may not like something you have to take action. 

"Let's get going. We shouldn't let our guessed alone." He stood up and left the room avoiding to look at LeeGuk whom stayed frozen and a bit dumbfounded by his behavior. Not that he was ever well mannered with him but at that instant his behavior sure had ticked him off by a lot.

I wish you could recognize for once..how damn much I have done for you...instead of making me regret for ever loving you as the only family, I acknowledge in my heart.

He thought before he forced a smile on his face and followed TaeYong out of his office and back to the party.

---Time skip---

Time had gone by and thankfully your guests had started taking their leave one by one, coming and greeting you and TaeYong as well as his parents and yours that were beside you.

The small talks of bidding them a good night and a safe trip home were occupying your mouth but your eyes couldn't help but travel around the place in every chance you were to get, in search of Jimin's figure.

After the scene with TaeYong and you kissing, you had seen him again after a while but his eyes not once turned to look your way and you weren't able to look at his face since he had placed his mask on. He was absorbed in his work and that was normal but also you couldn't help but have a strange feeling inside that kept your thoughts at edge, insisting that something was wrong with him.

You could assume why he was bothered but you also didn't want him to have such feelings because there was no reason to. No one's kisses ever meant more than his to you even though you may have never admitted so out loud. He should have been able to know, only by the way you look at his eyes, only by the way a simple stare of his could make you grow tense and nervous. He was the one that had expressed boldly his belief of you being attracted to him just as much as he was after all so he definitely could feel what your lips had back then denied, yet for some reason he felt so distant from you at that instant despite the fact that his body was at sight.

"..Ah! Yes. I wish you a good night." You felt the nag on your sight coming from your mother as you had lost focus for a moment but thankfully still managed to reply without looking strange.

"Just where is your mind traveling to?" She leaned in and whispered to your ear and you gave her a smile as well as an excuse that you had a headache that was disturbing you slightly.

"Go take some rest then dear. We can handle the rest." She encouraged you and you didn't hesitate to take on her advice since that would enable you to leave and go find Jimin.

"Then, I will be doing so. Mother, Father. Thank you for coming. I hope I see you again soon. Have a good night." You bowed at them before excusing yourself and heading inside at the direction you saw Jimin going a second ago.

You slowed your pace as you didn't want to be suspicious till you reached the stairs and instead of heading to your room you went to the left, where the kitchen was as well as the corridor that went long and long down to the individual rooms of the workers.

People were still coming and going in a hurry as there where many things to be put in place even after the event was to be over and you were thinking of entering the room and asking for Jimin to make you chamomile and bring it to your room. However, you weren't able to pass the doorstep as suddenly a hand grabbed your wrist and started pulling you down the corridor.

You let him take you as you recognized that it was Jimin despite the fact that he had still his mask on and after you finally reached his room, you gave a quick look behind you to make sure no one had seen you, before following him inside.

You looked at him as he stood before you without saying a word for a second, then he just stepped closer and wrapped his arm around your waist bringing your body closer to his. You were surprised at the unexpected action yet you didn't break the eye contact as his face was covered with his black mask and all you could focus on was his eye that were piercing at you or his lips that were exposed.

He left a shaking breath escape his lips as he brought his other hand to caress your cheek slowly and softly as if he wanted to touch your skin yet he mustn't.

"Jimin-" You called his name as you really wanted to ask him and talk to him about what happened earlier but his index finger that rested upon your lips refrained you from speaking further.

"I know. You hated it. You must have yet...Please say it so I can hear it...That no one's kisses will ever be better than mine to you." His eyes portrayed sadness as he spoke those words that made you feel guilty of making him have these insecure feelings.

"Yes. That's right. Only your kisses are what I love and accept."You replied as didn't want him even for a moment to feel hurt because of you as his eyes were portraying you that he was.

He looked down after your reply and you remained in his arms unmoved for a bit, till you reached your hand and lifted his face for his eyes to meet you again and there you met them, now teary.

"Jimin what's wrong?" You asked him fully concerned as you proceed to take his mask off so you could have a better view of his face.

"I know, it may sound pathetic to you. You may laugh and contempt me and my feelings. For when I even had a chance to win your heart, to begin with."  A bitter smile formed on his lips as he looked at you at that close distance that made you feel as if something was tightening up your heart.

"Tell me Miss Lee. Am I a fun toy to have around? Are my feelings something that will never fully be taken seriously because I can't make you believe in them no matter what I may do? Should I give up on you or should I insist? " He left his lips to brush against yours as he kept speaking, his actions bringing your mind to a poisoned state that awoke your desire for him while his speech pierced through the protective walls of logic and into your heart like an arrow.

"If you don't love me nor want me then why am I the only fool that does? Why am I the only one who's mind is going crazy over the sight of your lips touching the lips of someone else?" He whispered before he finally dared to concur them, passionately and deeply.

The feeling was irresistible, the tension just to much to not succumb into and you just couldn't deny how much his touch was all you could ever ask at that moment. After all those unwanted touches you had endured, you would like for him to erase everything and replace them with his own.

However this still was something that you shouldn't be doing. This was something that you can't afford and even though the reality was still present, the logical thoughts in your mind started getting drunk in between his sweet lips. And when he pulled away, you felt as if he had taken your breath with him and all you could think of was how to go back to that short heaven you just experienced together.

