I want to make a new account for wattpad. This account is tainted with many past mistakes and probably won't be Minecraft related at all despite it starting out that way. I've moved on. If people still want that I'll probably update here. (I'll finish off the books I'm writing too) I just need a fresh start. When I get an idea I feel like those who do read want Minecraft and not something else because that's what I originally wrote.

My writing has matured (or I hope it did) and I want an account I can be proud of. This is three years old, and honestly I wasn't the brightest 11/12 year old out there. I made horrible writing, probably tried to be edgy and "cool" by being "depressed" and shit. Yeah. If you're acting like I'm gonna yell you to stop. I'm not being mean, but you will look back at that and hate your self.

I wasn't all "yeah I self harm and I need pity bleh." (If you legit self harm for any reason even if it's for attention please try to find someone who can help you. The fact you're doing it for attention means that you're either neglected or feel unappreciated and you need to be around better people, and if your depressed try to just busy your self with things such as volunteer work. It makes you feel great because you did something good. I mean you could do school work to get your mind off t and then feel great about your grades, but I'm not depressed and I can barely motivate my self to open my geometry folder and I don't think I have depression.)

I would say things that made me seem depressed, said I had though of self harm etc. I mean I know I have shitty self esteem. That's not a lie. I can't take compliments and I HATE when I'm put on the spot for being good. I hate it. I would rather be told I was wrong because less people would care.

Like the other week. As glad as I am for getting the marcher of the week it's really embarrassing. I hate being the center of attention in a large group. (With a few friends is different.)

But I'm in not way depressed and I don't have anxiety. I don't remember what I said years ago, but I remember acting all emo because I thought it was "cool" and such. This account is what's left of it.

I know that even if I leave this account it will still be a part of me. It will never leave, and it will probably bite my ass. I'd just like to apologize for what I did say or what I might have fibbed about.

I am now 15 years old. A good three years later and I've been debating this for a while. I've been scared about people discovering this account. According to middle school kids a middle school teacher had found their wattpad (my small group of writing friends) and I got really scared because they followed me. I had a LOAD of NSFW stuff on here, but apparently I didn't care enough to actually find out who they were and I didn't stop.

That leads to another thing. The NSFW aka smut I've written is another HUGE regret of mine. It's not appropriate. I'm also under aged and I shouldn't be writing about that and posting it in public not to mention exposing other possible minors who follow me to that.

My first fanfiction I read was a smut. I was too innocent to really understand what it was, but I understood it was sex. I feel like "smut" and "lemon" is just a way for the writers to make it seem like it's not porn. Truth is it might was well be called a sex fic or whatever.

I'm not shaming those who write it. You do what you want. I am just saying I personally regret it, and that I am sorry for those I did expose to said content. I shouldn't have written such content, and I intend to not do it again until I am a legal adult or ever. I understand there are younger kids on here who could accidentally stumble upon it like I did.

One more reason I am moving accounts is because my writing has changed so much. I feel like the poor writing on here is making me demotivated to write this. I've done what I could to improve it, and hopefully it did.

I've been planning on writing a book too and I want a new account that has nothing to do with fandoms to put it on. It's no where near ready to even start writing because I only really have the lore and characters. I'm currently working on their backstories. Only 3 have a half baked design, and the character who was originally the main character is probably going to be a lesser role. I'll have to see where it goes and how I want the story to work out before even planning roles. (I do know how some will interact with others though.)

For all I know it might be a book where every chapter switches POVs ( it stays in third person) to follow what's going on on their end. I just want you guys to know, and I want to see what you all think.