"If you can't be mine, can't I be yours instead?"Jimin questioned as he brought your hand upon his lips and moved it from there down on his neck till his chest.

"You don't have to love me if I am not worthy of it. I will just love you instead but please, please set me free from this agony...  It's torturing to only imagine how your love might feel. It's torturing that I can only dream about it... So let me know please what do I have to do... Kill me with the truth, and rip me apart if you must but give me an answer right this instant."

His gaze was so strong yet broken, so serious yet sad, a storm of emotions you couldn't fully grasp that made yours as messed up. Was this man declaring his love for you right now? So passionately and strongly? So absolutely and truly? Was he showing you how much of hell it can be to be around you as nothing but an observer? Was it possible that someone could have really fallen in love with you, to this extend?

It was truly hard to believe yet you couldn't help but wish for it to be true deep inside. You needed it to be so simply because you had stared having some feelings for him too. Just how good would it be for once to get someone whom really loved you as much as you could. Someone whom would have your back and at who's thought only you would not feel lonely. And honestly Jimin had grown to be just that. A  constant support as well as someone that seemed to always try his best to understand your emotions. Someone that showed care and kindness to you without having anything particular to gain. He was like the only real person among the fake people that surrounded you.

The minutes that you left to pass in silence made the atmosphere heavier as Jimin felt his heart being torn apart no matter what you were to reply to him. He was speaking words which he, in reality, felt inside him but he was also using them to manipulate you.  It felt as if he was dipping gold to dirt and after they get stained, his feelings would hold no value. How sorry he was, it would never matter, how much it hurt he could ever complain of. How much he despised the fact that the kisses and love he was about to give you so wholeheartedly would be seen as nothing but actions of malice in the near future. His feelings were never to find justice and he knew that well.

His pained heart and hateful thoughts directed to reality and his own self came to a halt as you stepped closer and captivated his lips, softly at first, then you wrapped your arms around his neck, giving him the opening to take control. He couldn't help but do so, as pulling away from you was way too difficult to be done at that moment.

He would have never thought that he would find himself one day involved in such a situation. He would have never imagined the taste of you to make his heart thumb up so loudly while his blood started craving for your body. Thing that made him after you freed his lips, to trace down your skin hungry and messily wherever he could.

From your jawline to your neck while his fingers got entangled at the laces behind your back in search of the zipper that would enable him to get rid of that beautiful dress that now was only but unnecessary fabric around your body.

"I am yours." He heard your weak voice escape from your lips along with many other short breaths that he had brought them to be at that state, with his actions then he halted his movements as those words sunk in his mind and brought his eyes to meet yours again, which were now looking at him in a way, he had never thought that it was possible for anyone to look at him.

It was hard for him to define at that moment what were the feelings that your gaze actually held because you yourself were complexed at that instant. There was no feeling that you had inside you that was absolute when it came to him. You could never fully trust him, you could never fully want him, you could never fully love him because fear would never let you do so. Your reality was just too harsh to ignore. The times you had been let down too deep to forget and the wounds you carried to hurtful to ignore. Why would you go looking for others? Why would you ever allow yourself to love when everything around you the only thing it had ever proven was that love was nothing but a facade to deceive humans nowadays.

The love you liked and hoped for was only imaginary. Laying between book pages of the past and the minds of hopeless romanticists. Yet he felt as unreal as that ideal love that a soul may crave for. 

There was nothing to assure you about a single thing that his lips may let free yet something inside you kept telling you that it was not his words that you needed to trust. And if you were to listen to that then the feel of him had never been nor felt wrong, not even for a second.

He caressed your cheek gently after he had taken in that perplex gaze and had taken notice of the hint of fear that was laying under it, then he smiled softly before he left his forehead lean on yours.

"Fear not my love. For whatever may happen, I swear, I will die as much as you do. We are in this together."Jimin's words had the intention to reassure you as well as his own self that in a way he was to be just towards you. Even if the only he could be true to you was the pain.

His fingers finally found what he earlier misses and slowly lowered the zipper behind your back while he kept the eyes contact steady and soon the straps on your shoulders that were keeping the fabric still on you, were brushed off by his fingers till you felt your long dress hitting the floor.

You stood still as you were lost at his eyes till he started kissing you again while his hands and yours did their best to take off clothes of his body. Lost in the thoughts of only each other, under the mist of love, you were about to gift him love tonight, whatever the cost may be.

At that very instant, your whole world was only him, the focus of your heartbeat and your thoughts however his focus was not so absolute on you because he had to think of the camera that was filming you and for ways to expose your body to it as less as it could be possible. He may not be able to spare you fully but in his way, he was still trying to protect you in each small way he could.

So pathetic were his tries. So pathetic was him himself as he could only break each second more. Scattering his own beliefs in goodness and kindness. Staining his own pride and hopeful illusions about life. Who was ever gonna be able to feel mercy for him after this? Who could feel his sorrow and take pity? When he himself fed his self loath as he finally got you among his bedsheets. When he himself generously gifted a reason to himself to grow miserable more and more, till the day of his last breath.

---To be continued......

{I made my own self heavy-hearted writing this. Like wow. Could I get more dramatic😂😂}